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          <titlePart type="main">AUTOBIOGRAPHY<lb/>
OF<lb/>
JOHN G. FEE ,<lb/>BEREA,  KENTUCKY.</titlePart>
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        <docImprint><publisher>PUBLISHED BY THE<lb/>
NATIONAL CHRISTIAN ASSOCIATION,</publisher>
<pubPlace>CHICAGO ILL.;</pubPlace>
<docDate>1891.</docDate></docImprint>
        <pb id="fee2" n="2"/>
        <titlePart type="verso">Entered according to act of Congress the year 1891,<lb/>
BY JOHN G. FEE,<lb/>
In the office of the Librarian of Congress, at Washington, D. C.</titlePart>
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      <div1>
        <head>INTRODUCTION.</head>
        <p>IN consenting to write an introduction to the Autobiography
of one whom I have long known and honored, I desire 
to say that the nineteenth century has not been more remarkable 
for its discoveries in science, art, and all forms of material progress, 
than it has for the moral heroism of many men and women whose 
courage, faith, patience and self-sacrifice have done so much 
to promote justice and humanity, and for the advancement of the
Redeemer's kingdom. Among these Christian patriots there is one 
whose long life of consecration to the good of his fellow men 
ought to be not only an example but an inspiration to the youth 
of our land. John G. Fee, of Berea, Ky., was born and raised under 
the influences of slavery and was surrounded by those powerfully 
conservative forces that held many good men to the defense of 
oppression.</p>
        <p>Perhaps no other institution ever did so much to pervert 
all sense of justice and to deaden all feelings of compassion 
as that which declares that under a republican government 
men might hold their unoffending fellow men in bondage.</p>
        <p>“Chain them, and task them, and exact their sweat,
      With stripes that Mercy with a bleeding heart 
           Weeps when she sees inflicted on a beast.”</p>
        <p>Nay, more, it held that this right of property in man 
carried with it the right to set at naught the family relation 
and doom men to the perpetual ignorance of God and his 
word.</p>
        <p>      The youth of our land can have little conception of the
absolute control that half a century ago the system of 
slavery had on the minds and consciences of the nation. 
Nothing but a sublime faith in God enabled the men and 
women of that day to cheerfully accept reproach, ostracism 
and ridicule as inevitable consequences of the defense of 
the poor and needy whose special claim was that they
<pb id="fee4" n="4"/>
were at once the feeblest and most despised of the children 
of men. Nor has this been the sole, possibly not the greatest, 
of the moral conflicts that have demanded and developed a 
true, moral heroism. The spirit of caste, the outgrowth of 
slavery, was and is not less exacting and iniquitous. To 
regard a fellow man simply in his relation to his Maker, and 
to accord to him just that appreciation that his intelligence 
and moral worthiness demand, to do this without regard to 
sect or color, is still held in large sections of our country 
to be a crime against society which will not be tolerated when 
there is power to suppress it. So, too, the moral protest against 
oathbound secret societies,  -  the uncompromising hostility 
to the liquor traffic and to any form of legislative approval of it, 
and above all, the opposition to divisions in the church of 
Christ as seen in the sects and denominations, demand a moral 
heroism which needs to be not less steadfast and self-sacrificing 
than that which wrested from slavery its scepter of power.</p>
        <p>Because Mr. Fee was in all these points most
uncompromising and true, and because of his indomitable
perseverance amidst abounding obstacles, he has achieved a
large measure of success, and won the appreciation of even his
sometime enemies. But Bro. Fee is now advanced in life. His
labor, though still efficient and valuable, cannot in the nature
of things much longer continue. His reward is in his works that
will follow him. In the language of the poet reformer, John G.
Whittier, as applied to another, we may say, “Thanks for the
good man's beautiful example.”</p>
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          <l>“His faith and works, like streams that intermingle,</l>
          <l>In the same channel ran;</l>
          <l>The crystal clearness of an eye kept single </l>
          <l>Shamed all the frauds of man.</l>
          <l>The very gentlest of all human natures </l>
          <l>He joined to courage strong,</l>
          <l>And love outstretching unto all God's creatures </l>
          <l>With sturdy hate of wrong.”</l>
        </lg>
        <signed>H. H. HINMAN.</signed>
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      <div1>
        <head>PREFACE.</head>
        <p>Some six years since a friend requested that I prepare articles
for the <hi rend="italics">Berea Evangelist</hi>, on the topic, “Berea: its History and
its Work.” I did so. The articles appeared in the <hi rend="italics">Berea Evangelist</hi> during the years 1885-6. Since that time friends have
urged that I prepare a sketch of my leadings and labors up to
my coming to Berea, and embody the whole in a volume. To do
so will now be labor and care; yet in this way I may be able to
do continued good,  -  utter truth when my tongue shall be silent.
I may be able in an emphatic way to say to the reader, <hi>Trust God</hi>  -  trust him for success, for support, for life. If in this way
you will trust God, he by his word, by his Spirit and by his
providence, will lead you into the highest usefulness of which,
in your day and generation, you are capable. Often trials will
come, friends fail, and the heavens above appear as brass and
the earth beneath as iron, yet if you will <hi rend="italics">hold on</hi> with Jacob, or
stand still with Moses, you will see the face of God; the Red Sea
of difficulties will open before you, and you will walk through
dry shod. The future journey may indeed be a barren, stony
wilderness, yet the manna will be fresh every morning and the
<foreign lang="iw">shekinah</foreign> of God will go before you and lead you across the
Jordan, where you will eat the “new corn” in the land of
promise. To this my own consciousness bears testimony; were I
to say less I would not be faithful.</p>
        <closer><signed>JOHN G. FEE</signed><hi rend="italics">Berea, Ky., 1891</hi>.</closer>
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        <head>CONTENTS.</head>
        <list type="simple">
          <item>CHAPTER I. 
Parentage.  -  Conversion.  -  College Life.  -  At the
Theological Seminary.  -  Deep Conviction and
Consecration.  -  Field of Labor.  -  Burden of Spirit.
  -  Sealing of the Holy Spirit.  -  Wife Chosen.  -  
Betrothal.  -  Search for the Field of Labor.  -  
Marriage.  -  Called to the Church in Lewis
County.  -  Anti-Slavery Sermon.  -  Cast out of a
Boarding-place . . . . . <ref target="fee9" targOrder="U">9 - 30</ref></item>
          <item>CHAPTER II. 
A Home.  -  Resolutions of the Church.  -  Salary.  -  
Meeting of Synod.  -  Resolutions.  -  My 
Withdrawal.   -  Ecclesiastical Position.  -  Union 
on Christ.  -  Separation from A. M. Society.  -  
Anticipated Mob.  -  Prosecution of Hannahs.  -  
Invitation to C. M. Clay.  -  Expected Violence.  -  
Anti-Slavery Manual.  -  Protest against Secret
Orders . . . . . <ref target="fee31" targOrder="U">31 - 55</ref></item>
          <item>CHAPTER III. 
Commission from the A. M. A.  -  Preaching and
Church Building.  -  Redemption of a Slave
Woman.  -  Her Effort to Free her Children.  -  
Her Capture and Imprisonment . . . . . <ref target="fee56" targOrder="U">56-71</ref></item>
          <item>CHAPTER IV. 
Imprisonment of a Colporter.  -  Assault on Myself.
  -  House Burning.  -  Church House.  -  Baptism.  -  
Consideration of the Subject.  -  Baptism of 
Myself and Wife.  -  Invitation to Madison County.
  -  Organization of a Church.  -  Call to the Church.
  -  Selection of a Place.  -  Name, Berea . . . . . <ref target="fee72" targOrder="U">72 - 93</ref></item>
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          <item>CHAPTER V. 
Removal to Madison County.  -  Projected College.  -  
Its Foundation Principles.  -  Survey of Fields.
  -  Mob at Dripping Springs.  -  Mob in Rockcastle
County.  -  Fourth of July.  -  C. M. Clay and I
differ.  -  Mob in Rockcastle County.  -  Mob in
Madison County.  -  Dark Days at
Berea.  -  Entreaty to Leave.  -  Decision to Hold
On.  -  Trusts . . . . . <ref target="fee94" targOrder="U">94 -124</ref></item>
          <item>CHAPTER VI. 
Coming of J. A. R. Rogers.  -  Visit of C. M. Clay.
  -  His Expediencies.  -  The first Commencement.
Adoption of a Constitution.  -  Caste.  -  
Sectarianism.  -  Decision to Raise Funds.  -  
Visit to the Imprisoned Mother.  -  Address 
in Plymouth Church.  -  Expulsion of Teachers 
and Friends at Berea.  -  Excitement in Bracken 
County.  -  Wife Returns to Berea.  -  Our 
Sojourn in Ohio.  -  Death and Burial of 
our Son Tappan.  -  Visit to Berea . . . . . <ref target="fee125" targOrder="U">125 -160</ref></item>
          <item>CHAPTER VII. 
Effort to Get Back.  -  Battle at Richmond, Ky.
  -  Again Mobbed at Augusta, Ky.  -  Mobbed at
Washington, Ky.  -  Return of my Wife to Berea.
Her Stay There.  -  Return to the Border.  - 
Stay at Parker's Academy.  -  Return to
Berea.  -  Resumption of the Work.  -  Moved 
to go to Camp Nelson  -  My Work There . . . . . <ref target="fee161" targOrder="U">161 -183</ref></item>
          <item>CHAPTER VIII. 
 Return to Berea.  -  Resumption of the Work.  -  
The American Missionary Association.  -  Work
Denominational  -  Divisive.  -  Association of
Ministers and Churches.  -  Kentucky Missionary
Association.  -  A Convention of Christians.  -  An
Address, “Wherein We Differ from the 
Denominations.” . . . . . <ref target="fee184" targOrder="U">184-212</ref></item>
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        <head>CHAPTER I.</head>
        <argument>
          <p>Parentage.  -  Conversion.  -  College Life.  -  At the
Theological Seminary.  -  Deep Conviction and
Consecration.  -  Field of Labor.  -  Burden of Spirit.
  -  Sealing of the Holy Spirit.  -  Wife Chosen.  -  
Betrothal.  -  Search for the Field of Labor.  -  
Marriage.  -  Called to the Church in Lewis
County.  -  Anti-Slavery Sermon.  -  Cast out of a
Boarding-place.</p>
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        <p>I WAS born in Bracken County, Kentucky,
Sept. 9, 1816.</p>
        <p>My father, John Fee, was the son of John Fee,
senior. He was of Scotch and English descent.
His wife, formerly Elizabeth Bradford, was of
Scotch-Irish descent. My father was an
industrious, thrifty farmer. Unfortunately he
inherited from his father's estate a bondman  -  
a lad bound until he should be 25 years of age.</p>
        <p>My father came to the conclusion that if he
would have sufficient and permanent labor he
must have slave labor. He purchased and reared
slaves until he was the owner of some thirteen.
This was a great sin in him individually, and to
the family a detriment, as all moral wrongs are.</p>
        <pb id="fee10" n="10"/>
        <p>My father was observant, and by his reading
kept himself familiar with passing events. He
saw that the effects of slavery were bad; that it
was a hindrance to social and national prosperity;
and consequently invested his money in lands in
free States and early deeded portions of these
lands to each of his children. He did not see the
end from the beginning,  -  what was to be the
after-use of some of these lands.</p>
        <p>My mother was industrious and economical; 
a modest, tender-hearted woman, and a fond
mother. I was her first born. She loved me very
much, and I loved her in return.</p>
        <p>Her mother, Sarah Gregg, was a Quakeress
from Pennsylvania. Her eldest son, Aaron Gregg,
my wife's grandfather, was an industrious free
laborer, an ardent lover of liberty, and very 
outspoken in his denunciations of slavery. This
opposition to slavery and his love of liberty
passed to his children and children's children,
almost without exception.</p>
        <p>In my boyhood I thought nothing about the
inherent sinfulness of slavery. I saw it as a
prevalent institution in the family life of my
relations on my father's side of the house. These
were kind to me, and occupied what
<pb id="fee11" n="11"/>
were considered good social positions. I was
often scolded for being so much with the slaves,
and threatened with punishment when I would
intercede for them. Slavery, like every other evil
institution, bore evil fruits, blunted the finest
sensibilities and hardened the tenderest hearts.</p>
        <p>By false teaching, unreflective youth can be
led to look upon moral monstrosities as harmless;
as even heaven-approved institutions. Vivid now
is the impression made on my youthful mind on
seeing a Presbyterian preacher, who was a guest
in my grandfather's house, rise before an immense
audience and select for his text, “Cursed be Canaan; a
servant of servants shall he be unto his brethren.”
Of course the drift of the discourse was after the 
plea of the slaveocracy  -  “God decreed that the 
children of Ham should be slaves to the children
of Shem and Japheth; that Abraham held slaves, 
and Moses sanctioned such.”</p>
        <p>All this was intensified by seeing a much
venerated neighbor, and slaveholder, who
had represented the people in the State
Legislature, mount his horse, then uncovering his
gray hairs, cry out in a loud voice, “The
<pb id="fee12" n="12"/> greatest sermon between heaven and earth.” The
providence and truth of God led me, in after
years, to a very different conclusion.</p>
        <p>In the year 1830, when I was fourteen years
old, Joseph Corlis, an earnest Christian man, took
a subscription school near to my father's house,
and insisted with great earnestness that he be
allowed to board in my father's family. There was
a providence in this. Under his prayers and faithful
labors, I was deeply convicted of sin and gave
myself to God. My desire was to connect myself
with the M. E. church. My father opposed, saying
I was too young. He was not himself a Christian.
Some two years after this he was awakened,
joined the Presbyterian church near to his home,
and requested that I go with him. I desired a home
with God's people, and gladly embraced the
opportunity. After the lapse of some two years I
was impressed that it was my duty to prepare for
the Gospel ministry. I soon entered as a student in
Augusta College, then located in Augusta,
Bracken Co., Ky., my native county. I prosecuted
my studies there for about two and a-half
years, then went to Miami University, at
Oxford, Ohio, and there finished my
<pb id="fee13" n="13"/>
course of classical study save the review of the
last term of study; and finding I could do this at
Augusta College, and enter Lane Theological
Seminary at the beginning of the term of study
there, I returned to Augusta College and took my
diploma there. I entered Lane Seminary in the year
1842. Here I met in class one of my former
classmates, John Milton Campbell, a former
student at Oxford, Ohio. He was a man of marked
piety and great goodness of heart. Years
previously he had consecrated himself to the work
of missions and chose West Africa as his field.
Another member of the same class was James C.
White, formerly of Boston, Massachusetts, late
pastor of the Presbyterian church on Poplar St.,
Cincinnati. These brethren became deeply
interested in me as a native of Kentucky and in
view of my relation to the slave system, my father
being a slaveholder. They pressed upon my
conscience the text, “Thou shalt love the Lord thy
God with all thy heart, and thy neighbor as thy
self,” and as a practical manifestation of this, “Do
unto men as ye would they should do unto you.” I saw
that the duty enjoined was fundamental in the religion
<pb id="fee14" n="14"/>
of Jesus Christ, and that unless I embraced the
principle and lived it in honest practice, I would
lose my soul. I saw also that as an honest man I
ought to be willing to wear the name which would
be a fair exponent of the principle I espoused.
This was the name Abolitionist, odious then to
the vast majority of people North, and especially
South. For a time I struggled between odium on
the one hand, and manifest duty on the other. I
saw that to embrace the principle and wear the
name was to cut myself off from relatives and
former friends, and apparently from all prospects
of usefulness in the world. I had in the grove near
the seminary a place to which I went every day
for prayer, between the hours of eleven and
twelve. I saw that to have light and peace from
God, I must make the consecration. I said, “Lord,
if needs be, make me an Abolitionist.” The
surrender was complete. I arose from my knees
with the consciousness that I had died to the
world and accepted Christ in all the fullness of his
character as I then understood Him. Self must be
surrendered. The test, the point of surrender, may
be one thing to one man, a different thing to
another man; but it must be made,  -  all given to
Christ.</p>
        <pb id="fee15" n="15"/>
        <p>In this consecration  -  this death to the
world  -  I also made up my mind to accept all that
should follow. Imperfect as has been my life, I do
not remember that in all my after difficulties I
had to consider anew the questions of sacrifice
of property, of comfort, of social position, of
apparent failure, of personal safety, or of giving
up life itself. The latter I regarded as even
probable. This, with the rest, had been embodied
in my former consecration. I felt that “my life
was hid with Christ in God.”</p>
        <p>Soon after the submission and consecration
referred to, the question arose, Where ought I to
expend my future efforts, and manifest forth this
love to God and man? I had invitations to go with
class-mates into the State of Indiana, into
communities thrifty and prosperous, with
multiplied schools and growing churches. This
was enticing to young aspirations, even to those
who intended to do good. I was also considering
seriously the duty of going with J. M. Campbell,
my classmate, to Western Africa; and was in
correspondence with the American Board of
Commissioners for Foreign Missions in reference
to my going as a missionary abroad.</p>
        <pb id="fee16" n="16"/>
        <p>Whilst these fields of labor were being
considered, there came irresistibly the
consideration of another field: that part of the
home field which lay in the South, and especially
in Kentucky, my native State. Then came before
me my relation to the slave. I had shared in the
fruits of his unrequited toil; he was blind and
dumb, and there was no one to plead for him.</p>
        <p>“Love thy neighbor as thyself” rang in my ears.
I also considered the condition of the slave-owner. 
I knew he was willingly deceived by the
false teachings of the popular ministry. I knew
also that the great part of the non-slave-owners,
who were by their votes and action the actual
slaveholders, did not see their crime; that they
despised the slave because of his condition, and
that these non-slave-owners were violently
opposed to any doctrine or practice that might
treat the slave as a “neighbor,” a brother, and
make him equal before the law. I knew also that
the great body of the people were practically
without the fundamental principle of the Gospel,
love to God and love to man; that, as in the days of
Martin Luther, though the doctrine of justification
by faith was plainly written in the Bible,
<pb id="fee17" n="17"/>
yet the great body of people did not then see it;
so now the great doctrine of loving God
supremely and our neighbor as ourselves, “on
which hang all the law and the prophets,” though
clearly written in the Bible, was not seen in its
practical application by the great mass of the
people. Such was my relation to this people, and
theirs to God and the world, that I felt I <hi rend="italics">must</hi>
return and preach to them the gospel of impartial
love.</p>
        <p>In my bedroom on bended knee, and looking
through my window across the Ohio river, over
into my native State, I entered into a solemn
covenant with God to return and there preach
this gospel of love without which all else was 
“as sounding brass or a tinkling cymbal.”</p>
        <p>I had kept up correspondence with my father,
and told him my convictions and purposes. He
was greatly incensed, and wrote, saying,
“Bundle up your books and come home; I have
spent the last dollar I mean to spend on you in a
free State.”</p>
        <p>At the end of my second year of theological
study I returned to my home, intending to do
what I could for my father's conversion and that
of the family. I spent ten months with my father
and the community around. I felt
<pb id="fee18" n="18"/>during this time a great burden of spirit in view of
the condition of society and the work which lay
before me. I spent at one time, alone, in an open
field on my father's farm, a whole night in prayer.
On two other occasions, in prayer, alone, in a
distant part of the farm, I had to my soul two of
the fullest revelations of the glory of God in my
life's history. These were not my first conversion,
nor second conversion, nor sanctification. 
Conversion is committal to Christ, soul, body, 
and spirit. Of this I had been conscious previous 
to these after <hi rend="italics">sealings</hi> of the Spirit.</p>
        <p>Sanctification is none the less by faith than
justification, but it is continuous. There may arise
to-day a new duty, a new apprehension of a habit
un-Christ like, but not seen before. With this new
apprehension comes the necessity of a new
committal to Christ, with full assurance of
sustaining grace.</p>
        <p>There was another incident, a providence of
good to me in these months of stay and labor.
During a series of religious meetings held in
the church house where I had previously made
my own public profession of Christ, I saw
the conversion of the one to whom I gave
my best affections, and the one I then
<pb id="fee19" n="19"/>
decided to make, if possible, the sharer of my
future joys and sorrows. I had known her from
her childhood, and her mother before her; yet
with all her attractions and merits in my eyes, I
had no thought of choosing her previous to her
conversion, as the partner of my life. I knew no
one could be happy with me, nor a help-mate in
the life I had resolved to live, unless she was
converted, and thus one in <hi rend="italics">spirit</hi> and <hi rend="italics">purpose</hi> with myself.</p>
        <p>On that day of her conversion and espousal to
Christ (for I heard her experience and
consecration) I decided to seek with her future
oneness. I had before me a <hi rend="italics">governing purpose</hi>,
and to this all my plans conformed. Marriage to
me was not a mere impulse nor a mere business
transaction. I believed then, as now, that in order
to true and wise marriage there is some one in
the world in whom there is, first, that peculiar
combination of qualities which form the basis of
peculiar and exclusive affection; and then there
must be that purpose of soul and habit of life that
fit for future harmony and usefulness. This I
found in her: that affection, sympathy, courage,
cheer, activity, frugality and endurance, which
few could have combined, and which greatly 
<pb id="fee20" n="20"/>
sustained me in the dark and trying hours that
attended most of our pathway. This much is due
to truth and may be suggestive to others.</p>
        <p>By this time it became apparent that my work
in trying to convert my father to sentiments of
justice and liberty was ended. He had supplied
himself, from every possible source, with pro-slavery
books and pamphlets, and became violent
in his opposition to all efforts for the freedom of
the slave. He still hoped to efface my convictions
and lure me from my purpose. He offered to pay
all bills if I would go to Princeton, New Jersey,
and spend a year in the Theological Seminary in
that place. This offer I declined. I said, I will not
by any act of mine bid God-speed to an institution
in which the teaching and practice is subversive
of the fundamental principles of the Gospel,
  -  love to God supreme, and to our neighbors
as ourselves.</p>
        <p>I was offered the pastorate of two churches in
the county (Bracken), with abundant support,
but on the condition that I would “go along and
preach the Gospel and let the subject of slavery
alone.” I replied, “The Gospel is the good
news of salvation from sin, all sin, the sin of
slave-holding as well as all other sins;
<pb id="fee21" n="21"/>
and I will not sell my convictions in reference to
that which I regard as an iniquity, nor my liberty
to utter these convictions for a mess of pottage.”</p>
        <p>I saw that my work in that region was ended.
But my covenant was upon me to preach the
gospel of love in Kentucky. I needed therefore to
look for another field.</p>
        <p>Ecclesiastically I was connected with the New
School Presbyterian “church” or sect. The
ministerial brethren of that body at that time, in
Kentucky, were relatively few. Several of these
brethren earnestly solicited my co-operation. I
told them my convictions in reference to the
sinfulness of human slavery; of its utter
subversion of the great fundamental principles of
the Gospel. Some replied, “Yes, slavery is a bad
thing; so was polygamy; but God tolerated it, and
sent his prophets to preach principles that
ultimately supplanted it. So,” they said, “we must
deal with slavery.” I replied, Principles can be
effective only as they are seen and applied.</p>
        <p>I was fettered with the notion that if I would
purify the church, or sect, I must stay in it and
there apply the principles, hold up the truth.
Soon, however, an “eye-opener”
<pb id="fee22" n="22"/>
came. I was invited to attend a meeting of the
presbytery within the bounds of which I was then
living. This was near to Cynthiana, Harrison Co.,
Ky. I went. I saw there, as elsewhere, the blight
of slavery on every thing around me; the
degradation of the slave, the idleness of the
youth, the pride of the people, the spirit and
manner of the ministers themselves. Sabbath
came; and the hour to commune, to eat at the
Lord's table, came. With this came to my mind
the text, “If any man that is called a brother be a
fornicator, or covetous, or an idolater, or a railer,
or a drunkard, or an extortioner; with such an one
not to eat.” I said, If the slaveholder be not an
extortioner, then no man under heaven is. I left
the church house, and went out into an adjoining
woodland and sat down on a log and wept as I
thought of my condition,  -  that of holding
ecclesiastical connection with men with whom I
could not eat at the Lord's table. The pastorate of
that church was offered to me. I saw in the
eldership and leading members determined
opposition to the freedom of the slave. I saw
there was not to me, in that place, an open
door, and returned to my home.</p>
        <pb id="fee23" n="23"/>
        <p>After a few days I took my horse and started
on an exploring tour through the interior of the
State. Then, like most other ministers, I was
working in the narrow groove of sect, and that a
small one in Kentucky. Going from place to
place, I traveled on horseback between three
and four hundred miles. I heard, in my journeying,
of a small church in the city of Louisville,
Kentucky, then without a pastor. I visited the
church and found the membership small  -  
twenty-one in number. In this church there was to me
one hopeful feature, and that was that there was
but one slave-owner in the membership, and she
the widow of a former preacher, who was
represented as having been an anti-slavery man.
I said, This people will probably hear the truth
spoken in love. I agreed to come and labor with
them for a season. I then returned to my home in
Bracken County.</p>
        <p>Soon a letter from the church followed me,
saying, “If you will be useful among us, you must
separate yourself from that abolition presbytery
at Cincinnati.” By that presbytery I had been
licensed to preach the Gospel, and my
connection, ecclesiastically, was yet with that
body. I replied, If my usefulness
<pb id="fee24" n="24"/> with you depends upon my separating from
godly men, then with you I cannot be useful.</p>
        <p>Again I was apparently without a field of
labor; but my purpose was unchanged, and my
willing covenant to preach the gospel of love in
my native State was yet upon me, but in what
place to preach I knew not. With me it was then
true that I must go forward, “not knowing
whither I went.”</p>
        <p>As previously suggested, my life's future was
merged with that of another, and hers with mine:
She had decided to go where I should go, and if I
roamed in keeping my covenant, I should not
roam alone. Accordingly with her consent,
Matilda Hamilton and I were married September
26, 1844.</p>
        <p>Soon after this, two brethren, S. Y. Garrison
and E. P. Pratt, extended to me an invitation to
assist in a meeting to be held in Lewis County,
Kentucky. I accepted the invitation and went at
the time appointed. I found a new church house
just completed, and a large concourse of people.
As I was informed, most of the people were
descendants of Pennsylvanians, and but few
slave-holders were in the community. The
membership of the church was small, but to me
<pb id="fee25" n="25"/>
hopeful. There were at the beginning of the
meeting only three members. These were
women, wives of men who were not
slave-holders. During the meeting two persons, on
the profession of their faith, were added to the
church. These were not slave-holders. I preached
to the people, found attentive ears, and
immediately an urgent solicitation to labor with
them.</p>
        <p>In that community there was but one other
church, a small band of Old School
Presbyterians. The man who preached to them,
once in each month, lived many miles distant, and
was pro-slavery in his teachings. I said, These
people are practically without the Gospel; this is
missionary ground; there is an open door and I
will come. Efforts were made to secure for me a
partial support. Nearly one hundred dollars were
pledged by the people; application was made to
the American Home Missionary Society for
additional aid; and, as I now recollect, the sum
was two hundred dollars. I returned to Bracken
County, where I had previously left an
appointment to deliver a lecture on the subject
of slavery, in the court house in Brooksville
the county seat. This appointment
<pb id="fee26" n="26"/>produced great commotion. Threats of
violence were made, and with these came
entreaties from relatives and friends to withdraw
the appointment. During life, in all new or
responsible engagements, I have been slow and
careful in making them; but once made, as far as
I can now remember, I have met my
appointments, or made a vigorous effort in 
trying to do so.</p>
        <p>I went to the appointment,  -  my wife with me.
James Hawkins, then the nominal slave of my
father-in-law, went also, but “followed afar off.”
He went not to be seen as a hearer, but to guard
the horses and saddles of myself and wife, and
this of his own devising;  -  not known to us. We
found in the court house a small audience of
men. I delivered my lecture and we came quietly
home.</p>
        <p>My father was so incensed that he said,
“Enter not my door again.” After some two
weeks I preached a sermon in Sharon church
house. My father was present. After sermon
he invited me and Matilda, my wife, to go 
home with him. Though he opened, for
a time, the door of his house, he never opened
the door of his heart to the sentiments of 
freedom to the slave, or to the doctrine of doing
<pb id="fee27" n="27"/>
unto men as he would they should do unto him.</p>
        <p>The prospects of the newly-begun life, to
my wife, were not flattering, and all I could then
do was to walk by faith and not by sight.                                                                          After the lapse of a few more weeks we went to 
Lewis County, to enter upon the work as previously
arranged. We took board in the house of
Benjamin Given. He was a member of the M. E.
Church.</p>
        <p>Soon after entering upon my work in Lewis
County, John D. Tully, then husband to Ruth
Tully, who was a member of the little church,
requested that I would preach a sermon on the
subject of slavery. I at once consented, and
announced my purpose to do so at Union church
house, four weeks from that time. I had then an
engagement to attend in the meantime, the
then-called “Southwestern Anti-slavery Convention,”
to be held in the city of Cincinnati, Ohio, in the
month of April, 1845. At that convention I made
my first acquaintance with Salmon P. Chase, and
was with him on the committee of resolutions
there discussed and adopted. There I heard
George W. Clark sing in his inimitable manner,
that soul-stirring song, “Be free! O man,
<pb id="fee28" n="28"/>
be free!” There I heard read a letter of great
eloquence and power from Elihu Burritt, for
whom I afterward named my firstborn son,
Burritt.</p>
        <p>I returned to Lewis County, Kentucky, my
then chosen field of labor. At the appointed time
I went to the church house where I had engaged
to preach a sermon on the subject of slavery. I
found there more people than could be seated in
the house. I selected the text, “Thou shalt love
the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all
thy soul, and with all thy mind, and thy neighbor
as thyself.” I showed that human slavery was
plainly a violation of this fundamental principle of
the Christian religion. I then considered the
various texts in the Old and New Testaments
assumed as sanctions of slavery. I showed that
such assumptions were wrong; that the precepts
of Christianity must be construed in harmony
with its fundamental principles, and that slavery
was sinful as certainly as anything in human
action could be sinful. I invited the congregation
to come back the next Lord's day and we would
then consider the various schemes for the
removal of this evil; I then dismissed them.</p>
        <pb id="fee29" n="29"/>
        <p>On the next Lord's day the congregation was
not so large as on the previous occasion. I
reminded my audience that we had shown on the
previous occasion that human slavery was a
violation of the law of love, and therefore a sin;
that this sin, like all other sins, needed to be
repented of, and that immediately; just as we
should immediately repent of any other great sin.
I then considered the plea for colonization. I
showed that to banish a man from the land of
his birth, guilty of no crime, was gross
injustice  -  only adding iniquity to crime. I
showed that to do right is always safe; and
that emancipation in the West Indies was an
acknowledged good to all; that the slaves in our
country, as a general rule, were patient,
long-suffering, receptive, trusting, and, withal,
acclimated; and would be more quiet laborers
than those we would import from abroad. The
verdict was soon rendered: “He is an
Abolitionist, in favor of  ‘nigger’ equality; his
teaching is dangerous to our property, and will
breed insurrection and rebellion; he ought to be
moved.”</p>
        <p>That Sabbath afternoon was not a quiet one in
that part of Lewis County where we then were.
No violence as yet; only jeers and
<pb id="fee30" n="30"/>
taunts. My wife was as quiet as if all around her
had been serene. The next morning our landlord
informed me that his wife was unwilling to keep
us any longer. We had not a home of our own.
My covenant was still on me to spread the gospel
of love, justice and mercy, in Kentucky, my
native State; where, I knew not. My purpose was
unchanged. I could only stand still and see the
salvation of God. It came.</p>
      </div1>
      <pb id="fee31" n="31"/>
      <div1>
        <head>CHAPTER II.</head>
        <argument>
          <p>A Home.  -  Resolutions of the Church.  -  
Salary.  -  Meeting of Synod.  -  Resolutions.  -  My 
Withdrawal.   -  Ecclesiastical Position.  -  Union 
on Christ.  -  Separation from A. M. Society.  -  
Anticipated Mob.  -  Prosecution of Hannahs.  -  
Invitation to C. M. Clay.  -  Expected Violence.  -  
Anti-Slavery Manual.  -  Protest against Secret
Orders.</p>
        </argument>
        <p>MONDAY morning found us absolutely 
without a home. My wife picked up her bonnet and
went across the stream, Cabin Creek, to the
house of  “Uncle” Robert and “Aunt” Lydia
Boyd. They were “Disciples”  -  disciples indeed.
My wife said to Aunt Lydia, “We are without a
home; can we stop with you for a few weeks?”
The reply was, “Certainly; come in.” In a sense
we were “strangers,” and “they took us in.” In
less than two hours our little effects were
removed and we were under another roof.</p>
        <p>I said to my wife, “My covenant is upon
me to stay in Kentucky and preach this gospel
of love. If I do so I must have a home of my
own, a place where I shall be a fixture, a taxpayer;
<pb id="fee32" n="32"/>
have a claim to citizenship and protection.”
I had 409 acres of land in northern Indiana which
I could then sell for six dollars per acre. I sold
half of the tract and bought half of an acre of
ground adjoining the lot of the friend with whom
we were stopping. I found two men who said
they would build for me a house if they had to
“hold the sword in one hand and the trowel in the
other; the pistol in one and the saw in the other.”
These were ungodly men  -  “the earth helped the
woman.” To secure material, even for a small
house, was then, to me, a tedious business. Some
of this lumber had to be hauled ten miles  -  not by
railroad, or on turnpikes, but on jolt wagons and
over mud roads.</p>
        <p>After some weeks my wife and I, “on
horseback,” went twenty-five miles to the house
of her parents, where she tarried a few weeks,
until our first child was born.</p>
        <p>I immediately returned to my field of labor,
filling appointments from Sabbath to Sabbath. My
audiences were small, ranging from eight to
twelve persons. Two persons who had united
with the original three, went back as soon as
persecutions arose. Two others, converted by the
power of truth and Spirit of God,
<pb id="fee33" n="33"/>
were added. These endured until death called
them away. The church at a regular meeting
resolved to treat slave-holding as they would any
other practice plainly contrary to the Word of
God, and refuse church fellowship to all persisting
in the practice of slave-holding. I continued my
appointments at Union Church house and at
private houses where I could find an open door.
The one hundred dollars, pledged toward my
support, were ciphered down to twenty-five. One
of the preachers, who knew my condition, and
had known me for many years, had often been at
my father's house. He had urged me to go to
that field, and had pledged twenty-five dollars of
the one hundred promised for my support, but
when he heard I had uttered my convictions in
sermons against human slavery, he declined to
pay what he had pledged, saying “he had intended
to give to me a colt worth twenty-five dollars, but
it had died”; “moreover, if I should find myself
taken out some night, ridden on a rail and ducked
in a pond, I would receive only what my folly
deserved.” This action of his need not now be
surprising when we consider that this man had a
rich farm, in an adjoining county, worked by
<pb id="fee34" n="34"/>slaves, and the women were driven to the
hempfield whilst their babes lay crying on the
kitchen floor. This I saw in passing. To some it
will now seem horrid that I should have had any
ecclesiastical association with such a man. I did
not long retain such.</p>
        <p>In the month of October, 1845, I attended the
annual meeting of the Synod of Kentucky,
Presbyterian, New School, at Paris, Ky. The
Synod in reviewing the records of Ebenezer
Presbytery considered the action of the church in
Lewis Co., of which church I was then pastor.
The church had by a unanimous vote declared
that they would regard slave-holding as a sinful
practice  -  a plain violation of the law of God, and
refuse church fellowship to those persisting in the
practice of slave-holding. This action was
pronounced unwarranted and my part in it as
reprehensible.</p>
        <p>A prominent member of the Synod and its
Corresponding Secretary immediately entered
upon a defense of slave-holding, and this in the
light of Bible teaching, and with this a severe
reflection upon me for teaching the opposite
doctrine. In reply I gladly accepted the
discussion of the subject of slavery, and
that in the light of the Bible. After the
<pb id="fee35" n="35"/>
second round the moderator decided we must not
discuss the subject in the light of the Bible, but in
the light of the constitution of the church, the
“denomination to which we belonged.” I replied,
even in the light of this constitution slavery is
wrong. This constitution declares an offense to be
“any thing in the principle or practice of a
church member which is contrary to the Word of
God; or which, if it be not in its own nature sinful,
may lead others to sin or mar their spiritual
edification.” I said, as we have shown,
slave-holding is contrary to the Word of God,
violates the law of love in taking away natural
rights, and also tempts others to sin. The
discussion was stopped by the moderator. A
peroration was given by a venerable member,
Dr. C______ , who said, “If the young man shall 
find himself some day taken out, ridden on a 
rail and ducked in a pond, he need not
be surprised.”</p>
        <p>The Synod then passed four resolutions.</p>
        <p>1. “That the action of the church in Lewis
County, in declaring slave-holding as sinful, and
refusing church fellowship to slave-holders, is
unwarranted.</p>
        <p>2. The action of Bro. Fee in aiding and
<pb id="fee36" n="36"/>
encouraging such action is censurable in thus
disturbing the peace of Zion, and in breaking his
covenant vows to study the peace of Zion.</p>
        <p>3. That the A. M. Society be requested not to
give aid to him as an evangelist in our midst.</p>
        <p>4. That Ebenezer Presbytery be requested to
appoint a committee to visit and labor with the
church in Lewis County.” The committee came
not.</p>
        <p>At the next meeting of the Synod, which
meeting was held at Midway, Ky., my action in
connection with the church in Lewis Co., Ky.,
was again taken up. I had said to the brethren of
the Synod I had believed it to be my duty to stay
with my brethren for a time and do what I could
to induce them to cease from the practice or
sanction of the sin of slave-holding. A prominent
member replied: “A man may hold a black-eyed
pea so near his eye that he will shut out of vision
the whole world.” Application was made.</p>
        <p>It was then said, “On our part there is no
hope for repentance, and you have done all you
can unless it be by withdrawing and consistently
going where you belong.” It was then
added, “The constitution of the church,” the
<pb id="fee37" n="37"/>
denomination, “to which you belong says nothing
against slavery and it is your duty to construe the
constitution of the church as the body you belong
to construes it.” I replied, “It is now manifest that
my work with you is done. Also, the position you
assume is practical popery; you interpose
between me and the Word of God a human creed
and then demand that I construe that creed as the
body to which I belong construes it. This takes
away the right of private interpretation. This is the
very essence of popery.” I said, “Give to me a
letter of dismission.” This they did, as “in good
and regular standing save agitation of the slavery
question.” With this separation ended, on my part,
all direct connection with slave-holding bodies.</p>
        <p>As it now is, my work has been small, but had
I consented to remain in the Synod of Kentucky,
and to pursue the policy advised and adopted by
the brethren in that Synod, my work would have
been an utter failure. So far as I now know every
church that consented to the conservative
position, yea, proscriptive position of that Synod,
has gone down. It either died for want of life or
went over to the Old School body in its unqualified
<pb id="fee38" n="38"/>
fellowship of slaveholders. This failure was not to
be attributed to want of ability in the ministry.
Such men as Clelland, Gallaher Dickerson, Mills,
Pratt and others were men of acknowledged
ability. The majority of the ministers acknowledged
the wrong of slavery in comparing it to
concubinage, but said it was to be worn out by
preaching principles. These brethren were
negative, conservative. The slave power was
positive, aggressive, and wore out these
conservative ministers and their churches. When
sins are gross and incorporated into the organic
law of the land, nothing short of unqualified
condemnation and refusal to support will be
sufficient.. Ministers must speak out as Nathan to
David, “Thou art the man.” “The blood of a
murdered man lies at your door.” “Put away the
evil of your doings.” Nothing short of such
faithfulness will ever succeed.</p>
        <p>An important question was now before us as a
church  -  what ecclesiastical position shall we
assume? what shall we do for ecclesiastical 
co-operation? We had a lingering feeling somewhat
like that of the children of Israel in the days of
Samuel, when they said: “We must be like the
nations round about us.” But God led and taught
us otherwise.</p>
        <pb id="fee39" n="39"/>
        <p>We saw that to succeed in Kentucky we
must have the co-operation of all true 
Christians, who trusted in Christ as their 
Savior from sin  -  all sin. Bro. G. came 
across the Ohio river and said, “Bro. 
Fee, we Free Presbyterians have so 
amended our Confession of Faith that 
we shut out all slave-holders; join with us.” 
I said: “To do so would leave us but a 
little handful in Kentucky; also there are
good brethren here who would not like 
your creed, in other respects; nor the 
name Presbyterian.</p>
        <p>Bro. W., a Wesleyan of good ability 
and of true piety, came. He said: “Bro. 
Fee, Wesleyans have no connection with 
slave-holding and our creed is small; join 
with us.” I said: “We are glad of your 
protest against slave-holding and hope 
your creed will grow still smaller so that 
it will shut out no true child of God who 
accepts Christ in all the fullness of
his character; but there are brethren 
here who would not like to accept your 
creed nor take the name Wesleyan.” We 
said that it is manifest that in order to 
success we must have a creed so simple 
that all true followers of Christ can unite 
on it. And we must have a name so catholic
that all the true followers of Christ
<pb id="fee40" n="40"/>can wear it. This must be Christian as 
designating individual character; and church 
of Christ at ______  as designating the local 
church. Thus were we led by the logic of events 
to see the wisdom of the plan long before
marked out by our Lord when he said: “Neither 
pray I for these alone, but for all them
that believe on me through their word, that
they may be one.”</p>
        <p>The basis of union was Christ, a person  -  
not opinions  -  but a PERSON. “Other 
foundation can no man lay than is laid, which is
Jesus Christ.” The reason for fellowship was
manifested faith in Christ as the Savior from
sin. On this foundation came together those
who had been known as Presbyterians, 
Disciples, Methodists and Baptists.</p>
        <p>A question now arose in my mind as to the
propriety of my receiving aid from the American 
Home Missionary Society. I gave to the
Society my reasons why I must decline further 
aid: They were as follows:</p>
        <p>1. In securing and sending an annual 
contribution to your Society I will thereby help
sustain and build up slave-holding.</p>
        <p>2. However small my influence may be,
my continued reception of your aid would be
<pb id="fee41" n="41"/>
thus far an endorsement of your policy; this
I may not give.</p>
        <p>The society replied they thought I ought
to be satisfied if they were willing to give aid
to me in my protest against slave-holding;
and in reference to pastors aided, their work
of inquiry was ended when the pastors are
regarded as “<foreign lang="la">rectus in ecclesia</foreign>,” “right in
church.” This was Congregationalism “with
a vengeance.”</p>
        <p>I replied: “Christ is not the minister of sin
and you ought not to be, and I may not help
you in this.”</p>
        <p>Just at this time, Jan. 17, 1846, Bro. A. A.
Phelps, who was secretary of the Union 
Missionary Society, merged soon after this into
the American Missionary Association, wrote
to me saying, “I think you should stay where
you are and itinerate three or six months, as
you can. I hope you will, on no account,
withdraw your application for a re-commission
from the Home Missionary Society; if they
refuse, they make Abolitionism a test of church
standing as Dickerson has in his refusal to
recommend you. Do not let them off  -  urge
and insist on a decision of the ‘new case.’”</p>
        <p>The Society did not want to be “let off.”
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I felt I must let them off. Whilst they manifestly, 
for some reason, desired to help sustain
one anti-slavery church in the South they were
at the same time sustaining fifty two 
slave-holding churches in the South. This was
blowing hot and cold  -  serving God and the
devil  -  doing evil on a large scale, that good
might come on a small scale. I said: “I may
not bid you God speed in your wicked policy,”
and returned their commission.</p>
        <p>The little church established on the one
foundation, Christ, and its pastor disenthralled
from all slave-holding alliances, and the little
cottage now enclosed, one room with one coat
of plastering on and that not dry, the humble
pastor, wife and first-born child entered.
With a small case of books on the right, a
small cupboard on the left, our little Laura in
a cradle in the middle, a bed behind, at nightfall 
Matilda and I sat down before a cheerful
fire in an open fireplace, without a cloud of
the unseen future before us.</p>
        <p>In this little room sixteen feet square, with bed
and table extending a plank from one chair to
another, we had preaching Sunday evenings after
I returned from distant appointments. Monday
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morning whilst I made fires, fed the horse and
milked the cow, my wife swept out dirt from
previous muddy shoes and scrubbed out stains
from tobacco spit as far as she could. The
one end to be attained, at whatever sacrifice,
was the lodgment of fundamental truth in the
minds of the people.</p>
        <p>As we began to plant ourselves more fixedly
in the State, the slave power busied itself in 
efforts to stir up opposition and mob violence.
A plot was arranged to waylay me on my 
way to an appointment some fifteen miles
distant. Some men who were friends proposed
to go and defend me from assailants; 
but said they would not go without arms. I
said: “I carry no weapons; I know retaliation
will destroy society. If I suffer I will make
my appeal to the civil courts.”  These 
friends declined going. My wife said she
would go. The babe was left with a kind
neighbor woman.</p>
        <p>Saturday morning found Matilda and me each
on horseback, winding our way through the
hills of Lewis to our appointment fifteen miles
distant on the banks of the Ohio river. No
molestation that day. That night during the
hour of preaching some “roughs” took our
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horse out of the stable, took him off into the
forest, tied some billets of wood to his tail and
started him, thinking he would be greatly
frightened and they see some fun. “Ben”
took the matter so gently that they declared
he had “religion” and let him go at pleasure.
When my wife found that her horse was gone,
the horse her father had given to her, and that
he was probably being abused, she was 
troubled and “sweat at the eyes.” Old Father
Rankin, John Rankin, had come across the
Ohio river to attend the meeting; and byway
of comfort to my wife, said: “Why, Sister
Fee, I have had my horse's tail shaved and
mane cropped and one ear cut off, and he
rode just as well afterward as before.” Not
long after “Ben” was found quietly browsing
among the bushes and waiting to do his part
in further evangelization.</p>
        <p>The next day it was confidently asserted
assault would be made on our way home.
The proposed assault, however, had been 
disconcerted by the sudden death of the leader,
who was killed in a saw-mill. As angry members 
of the proposed mob two men waylaid
us, but were hindered from personal violence
by the presence of a sturdy farmer, who had
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purposely planned to return home with us.
One of the assailants, with a club in hand,
rode rapidly up to me in a threatening attitude; 
but my wife, dexterous on horseback as
he, at each moment interposed herself between 
me and H. After two or three passes,
the sturdy farmer rode up and said: “Hannahs, 
if you do not clear out from here, I will
get down and beat you till there shall not be a
sound bone in your body.” Hannahs contented 
himself by dismounting and throwing
stones, one of which struck me, but without
serious injury to me.</p>
        <p>Whilst not seriously injured, I saw this was
my opportunity to show, that whilst I did not
avenge personal injury I would show respect
to civil law by appealing to it for protection
and gaining, if possible, a decision of the
courts in favor of free speech and personal
security. I brought the case before the grand
jury, and through that into the circuit court.</p>
        <p>The judge was a slaveholder. He said to
the court: “Gentlemen, Mr. Fee is an 
Abolitionist, and if slave-holding is sinful, then
the Abolitionists are right. They say, repent of
sin immediately; and you would not say to
pickpockets, quit your sin gradually.” But
<pb id="fee46" n="46"/>having called for a Bible, he opened it and
said: “Slavery is not sinful; the Bible 
sanctions it,” and referred to the case of 
Abraham, and the instruction of Moses to 
buy of the heathen round about, and of Paul 
as returning Onesimus, “a runaway slave.”
Closing the book, he said: “But, gentlemen, free
speech must be had; and Mr. Hannahs ought
to be ashamed of his conduct, and the court
must fine him.”</p>
        <p>This decision gave to me a measure of 
protection in Lewis County, but did not wholly
suppress the spirit of violence in adjoining
counties.</p>
        <p>About this time, at my suggestion, a 
petition was sent to Cassius M. Clay, requesting
him to come to Lewis County, July 4th, 1846,
and make to us an address on the subject of
slavery and emancipation. The call was
signed by twenty-seven citizens, to be sent to
Mr. Clay.</p>
        <p>Mr. Clay accepted the invitation, 
commended highly the courage of the men who 
had made the call, but sent back the sad 
intelligence that he must defer the purposed address
until his return from the war with Mexico.</p>
        <p>Accompanying this call went the letter of a
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neighbor, saying: “The anti-slavery sentiment 
of the community will soon be embodied,
and it will be made known that no man, Whig
or Democrat, can have their votes who is a
practical slaveholder, or an apologist for 
slavery.” This was sent to Mr. Clay and 
published in the True American. This stirred
the slave power, especially in Mason County,
the adjoining county. An article appeared in
the Maysville Eagle, which in some respects
misrepresented the statement of the former,
by saying: “This is as rank Abolitionism as
was ever uttered by Birney or Tappan. No
slaveholder is hereafter to receive the votes
of these simon-pure liberty men; and they
who dare to apologize for the institutions of
our country are thus denounced and 
proscribed, and this is heralded forth as the 
sentiments of Lewis County.” This was a 
misrepresentation. The sentiments only of 
those organized were declared.</p>
        <p>Mr. Clay, having declined then to come,
and the slave power raging, some ten men of
the twenty-seven who had signed the call 
inviting Mr. Clay to come, took back their
names; and upon myself, Mr. Clay's 
correspondent, were gathered the severest 
<pb id="fee48" n="48"/>anathemas, and threats of violence and of the 
utter destruction of my house. The night for
the work of desperation was fixed. My
friends expected the threatened violence,
and a man whom we knew as a friend and
one who had opportunity to know the 
movements of our enemies came three times 
during the day and entreated that I leave my home
or I would certainly be killed. At night we
went to bed as usual. The night was one of
terrific darkness, thunder and lightning.
Many, with purposes of violence, did gather
at the place of rendezvous, but dispersed 
before the frowning elements. Soon after this
the prime mover was killed by a tenant. The
slain man, though a major, a slaveholder with
large property, was so little esteemed by his
neighbors that, as I was informed, scarcely 
enough gathered to give to him a decent
burial. Another man who shot at me whilst
I was sitting in my house, was soon afterward
drowned in the Ohio river.</p>
        <p>For reasons manifest my audiences were
small. Many whose sympathies were with
the principles of justice and liberty were
afraid to be seen listening to me in public
audiences. I saw I must try and reach the
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people at their homes, at their firesides; and I
decided I would write and publish an anti-slavery
manual, a hand-book showing the testimony
of God's Word against slavery,  -  the evil
consequences of slavery upon society,
and with these show the unity of the human
race  -  that verily “God hath made of one
blood all nations of men.” The matter for
this manual I prepared, and, for best effect,
decided to publish in Kentucky,  -  in Maysville,
a city near by.</p>
        <p>Whilst preliminary arrangements were 
being made, a man of wealth and influence in
that city wrote to me a letter, saying that if I
should come to that city and attempt to
publish an anti-slavery book he would head a
band of sixty men, ride me on a rail and duck
me in the Ohio river. I went on with my
publishing, and attended to proof-reading
there in the city. Whilst there the conductor
of the press said to me: “My father, Judge
Chambers and John A. McClung, will this
forenoon make speeches in the court house.
Come, go down.” I went.</p>
        <p>I had a few days previously headed a 
petition to Congress praying that Texas might be
admitted as a free State and thus delivered
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from slavery, which our own statesman,
Henry Clay, admitted to be a curse. As the
meeting was about to adjourn, a little fellow,
a practicing attorney at the bar, well known
as Tom Payne, jumped to his feet and said:
“There is a matter here that ought to be now
attended to. There is,” said he, “a certain
man by the name of John G. Fee up here in
the edge of Lewis County, who has headed a
petition to Congress in which he denounces
Henry Clay, the son of Kentucky. It is time
such men were silenced and driven out of the
county.” As he ended this sentence, I arose
to my feet, and addressing the chairman,
Judge Reed, the noted defender of slavery
and free speech previously referred to, said:
“Mr. Chairman, I happen to know something
about that petition. I drafted it and know
that Henry Clay is not denounced. So far as
he is concerned, his words are commended.”</p>
        <p>Cries went up: “Take him out; take him
out.” Instantly almost the whole house arose
to their feet. Some tried to get me into the
aisle. I refused. I knew that was not the
place of security to me. A stout man, a
stone-mason, stepped to my side, and with
an uplifted, brawny arm, said: “Men, I have
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been in one war (1812), and will be in 
another before this man is taken out.” He
knew me.</p>
        <p>Judge Reed, with stentorian voice, cried
out: “Sit down, men, sit down. I would be
ashamed to preside in a meeting where a man
is publicly assailed and yet not allowed a
word in defense. One of old said: ‘Though
you slay me, hear me.’ Speak on, speak on.”
I did so, and the audience dispersed quietly.
We here scored another count for free speech
and personal security.</p>
        <p>I went on with the publication of my book,
and distributed with my own hands many copies
in the city.</p>
        <p>Afterward the American Missionary 
Association abridged the book and distributed
many copies in this and other States.</p>
        <p>I wrote, for more general distribution, a
tract on the sinfulness of slave-holding; another
on the duty of non-fellowship of slaveholders
in church relationship, and another on the
folly of colonization as a plan of emancipation.</p>
        <p>Just about this time the occasion for another
protest came,  -  a protest against secret orders.
We had a union temperance society, into
which all, young and old, rich and poor, could
come, “without money and without price.”</p>
        <pb id="fee52" n="52"/>
        <p>It was proposed that there be formed in our
school-house a society known as “Sons of
Temperance.” I was requested to join and
give my influence. I declined the invitation
to join, and in a public discourse gave my
reasons for so declining.</p>
        <p>First, impracticable. The form of organization
  -  initiation fees, with passwords and closed
doors,  -  such will shut out a large portion
of society, will fail to meet the needed end,  -  
the reclamation of the masses.</p>
        <p>Second, the secret principle is wrong. (1)
It is contrary to the genius of republican 
institutions, where every movement affecting
the interests of society is supposed to be open
to the view of all.</p>
        <p>2. Unfair. Such societies being secret,
give one class of men an unknown and an
undue advantage over the other members of
society,  -  an unfair advantage.</p>
        <p>3.  Dangerous. Such societies give 
opportunities not only for unfair advantages, but
opportunities to bad men to devise measures
not only injurious to society but perilous to
governments. Such sad experiences have
occurred.</p>
        <p>4. Such societies are selfish, and as such,
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contrary to the spirit and letter of Christianity.
(1) They reject the very objects of charity  -  
“the halt, the lame, the blind,”  -  help those
who help the society and can help themselves.
(2) Usually they reject men in this country
simply because they are colored. This fosters
the spirit of caste. (3) This society, as such,
hides from the world whatever light or good
it may have,  -  “puts it under a bushel.”
Christianity requires that we let our light
shine; if we have good works let them be seen.
If there be any thing good, society ought to
have the benefit of it. (4) This was the
precedent of our Lord, who said: “I spake
openly in the temple, and in secret have I said
nothing.” He is our pattern.</p>
        <p>It was then said: “The amount of secrecy
is small.” I said, the principle is just as
certainly vicious when small as when large;
a poison is the same, little or much. I said
the devil tempts not to vice in its gross form:
at first only in small proportions, and that
veiled by some assumed good; “he comes as
an angel of light.” I said: “Some of you
know that it is just in this way Jesuitism now
works. It does evil that good may come.”</p>
        <p>I said, “I have traced the history of your
<pb id="fee54" n="54"/>
movement. It was concocted almost 
exclusively by Free-masons and Odd-fellows.”
These men knew that temperance was a good
and reputable thing, and that if the youth of
the land could have their minds familiarized
with the secret principle, made reputable by
association with acknowledged good, then it
will be easy, after a time, for such to step into
other orders with larger measures of secrecy,
even those associated with blasphemous oaths,
a false religion, a religion like that of Free-masonry,
which claims to fit men for the lodge above,
  -  “a religion in which all men can agree,”
  -  Jews and pagans, Mohammedans and
Parsees; a religion of mere sacrilegious
rites; a religion in which the name of Christ
is excluded from every official prayer; Christ
treated as Mohammed, Zoroaster or Confucius; 
yes, worse, the name expurgated from
Scriptures quoted.  -  See Mackey's Ritual, pp.
384-5. I said to my hearers: “Beware of
those stepping stones that lead to institutions
that are blaphemous, delusive, and perilous to
society and republican institutions.”</p>
        <p>The “Sons” did not live long in that region.
Afterwards, when I had moved to Madison
Co., where I now live, I was told by an influential
<pb id="fee55" n="55"/>
friend, who was a Free-mason, that if I
would join the Masons I would be protected
from the mobs. I replied: “If my protection
and immunity from violence is to be secured
by connection with orders at once delusive,
selfish, perilous to society and treacherous to
Christ, then I cannot have protection from
such men.” Before I came to Madison, I was
waylaid, shot at, clubbed, stoned; by force
kept out of church houses; and since I came
to Madison, have been in the hands of six
regularly organized mobs of violent men, yet
have I not shown the secret sign of distress,
nor muttered the words, “Is there no help for
the widow's son?”</p>
        <p>I have by these persecutions been brought
into deeper sympathy with Him whose 
judgment was taken from Him and who said:
“Blessed are ye when men shall revile you
and persecute you, and say all manner of evil
against you falsely for my sake.” His 
gracious benediction was more than the 
maledictions of men. I yet live, and live to praise
Him for that abundant grace which, like the
“red thread,” has run through the cordage of
my life.</p>
      </div1>
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      <div1>
        <head>CHAPTER III.</head>
        <argument>
          <p>Commission from the A. M. A.  -  Preaching and
Church Building.  -  Redemption of a Slave
Woman.  -  Her Effort to Free her Children.  -  
Her Capture and Imprisonment.</p>
        </argument>
        <p>IN 1848 I received a commission from the
American Missionary Association  -  appropriation 
$200, as I now remember. Previous
to this, for more than a year, my wife and I
had lived on our own small resource. My
wife was industrious; and I believe no man
ever accused me of being idle. Aside from
necessity, we had resolved that we would not
only advocate free labor, but also, as far as we
could, we would dignify labor by the work of
our hands.</p>
        <p>By this time we had a little frame house
built by the community to be used as a
school-house and church house. The Lord
granted to us a manifestation of his
presence. Twenty-one persons were
converted, a prayer meeting and
Sunday-school sustained.</p>
        <p>In this year, 1848, I began regular preaching
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in Bracken County, my native country and
the native country of my wife. The place
for preaching was in a school-house, distant
from my home in Lewis twenty-five miles.
To this appointment I came every second
week. Here Wm. Goodell visited us and
preached two or three sermons. I continued
regular preaching. The first person who
there came forward to confess Christ, was my
mother-in-law, Elizabeth Hamilton. Next
came John D. Gregg, her brother, a faithful
man. One after another came. In process
of time came Mary Gregg, mother of the first
two who came. She had secured to a bondman 
a deed of emancipation before she joined
the church. Thus the testimony of the
church was kept clear from any appearance
of connivance at any form of oppression.</p>
        <p>Soon it became manifest that we must have
a larger house. We decided to build. We
were all of one mind that the highest security
demanded that we build a brick house. We
so decided. I asked the question: “Shall
the seats be free?” The question was 
apparently a surprise. One after another said:
“Certainly.” “But,” I said, “do you mean what
you say?” The reply was: “We suppose
<pb id="fee58" n="58"/>
we do.” I said: “If when the house shall
be erected, a colored man, free or slave, shall
come in and seat himself as any other man,
where he thinks he can hear to the best 
advantage, will that with you be all right?”
John D. Gregg said, “Yes;” some others said
“Yes.” After a silence a good brother whose
probity was known all over the county, said:
“Bro. Fee, that is my rule in my house; and
when Billie C____ comes in he sits down at my
table as I do; but in a place of public worship
as you here propose, you cannot do this. If
you attempt it one brick will not be left on
another.” I said, “In the light of your own
example to do so is right, is it not?” “Yes, 
Bro. Fee; but all things that are lawful are
not expedient.” I said: “In mere measures, 
that may often be true, but in questions of 
morals  -  a religious movement like this  -  
it will be wise to do what is confessedly 
right.” He then said he had subscribed $100,
and would now leave $50 for us to try with. 
Another took back part of his subscription.
Others increased theirs. A young man then
living in the community, an earnest, active
Abolitionist who loved to buttonhole every
conservative preacher he could get his hands 
<pb id="fee59" n="59"/>
on, said, “You put up the walls and I will put
on the roof.” The walls went up, and I.B.C. put
on the roof. The little brick church yet stands.
At the end of entrance, above the doorways, 
is a white marble slab, placed there by John
D. Gregg; and of his own devising are 
inscribed these words, “Free Church of 
Christ.” The sentiment it expressed was, 
church of Christ, undemoninational, free
to all men.</p>
        <p>The church was blessed. A generation of
young people was raised up there who, with
their children, and even children's children,
have gone out to disseminate sentiments there
learned and to bless society wherever they
have gone. The church there, with its long
protest against slavery, caste, sectarianism,
still lives. It is like the church in Lewis
County, feeble and without a pastor. If there
is any thing I desire in this world, it is to find
some faithful man who will go and minister to
that people, and then some faithful men and
women who will sustain that man.</p>
        <p>In the midst of this season of church 
planting and church building, there arose a sudden
and an unexpected duty; one which speedily
involved much perplexity of mind and then
<pb id="fee60" n="60"/>
anguish of spirit, not to me alone, but to others
also; and this not for a day, a week, a month,
but, more or less, for years. The relationship 
once entered upon could not be relinquished 
without moral delinquency.</p>
        <p>The incipient duty was the redemption of a
woman, a slave then in my father's family.
This woman had lived for years with her 
husband in the same family and was then the
mother of mothers in the same family  -  the
mother of daughters who were mothers.
This grandmother, yet comparatively young,
was a member of the same church where my
father, mother and sister were members.
Here, slaves, though members with their
masters, were not allowed to sit in the same
part of the church house nor at the same time
partake of the Lord's Supper with their white
fellow Christians. The slaves at this time sat
in a gallery at the end of the church house,
and when white Christians had been served,
one of the elders would say: “Now you black
ones, if you wish to commune, come down.”
This they did by an outside, uncovered
rough stairway, and then around outside the
house came on to the doors of entrance, and
facing the congregation came to the seats
<pb id="fee61" n="61"/>
vacated for them, and thus ate the Lord's
Supper. Thus did slaves indeed “strive to
enter into the kingdom of heaven.”</p>
        <p>Intelligence came to me that my brother
had advised my father to sell the woman 
referred to, for the reason that there were more
women in the family than were needed.</p>
        <p>I said to my wife: “I cannot redeem all
slaves, nor even all in my father's family, but
the labors of Julett and her husband 
contributed in part to the purchase of the land 
I yet own in Indiana, and to sell those lands and
redeem her will be in some measure returning
to her and her husband what they have toiled
for.” My wife said: “Do what you think is
right.” I took my horse, rode twenty-five
miles to my father's house and spent the night.
In the morning of the next day I sought an
opportunity when my father was alone, and
having learned that he would sell, asked what
he would take for Julett. He fixed his price.
I said: “Will you sell her to me if I bring to
you the money?” He said yes. I immediately 
rode to Germantown and borrowed the
requisite amount of money by mortgaging my
remaining tract of land for the payment.
Whilst there I executed a bill of sale, so that
<pb id="fee62" n="62"/>
without delay my father could sign it, before
he even returned from the field at noon. I
tendered to him the money and the bill of
sale. He signed the bill of sale, and took the
money. I immediately went to “Add,” the
husband of Julett, and told him I had bought
Julett and should immediately secure by
law her freedom. I said to him: “I would
gladly redeem you but I have not the means.”
He replied: “I am glad you can free her; I
can take care of myself better than she can.”
I went to the house, wrote a perpetual pass
for the woman, gave it to her, and said, “You
are a free woman; be in bondage to no man.”
Tears of gratitude ran down her sable cheeks.
I then told her that at the first county-court
day I would take her to the clerk's office,
where her height could be taken and she be
otherwise described, and a record of her 
freedom made. This was just before the 
amendment to the State Constitution that 
forbade emancipation in the State. At noon my
father came in and told my mother of
the transaction. My mother was displeased,
  -  did not want to spare the woman from
certain work for which she was fitted.
My father came to me and requested that I
<pb id="fee63" n="63"/>
cancel the contract and give up the bill of
sale. I said to him, “Here is my horse, and I
have a house and lot in Lewis County; I will
give them to you if you so desire; but to sell
a human being I may not.” He became very
angry and went to the freed woman and said
to her, “When you leave this house never put
your foot on my farm again, for I do not 
intend to have a free nigger on my farm.” The
woman, the wife and mother, came to me and
said, “Master says if I leave here I shall never
come back again; I cannot leave my children;
I would rather go back into slavery.” I said,
I have done what I regarded as my duty. To
now put you back into slavery, I cannot. We
must simply abide the consequences. The
woman was in deep distress and helpless as a
child. Although I had my horse and was
ready to ride, I felt I could not leave the 
helpless one until a way of relief should open.
After a time Julett came to me and said, “As
long as mistress shall live I can stand it; I
would rather stay.” I said, “You are a free
woman and must make your own decision.
If my father will furnish to you a home, and
clothe and feed you, and you shall choose as a
free woman to stay, all well; but to sell you
<pb id="fee64" n="64"/>
back into slavery, I cannot.” To this proposition 
to furnish a home to the freed woman
my father agreed. There was now a home
for the freed woman, and this with her 
husband and children and grand-children.</p>
        <p>That day of agony was over and eventide
had come. I spent the night. The next
morning just as I was about starting back to
my home, my father said to me, “Julett is
here on my premises, and I will sell her
before sundown if I can.” I turned to him and
said, “Father, I am now that woman's only
guardian. Her husband cannot protect her,
  -  I only can. I must do as I would be done
by; and though it is hard for me to now say
to you what I intended to say, yet if you sell
that woman, I will prosecute you for so doing,
as sure as you are a man.” I saw the peril
of the defenseless woman. I would gladly
have cast from me the cup of a further contest, 
but I saw that to leave her, though now
a free woman, was not the end of obligation.
I felt forcibly the applicability of the words,
“Cursed be he that doeth the work of the
Lord negligently, and cursed be he that 
keepeth back the sword from blood.” Jer. 48: 10.
I mounted my horse and rode twelve miles
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where I could get legal counsel,  -  counsel on
which I could rely. I found that if I left the
woman on my father's premises without any
public record of her having been sold, the fact
of her being then on his premises would be
regarded as “prima facie” evidence that she
was his property and that he could sell her.
I also found that in as much as he had sold
her to me, I could, by law, compel him to do
that which was just and right,  -  make a record
of the fact of sale. I rode back twelve miles,
told my father what was his legal obligation,
and asked him to conform to it. He said he
would not. I then said to him, “It will be a
hard trial for me to arraign my father in a
civil court, for neglect of justice to a helpless
woman, and also for a plain violation of law;
but I will do so, as sure as you are a man, if
you do not make the required record of sale.”
After hesitancy and delay he made the record.
These were hours of distress to me, to my
father, to my mother, and to the ransomed
woman; but the only way to ultimate peace,
was to hold on rigidly to the right; though in
so doing I had, in the Gospel sense, to leave
father, mother, brother, sisters, houses, lands,
  -  all, for Christ's sake. I was conscious that
no other motive impelled me.</p>
        <pb id="fee66" n="66"/>
        <p>The legal process ended, the woman was
then secure, and in a home, for the time being,
with her husband and children. Not long
after this my mother died. The services of
the freed woman were the more needed
where she then was. To her were born, into
freedom, three more children. About this
time her husband, through a friend, found the
record of the time of his bond service. He,
by legal process, secured his freedom and
recovered several hundred dollars, as 
compensation for services rendered beyond the
time he should have enjoyed his liberty.</p>
        <p>After a time the freed woman decided to
take her three free children, and go to Ohio,
where she could have better opportunities for
herself and her little ones. The war of 1861-
5 was approaching. Information came to her
that my brother, whose home was in New
Orleans, La., would, on his return from New
York, take all the slave children South. This
mother determined to try to save her children
from such a fate, and get them, if possible,
into freedom. She came to Kentucky to the
old home. In the night season she gathered
together two sons, three daughters and four
grand-children. (Another son had previously
<pb id="fee67" n="67"/>
been sold, another slave had gone “to parts
unknown”.) One of these daughters and three
grand-children had to be gathered from an
adjoining county. Monday morning the
mother, with five children and three 
grandchildren, appeared on the banks of the 
Ohio river. The sun had already risen and the
friends on the other side had gone. The
mother, her children and grand-children were
captured and put into jail for safe keeping.
My father immediately sold all but the freed
woman to a slave trader, who shipped all of
them to the South. From these we have
never heard even a trace.</p>
        <p>At the time of this sad occurrence I was
eastward, attending a meeting of the A. M.
Association. On my way home, and whilst at
Cincinnati, Levi Coffin said to me, “John,
Julett is in jail, and thy father hath sold all of
her children to the slave trader.” Instead of
going home to my family then out in Madison
Co., and, as I had reason to believe they were
not in jail, I went up to Bracken County to
my father's house. I enquired into the facts.
He said, “Yes, I have sold them and have the
money in my pocket.” I immediately went to
see that faithful man, John D. Gregg, and
<pb id="fee68" n="68"/>
asked him to bail the woman. He agreed to
do so. He went to the county judge and
offered to be security for the woman's presence
at the time for her trial. The judge accepted
the offer, and was preparing an obligation for
Brother Gregg to sign, when a young
attorney came up and served a writ on the
woman for stealing slaves (her own child and
three grand-children) from another county.
The woman was immediately remanded to
prison.</p>
        <p>My wife was in Bracken County at the
time. She went to the prison and asked the
privilege of seeing Julett and her children.
The wife of the keeper only was there. She
told my wife that no one was allowed to go
into the jail but the keeper himself. My wife
then asked if she could speak to Julett. The
wife of the keeper said, “Yes, you can speak
through the floor,” and turned aside a piece
of carpet that covered a crevice in the floor.
My wife approached and called. Julett knew
her voice and cried out, “Oh, Mis' Tilda;
where is Master Gregg?” (Gregg is my
middle name; I was known by that name in
boyhood days.) My wife said, “He is 
eastward,  -  in Massachusetts.” Then she cried
<pb id="fee69" n="69"/>
out, “Oh, Mis' Tilda, what will they do with
me?” My wife replied, “They can do no
more than send you to the penitentiary; don't
be distressed. You have committed no
crime; for what mother would not try to get
her children out of slavery?” My wife said
she could then hear the young mothers and
their children crying and sobbing below. My
wife again said to Julett, “They can only
send you to Frankfort” (the place of the
State's prison). “We will come to see you
there.” By this time white men at the door
were cursing, and the jailor's wife was 
manifestly uneasy. My wife left. As previously
stated the children and grand-children were
sold and shipped South. The mother had her
trial, and was sentenced to the State's prison.</p>
        <p>Here, let me say, the torture of the body is
terribly cruel, and yet it is the smallest part
of the crime of human slavery. I have seen
women tied to a tree or a timber and whipped
with cow-hides on their bare bodies until their
shrieks would seem to rend the very heavens.
I have seen a man, a father, guilty only of the
crime of absenting himself from work for a
day and two nights, on his return home
whipped with a cow-hide on his bare flesh
<pb id="fee70" n="70"/>
until his blood ran to his heels. Thousands
of slaves have been whipped and beaten to
death even for trivial offenses, as that of a
slave in a county adjoining to this, whipped to
death for going, in the hour of night, to see
his wife, in violation of the master's 
commands. Yet this torture of the body was the
least part of the agony of slavery. The acme
of the crime was on the soul. The crushing
of human hearts, sundering the ties of husband 
and wife, parent and child, shrouding all
of manhood in the long night of despair,  -  
the crime was on the soul! The agony of our
Lord in Gethsemane was that of the soul, not
that of the body.</p>
        <p>The youth of this generation cannot 
comprehend the enormity of human slavery,
   -  the effect of it upon society,  -  how it blunted the
sensibilities, outraged every element of justice,
fostered licentiousness, violence and crime of
almost every description. And yet those who
practiced and sustained this iniquity, often
occupied commanding positions both in church
and state! And here I wish to say, that the
same misrepresentation of Christianity is seen
in those who maintain the spirit and practice
of caste,  -  a relic of the barbarism of slavery.
<pb id="fee71" n="71"/>
To crush by slight or invidious conduct, in
church or in civil society, any man or woman
of merit, is as truly oppressive and wicked as
slavery itself. I speak of conduct toward
meritorious persons. As to what our conduct 
should be we need only to ask what our
Lord, our great Exampler, would do were he
here in flesh.</p>
        <p>Our family visit to Julett Miles, whilst yet
in prison, will be given in another chapter.</p>
      </div1>
      <pb id="fee72" n="72"/>
      <div1>
        <head>CHAPTER IV.</head>
        <argument>
          <p>Imprisonment of a Colporter.  -  Assault on
Myself.  -  House Burning.  -  Church House.  -  Baptism.  -  
Consideration of the Subject.  -  Baptism of 
Myself and Wife.  -  Invitation to Madison County.
  -  Organization of a Church.  -  Call to the Church.
  -  Selection of a Place.  -  Name, Berea.</p>
        </argument>
        <p>OTHER scenes of trial awaited us whilst
yet in Lewis County. We had colporters in
the field who were distributing Bibles, 
publications of the American Tract Society, and 
anti-slavery documents. One of these colporters
was charged falsely with telling a slave how
he might get into a free State. The offense
was alleged to have been committed in the
adjoining county, and the colporter was
therefore arrested and taken to that county
and there imprisoned to await his trial. I
went to Maysville, Ky., the county seat of
that county, that I might minister to the 
comfort of the prisoner and secure counsel for 
his defense. On my way home, in a retired
place, Thornton H., a violent man, living not
<pb id="fee73" n="73"/>
far from my home and openly charged with
having more children by a slave woman in his
kitchen, than by his lawful wife, rushed suddenly 
upon me, and with a club he had gathered 
from the woods, struck me across my
head, cutting through a Panama hat and 
leaving a severe bruise. He struck so near his
hold on the club that he broke it. Had he
struck me on the back of my head he would
have killed me. For some unaccountable
reason he said not a word, turned his horse
suddenly from me, and plunged down a very
steep embankment and escaped into a forest.
Not long after this, in a re-encounter with 
another violent man, he was cut across the 
abdomen, his bowels gushed out, and he died.
Thus was the Scripture verified before the
people, “the bloody and deceitful man shall
not live out half his days.” A like fatality
followed the men in Bracken, Mason, and
Lewis counties, who in like manner had laid
violent hands upon me. In common with
borne others, I had the conviction that God
was my shield.</p>
        <p>In the midst of this excitement, the little
house used as a school and church house was
burned by a poor white man, who was afterward
<pb id="fee74" n="74"/>known as a “hired tool.” I said to the
friends that we must have a larger and a better
house in which to worship. The church
members were poor, and means small. One
young man who afterwards prepared for the
ministry, said, “I have not money, but I have
two strong hands, and will give fifty days'
work toward the erection of the house.” My
wife said, “Obed, I'll board you.” I procured
a cross-cut saw, went with neighbors to the
woods, cut logs and helped get them to the
sawmill, secured contributions, employed 
carpenters, put on shingles, employed 
plasterers and made mortar; and it now
being winter season, I made and kept up fires
until midnight to keep the plastering from
freezing. I shared in the work until seats
were in the house, and a rough desk was 
made from which to speak.</p>
        <p>Just at this time came a providence which
has no small share in shaping the convictions
and activities of my life for the past thirty-five
years. On one occasion, as I was passing
from an appointment in Bracken County to
my  home then in Lewis County, I called
to see Bro. Grundy, the pastor of the
Presbyterian church in Maysville. As I was
<pb id="fee75" n="75"/>
leaving he said to me: “I have a little book I 
would like to have you read. It is the work
of Moses Stuart on Baptism. Stuart,” said
he, “is, as you know, one of the greatest
scholars in America.”</p>
        <p>I took the book, and rode on ten miles to
my home. In my theological course I had not
considered the subject of baptism. In my
ministry, up to that time, I had been engaged
in pressing the claim of the law of love in its
application of slave-holding, spirit of caste, 
secretism and sectism. The church houses
built and a measure of quietude secured, I 
then opened the book and found on page 50
this concession: “In classical use the Greek
word <hi rend="italics"><foreign lang="el">baptizo</foreign></hi> means, to dip, plunge or 
immerse in any liquid; all lexicographers and
critics of any note are agreed in this.” He
then passed to the use of the word in the 
Septuagint. The Septuagint is the Greek version
of the Old Testament. In 2 Kings 5: 14 he
rendered <hi rend="italics"><foreign lang="el">ebaptizeto</foreign></hi> by the English word
“plunged.” “Naaman plunged himself seven
times in the Jordan.” The propriety of this
rendering is seen from the fact that here the
verb <hi rend="italics"><foreign lang="el">baptizo</foreign></hi> is the synonym of the Hebrew
word <hi rend="italics"><foreign lang="iw">tabal</foreign></hi>. To this word Gesenius gives as
<pb id="fee76" n="76"/>
the only meaning the words “dip”, “immerse.”
I said, If the word means dip, immerse, in the
Old Testament, it means the same in the New;
for in both the word is used in its religious
sense, not merely in its secular sense, but in
its religious sense; and in this it means “dip,”
“immerse.” Also the Septuagint version was
the version Paul evidently used in his reading
of the Scriptures to Greeks in Corinth, in
Rome and in all Asia Minor. In addressing
a writing to them he would not use the word
in a different sense from that in which he
read it in the Septuagint. This sense was, as
shown by Stuart, the meaning of the word in
its classical use, which did not differ from the
use of it by the common people. Also let it
be noted that to make a revelation to the 
people, Paul had to use words in the sense in
which they were understood by the people.
Confessedly in the case of <hi rend="italics"><foreign lang="el">baptizo</foreign></hi> this was “dip,” “immerse.”</p>
        <p>I then passed with Stuart on to his consideration
of the word in the New Testament. I saw
he accepted “dip” as the proper rendering 
of <hi rend="italics"><foreign lang="el">Bapto</foreign></hi> as found in Luke 16: 24. In
Mark 7:4 he rendered <hi rend="italics"><foreign lang="la">baptismous</foreign></hi> by the,
word, washings  -  admissible only as a resultant
<pb id="fee77" n="77"/>
meaning;  -  not a proper meaning when 
the word is used to designate action; and
here we know the pots, to secure the result 
of washing, cleansing, were dipped. (See
Lev. II: 32, Num. 31: 23.) He further added 
that the word in its figurative use, as in Luke
12: 50, Mark 10: 39, means “overwhelm, and
is so used in the classics.”</p>
        <p>Stuart, in his closing consideration, adds
the testimony of the early fathers of the church,
as Pastor of Hermas, Justin Martyr and 
Tertullian; the latter as saying, “There is no
difference of consequence between those
whom John immersed in the Jordan or Peter
in the Tiber”; and then sums all up by saying:
“The passages which refer to immersion are
so numerous in the fathers that it would take
a little volume merely to recite them”; then,
closes by a quotation from F. Brenner, a
Catholic writer “of learning and ability,” as
saying that for thirteen hundred years baptism
was Generally and ordinarily performed by
the immersion of a man under water. This
concession, said Stuart, is the more important,
from the fact that sprinkling is the present
practice of the Roman Catholic church.</p>
        <p>After these concessions on the part of
<pb id="fee78" n="78"/>
Moses Stuart, I took up my Bible and turned
to Isa 52: 15; the text so often quoted in
favor of sprinkling.</p>
        <p>In our version, the rendering is: “So shall
he sprinkle many nations.” I saw from the
connection that the passage had no reference
to the Gospel ordinance, and that the word
translated sprinkle, as I have shown in my
book on Christian Baptism, when applied to
mind, as there used, cannot mean scatter in
particles, but refers to the joys of salvation
through Christ, as there referred to. Literally
rendered, it reads, “So shall he cause many
nations to leap for joy.” The context demands
such a rendering. (See Gesenius, word, <hi rend="italics"><foreign lang="iw">Naza</foreign></hi>.)
I then turned to Ezek. 36: 25. I saw that this
text also had no reference to the ordinance of
baptism under the Gospel dispensation, but to
the moral purification of the Jews when they
should be gathered from the heathen nations.
Let the reader study the connection. The
water of  “separation” or of purification as
designated in the Hebrew text is not <hi rend="italics"><foreign lang="iw">mayim hayim</foreign></hi>, pure water, but <hi rend="italics"><foreign lang="iw">mayim tahorim</foreign></hi>, water of purification,  -  a fluid made of the ashes of
a red heifer and pure water. Barnes, in his
comment on this passage, says: “The practice
<pb id="fee79" n="79"/>
of sprinkling with consecrated water is
referred to as synonymous with purifying,”
  -  moral purification.</p>
        <p>The sprinkling of the water of  “separation”
was a part of the process of ceremonial cleansing;
 (see Num. 19: 19)  -  here used figuratively - 
“synonymous with purifying.” “From
all your idols will I cleanse you,”  -  you Jews.
There is here no reference whatever to Christian 
baptism. In my personal review, I passed
to the New Testament,  -  saw that John baptized 
the people, not <hi rend="italics">with</hi> the river Jordan,
but in the river Jordan (Mark 1: 5); and that
our Lord, as stated in the ninth verse, was
baptized  -  literally “plunged into the Jordan,”
  -  that as recorded in Acts 8: 38, 39, Philip
and the eunuch went down into the water and
Philip baptized him, and they came up out of
the water. I passed to Rom. 6: 3, 4, where
Paul represented believers as having been
baptized into death, i.e., into the relation of
dead ones, and therefore properly, by symbol,
buried with Christ by baptism into this relation 
of dead ones  -  that as the bread and wine
set forth the body and blood of our Lord, so
the burial and resurrection of believers in
their baptism set forth, not only their spiritual
<pb id="fee80" n="80"/>
death to sin and resurrection to newness of
life, but also the burial and resurrection of
our Lord.</p>
        <p>I noticed the uniform concessions of such
authorities as Tholuck, Lange, Whitby,  
Macknight, Clarke and others that the word 
baptizo means immerse; that Calvin himself said,
“The word baptize means immerse entirely;
and it is certain that the custom of thus entirely 
immersing was anciently observed in
the church”; but he then assumes the papal
dogma, “that the church has reserved to 
herself the right to change the form somewhat,
retaining the substance.” I saw, what is true,
that no man, and no set of men, have a right
to change a positive command, an ordinance
of divine appointment. To do so is fearful 
sacrilege: also in changing the form of a 
symbol we lose the truth thus symbolized. This
is treachery though good men and women
see it not. I saw something of my responsibility 
as a preacher of the Gospel  -  that it
behooved me to get all the light I could on
this divinely appointed ordinance. Dr. Edward 
Beecher had published a book which
among pedo-baptists, was held in high repute.
I ordered the book and read his argument
<pb id="fee81" n="81"/>
about “purifying.” I said, His mistake is that
he takes the import of the rite for the 
meaning of the word, when used to designate
the action of the rite. To illustrate,  -  the import
of the rite of sprinkling is that of cleansing, as
“hearts sprinkled, cleansed, from an evil 
conscience.” But the meaning of the word when
used to designate action means not to purify,
but to scatter in particles; so the word 
baptize, when used to designate action, means
immerse  -  not purify  -  which is the import of
the rite itself.</p>
        <p>I saw many preachers do as Dr. Edward
Beecher, baptize their fingers in water, then
sprinkle a few drops on the head of the 
penitent (<hi rend="italics">rhantize</hi>);  -  and then call this totally
different act baptism; saying, “The thing to
be done is to symbolize purification.” I said
if that had been the thing commanded, then
the penitent might have been “passed through
the fire”; for such was a symbol of purification. 
But God commanded a specific thing,
“Go baptize, immerse”; and the connection
shows that the immersion was in water; and
this not merely for the purpose of symbolizing
purification, but also other important facts; as
our own spiritual death to sin and resurrection
<pb id="fee82" n="82"/>
to “newness of life,” the burial and resurrection 
of our Lord (Rom. 6: 4), and our own
resurrection (1 Cor. 15:29. ) I said, Sprinkling 
cannot emblematize these important facts.</p>
        <p>Other good men say the word means
“wash”; and accordingly baptize their hands
in water and take up enough to effect a local
washing on the head; then assume that such
a transaction is the fulfillment of the command, 
“Go baptize them,”  -  the person,  -  the entire man.</p>
        <p>We may here properly notice that wash is
a resultant meaning; as wet is a resultant
meaning of sprinkle, though not the meaning
of the word when used to designate action.
When used to designate action, the word
sprinkle means scatter in particles. So wash
is not the proper meaning of the word baptize,
when used to designate action. Then the
word as applied to men means “dip,” 
immerse (see 2 Kings 5: 14). The word here
translated dip, immerse, is the same word
which our Lord used when he said, “Go disciple
all nations [<hi rend="italics">Baptizonites</hi>]  -  baptizing them.”
And if the word in 2 Kings 5:14 means immerse, 
then as found in Matt. 28:19, it means
<pb id="fee83" n="83"/>
immerse. Also if immersion is baptism, which
all admit as true, then a totally different act,
like sprinkling or pouring, is not. I also saw
that in positive commands as “eat,” “drink,”
“circumcise,” “baptize,” we must have specific
words indicating specific actions, or we would
not know what to do  -  we would be without a
revelation,  -  in this matter. I saw that this
following or resultant meaning was the source
of much of the confusion among the sects.</p>
        <p>I also saw some were following the traditions 
and opinions of men. Others were following
their feelings,  -  considering what
would be most pleasant to themselves.
Others were following their own reasoning
to what would be sufficient. I said, All this
is going in the “way of Cain”: and cannot be
pleasing to God. I must do the thing he
commands.</p>
        <p>I told my wife my convictions,  -  that I
believed our Lord was immersed, and that
his commission was that disciples be baptized,
immersed, in his name. She replied: “I
have been feeling so for two years.”  We 
had both been consecrated to the Lord by
sprinkling  -  <foreign lang="la">rhantism</foreign>  -  but not by baptism.
By this time “baptism” by sprinkling was to
<pb id="fee84" n="84"/>me as much a solecism as immersion by aspersion. 
We decided to live up to our convictions of duty 
and be baptized.  But the question arose, whom 
shall we ask to baptize us? We did not know a 
minister in the State who would at that time be 
willing to baptize us, nor did we know one, with 
his practice of, or conservative notions about, 
slavery by whom we would be willing to be baptized.</p>
        <p>Through Wm. Goodell I had learned something 
of the history of Francis Hawley, a native of North 
Carolina, and who, whilst there, maintained, as a 
Baptist minister, a strong protest against human 
slavery, and was at that time ministering to 
undenominational churches near to Syracuse, 
New York. I wrote to him and requested that he 
come to Kentucky and baptize me and my wife. 
He came; and near to our little cottage, and in the
presence of our dear children and a large 
concourse of people, he buried us by baptism in 
the waters of Cabin Creek, Lewis Co., Ky.</p>
        <p>By that transaction we said to our children
and to our neighbors, we believe Christ our
Lord was buried, that he rose again, and
that we in like manner will rise again and
walk with him in glorified form.</p>
        <pb id="fee85" n="85"/>
        <p>As opportunity allowed, I studied the 
subject of baptism still more fully. I saw
clearly that the ordinance of baptism was
designed to emblematize great facts in the
Gospel; like the burial and resurrection
of our Lord, which sprinkling could not
do,  -  that the truths thus set forth needed
to be presented in a brief manner to
young and old. Accordingly I prepared
matter for a small book, on the topic
of Christian Baptism, Action and Subjects,
and published it.</p>
        <p>As a justification for this form of labor
let me say, that whilst my life has been 
devoted to the maintenance of the 
fundamental principles of Christianity, love to
God and love to man; and whilst I insist
upon the fact that the inner, the spiritual is
the vital feature of Christianity, I do not
forget that the external rites of Christianity
are important. They not only symbolize
the internal, but the observance of them
is also a demonstration to the outside
world, but is that which actualizes to the<sic/></p>
        <pb id="fee86" n="86"/>
        <p>I have baptized all of my children, save
Tappan, who died when in his third year.
I baptized my eldest son Burritt, when he
was seven years old. At five he would read
the Scriptures and pray with the family. He
knew what trust in Christ was and the 
symbolic import of his burial in baptism. The
four other children I baptized on profession
of their faith in Christ; with this coincidence:
each one at the time of his or her baptism
was between the years of ten and eleven.
Early in life children may be trained,  -  trained
to love and serve the Lord.</p>
        <p>As opportunity allowed, I studied the subject
of baptism still more fully. I saw that the 
ordinance of baptism was designed to 
emblematize great facts in the Gospel, like the
burial and resurrection of our Lord, which
sprinkling could not do; that the truths thus
set forth needed to be presented in a brief
manner to young and old. Accordingly I 
prepared matter for a small book, on the subject
of Christian Baptism,  -  Action and Subjects,
and published the book.</p>
        <p>I never sprinkle, because I believe our Lord
in his great commission commanded me to do
something else,  -  baptize, not sprinkle. I say
<pb id="fee87" n="87"/>
to believers, Study God's Word; live up to
your convictions; I must live up to mine. I
recognize the fact that our word baptize is
not a translation, but simply the Greek word
transferred with an English termination
affixed and must therefore be interpreted by
the reader of English. True believers may
differ in the interpretation. I feel that as a
true Protestant and Christian, I must grant to
a true believer the right of  “private 
interpretation.” I therefore fellowship in church
relationship those who manifest true faith in
Christ as their Saviour from sin, though they
may make a mistake in the action they design
as baptism. The mistake in the act of 
consecration does not destroy Christian character.
Our Lord prayed for the union of all true
believers (John 17:21). We can be united on
Christ: on opinions we cannot. We may
expect that with human creeds and sects out
of the way, men and women, delivered from
the bias of party teaching, will, in the light
of other parallel passages, come to see the
truth alike in reference to this rite of divine
appointment, and as in apostolic times, there
will yet be “One Lord, one faith, one baptism”
  -  not that several different acts were
<pb id="fee88" n="88"/>
regarded as baptism, but that to Gentiles as
well as to Jews, one and the same rite was
applied; and that, as I believe, not a rhantism,
but a baptism.</p>
        <p>Prior to my baptism, Mr. C. M. Clay had
 returned from Mexico and had requested that
I send to his care a box of my “Anti-slavery
Manuals.” I had done so. He distributed
these largely in this part of Madison County.
Friends of freedom here had united in a 
request that I visit them and preach to them. I
did so early in the spring of 1853. After I
had preached to the people some nine sermons,
thirteen persons came out as professed
followers of Christ. Most of these had been
baptized and came from their former 
slaveholding fellowships. The others were 
baptized, and all united as a church and for a
time worshiped in the old Glade meeting
house. After some days, I left the little flock
and returned to my home in Lewis County.</p>
        <p>In the new church was a brother who, in
capacity to speak, was an Apollos. The
church invited him to preach to them. After
some months, brethren in the church wrote
that their pastor was not doing well, and 
entreated that I come to their help or the church
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would be scattered, lost. I saw that if this
church,  planted as it was in the interior of the
State and avowedly on the principle that
Christ is no respecter of persons, and is not
the minister of sin in any form, should now be
allowed to fail, such failure would be a
calamity. I said to my wife, For us now to
leave these churches on the border of the
State, just at the time when they are springing 
up into a measure of prosperity and
efficiency,  -  to sell out our small effects, take
our little ones and go 140 miles into the 
interior and into a place comparatively a 
wilderness, without schools, railroads, or even 
turnpikes, will be a privation, to say the least. But
I said, My mission is to preach the gospel of
love in Kentucky. To go to the interior would
enlarge my sphere of labor, and apparently
increase my power at home and abroad. I
said, I have no right to please myself at the
expense of the interests of Christ's kingdom.
My wife said, “If you feel that it is duty so to
do, we will go, and leave the future with
God.”</p>
        <p>Just at this time a Bro. J. S. Davis, a native
of Virginia, a graduate from Galesburg, Ill.,
afterward from the theological school at
<pb id="fee90" n="90"/>
Oberlin, Ohio, expressed a desire to enter
into the work in Kentucky. The churches
on the border accepted his labors, and thus
the way was made clear for me to go into
the interior.</p>
        <p>I sent forward an appointment, and then
took my horse and rode to the interior and
engaged in preaching for a few days. Mr. C.
M. Clay had bought a tract of land containing
some 600 acres; the tract included most of 
the ground on which the village of Berea
now stands. Mr. Clay was very desirous that 
the church should be sustained, and offered to
give to me a farm out of the 600 acres if I 
would come and become the settled pastor. I
never made a bargain with any man or people
to come for a price, but always decided first
where duty called and then took what, in the 
providence of God, should come. So I did 
in this case. During the meeting, our mutual
friend, H. Rawlings, came to me and said:
“Clay wants you to go and select a farm as a 
home.” Though I had decided in my own mind 
I would come, and would need a place
as a home, yet I said to Rawlings, “I will not
go and select, for in so doing I may spoil the
sale of a lot for Mr. Clay; and especially I
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will not divert my mind with anything until
this meeting is over.” Rawlings said: “The
surveyor is here.” I said, “Then you go and
mark me off a spot.” He and Bro. W. B.
Wright came to the extreme corner of the
600 acre tract and surveyed off for me ten
acres of land.</p>
        <p>When the meeting had ended, I took my
horse and rode to the place selected, the
selection of which I had left to the guidance
of providence, rather than leave what I then
thought to be the post of duty. When I came
to the place I found about one acre of hillside,
half cleared, and the rest of the land covered
with a dense undergrowth of “blackjacks”
and a frog pond in the midst. A human 
habitation could not be seen from the place. I
got on my horse and rode back to the place
where Mr. Clay then was and said to him,
“The lot selected by our friends is a dreary
spot to which to bring a family, and is more
than a mile from the place where we propose
to build a church house.” Mr. Clay quickly
asked, “Is there any other spot to you more
desirable?” I said, “The Maupin House is
near to the site for the proposed church
house, and more desirable.”</p>
        <pb id="fee92" n="92"/>
        <p>He replied: “I have just sold that to Dave
Kinnard”, and standing there as he was by
Kinnard's shop, he cried out: “Dave, come
out here; what will you take for your house
and lot I sold to you?”</p>
        <p>Kinnard asked, “What do you want it for?”
Mr. Clay replied, “For the preacher.” Said
Kinnard, “He may have it.” I knew Kinnard 
was a “trading” man, and whether he
designed the property as a home or for 
speculation, I knew not. I said to him, “Come
aside”; and then asked, “Why did you buy
that piece of property?” He had another
property alongside of it. He replied, “It is
my ‘rosy’.” I saw in a moment that to take
the house and lot would be to covet my 
neighbor's property. I said at once, “I will not
take it.” I rode back to the selected spot.
There I found the two friends, H. Rawlings
and W. Stapp, sitting each on an old fallen
tree. I said, “This is a dreary spot to which
to bring a family.” All was silence for a
moment. Rawlings, who was not a Christian,
then broke the silence by quoting the
familiar couplet:</p>
        <lg>
          <l>“Prisons would palaces prove,</l>
          <l>If Jesus would dwell with me there.”</l>
        </lg>
        <pb id="fee93" n="93"/>
        <p>I said to Stanton Thompson, who had that
moment come up, seeking employment, “Take
your axe and drive a stake by that little hickory, 
and we will build a house there.”</p>
        <p>Looking around for a moment I saw, what
I had not previously noticed, the absence of
water, and said, “There is no water here for
man or beast.” Silence again for a moment,
when Rawlings gravely replied, “Moses smote
the rock and the waters gushed out.” I said
to Thompson, “Dig a well beside that dogwood 
tree.” He did,  -  found water,  -  and the
well has never been dry.</p>
      </div1>
      <pb id="fee94" n="94"/>
      <div1>
        <head>CHAPTER V.</head>
        <argument>
          <p>Removal to Madison County.  -  Projected College.
     Its Foundation Principles.  -  Survey of Fields.
       -  Mob at Dripping Springs.  -  Mob in Rockcastle
     County.  -  Fourth of July.  -  C. M. Clay and I
     differ.  -  Mob in Rockcastle County.  -  Mob in
     Madison County.  -  Dark Days at
     Berea.  -  Entreaty to Leave.  -  Decision to Hold
     On.  -  Trusts.</p>
        </argument>
        <p>I RETURNED to my family then in Lewis
County. After a short time, I gathered our
household goods into a two-horse wagon, and
my wife, two children and I, in a one-horse
carriage, started for the new home, one hundred
and forty miles in the interior. There was no
railroad to Berea at that time. In the evening
of the third day we camped in the new house,
then without a chimney, or glass in the 
windows, or fence around the yard. Believing,
as we did, that we were exactly where the
Lord would have us, we lay down and slept
calmly, sweetly.</p>
        <p>After a few days, with chimney up, glass
in the windows, and yard enclosed, we began
to plan for a school-house, and a place for
preaching up on the ridge. Lumber was
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secured and the eastern part of what is now
known as the “old District School-house” was
constructed.</p>
        <p>About this time Bro. George Candee came;
and whilst he and I were chopping wood,
then piled up in my yard, we talked up the
idea of a more extended school  -  a college  -  
in which to educate not merely in a knowledge
of the sciences, so called, but also in the
principles of love in religion, and liberty and
justice in government; and thus permeate the
minds of the youth with these sentiments.</p>
        <p>With a purpose to survey the field and look
out the best location, we took our horses and
rode out into Rockcastle County, and visited a
community in which I had preached a few
discourses during the preceding year. We
thought we had there found the place, and
unfolded our plans to a friend. He entered
with commendable zeal into the plan and was
ready to deed lands for the enterprise.</p>
        <p>As a preparatory step we induced friends
to help in the erection of a house as a place for
the school, and for public worship. The
building was speedily enclosed, a few sermons 
preached, and Otis B. Waters, a student from 
Oberlin, Ohio, was introduced as
<pb id="fee96" n="96"/>teacher of the school. Soon some enemy of
the movement reduced the building to ashes.</p>
        <p>Friends there were intimidated and wholly
unwilling to make any other effort at building.
I kept up a monthly appointment in the 
community, in groves and private houses.</p>
        <p>Brother Candee went into Pulaski County
and started a school there. Speedily the
house there was burned. From thence he
went to McKee, the county seat of Jackson
County. I kept headquarters at Berea, with
regular appointments there, and in three other
adjoining counties.</p>
        <p>A Bro. Richardson, a man of excellent
spirit, came. He went on to Williamsburg,
the county seat of Whitley County, where
Bro. Myers has successfully labored. Bro.
Richardson there began a school, but soon
felt the unfriendly embrace of a mob and left.</p>
        <p>One of my appointments for regular preaching, 
at this time, was at Dripping Springs, in
Garrard County, near to Crab Orchard. The
slave power was, as ever, vigilant  -  called a
meeting of citizens at Crab Orchard, and a
venerable minister of the Gospel (?) presided
over their deliberations. They gravely 
resolved that I should not further preach nor
distribute Abolition documents in that county.</p>
        <pb id="fee97" n="97"/>
        <p>On coming to my next appointment, I
found, as I had been told I would, a crowd
not very benignant in looks. I went into the
house with friendly salutations for all, and
with quiet purpose to meet faithfully whatever
providence might reveal. I was informed
that there was, in the hands of Dr. _____ , a
batch of resolutions I would be requested to
hear. I expressed a readiness to listen. At
the close of the reading the demand was that
my reply be yes or no. I said, “I have given
to you a quiet, respectful hearing, and have a
right to the same from you”; and without
pause for them to accumulate wrath replied
to each resolution  -  six in number.</p>
        <p>In my reply I said: “I am a citizen, a native
of the State; my interests are your interests;
your interests are my interests; and as a 
servant of the living God, and deprecating, as I
do, the institution of slavery in all its forms,
I cannot pledge to you that I will not preach
in this county what I conceive to be the truth
of God, or refrain from scattering abroad
tracts and other publications containing 
sentiments of justice and liberty.” A significant
pause ensued. The crowd sought, through a
“go-between,” to pile up the sad consequences
<pb id="fee98" n="98"/>
that might follow if I did not then quietly
withdraw. I replied, “You all know I am not
a man of violence,  -  I carry no weapons of
defense. If any person is hurt, the guilt and
responsibility will be on those who do the
‘hurting.’” After much counciling and
hesitancy, one swore he could move me;
another swore he could  -  and another  -  and
the three clamped me; and with the crowd
pressing they soon hustled me from the house.
As they were passing with me out of the yard,
I laid hold of a bar-post, deciding as I did, in
my mind, that if they got me away it should
be a case of  “assault and battery.” This they
soon made, by breaking my hold. They
took me to my horse, which they had brought
from the stable, and asked me to get on. I
declined, saying: “I can not, with any degree
of propriety, comply with demands so 
unreasonable, unjust and illegal.” They then
put me on my horse and asked me to ride; I
declined. They then led and drove, and thus
escorted me one or two miles on my way
home.</p>
        <p>I made my appeal, as I had done in similar
cases before, to the Civil Court. I got no
redress. When my friend Rawlings enquired
<pb id="fee99" n="99"/>
of the foremen of the Grand Jury why they
did not bring in a true bill against the mob,
the foreman replied, “The proof was clear,
but we could not do any thing.”</p>
        <p>Other trials, by which to sift friends, and
indicate the place for the proposed college
and continued church, seemed to be necessary.</p>
        <p>Soon after the mobbing at Dripping Springs,
Garrard County, I went again eighteen miles
distant, to my regular monthly appointment
in Rockcastle County. My wife taking her
babe in her arms, leaving our other little
ones at home with a good friend, went with
me. When we arrived, we found an orderly
congregation of people, and larger than we
had expected, assembled in the grove, 
according to previous arrangement.</p>
        <p>Soon after I had commenced preaching, a
band of men, about thirty in number, rode up,
dismounted and posted themselves outside
the congregation. Soon it was manifest that
they were in doubt as to what was the better
course to pursue. Unobserved by me, and
without any previous knowledge of his intent,
there stood behind me a strong, robust man;
and, though it was now early summer, he had
on a large overcoat, with large side pockets,
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evidently not empty. Under his overcoat, as
I was afterward informed, there was seen the
handle of a huge knife, evidently not made
by Wostenholm &amp; Sons. This man (Roberts)
said not a word, nor moved a step. His
known sympathy with liberty and free speech,
bespoke to others his silent purpose. I
followed the plan of my sermon, concluded,
and knelt down, with many others, and called
on a brother to lead in prayer  -  he was silent.
I then called on a venerable minister of the
Gospel, usually fervent in prayer, and he, too,
remained silent. I prayed, and then, after
further conversation with some three persons
who had confessed sorrow for sin and trust
in Jesus, we went with the congregation to a
stream of water near by, and there, upon the
repeated profession of their faith in Christ, I
baptized the three, in the name of the Father,
Son, and Holy Spirit.</p>
        <p>Soon after the baptism and before we left
the ground, my wife, other friends and myself,
were warned not to return  -  that if we did,
we would certainly meet a large force, and I
not be allowed to speak. I replied, “The
Lord willing, I will meet my appointment.”
My wife told them that, if living, I would
come.</p>
        <pb id="fee101" n="101"/>
        <p>In the meantime, I went in person to see
two civil officers  -  justices of the peace.
They were personal friends. Each promised
to attend the next meeting and demand order
in the name of the Commonwealth.</p>
        <p>I sought at all times to secure to myself
and to others protection of person and liberty
of speech, by appeal, not to arms, but to civil
magistrates and to civil courts. This was, as
I believed, not only wise policy, but religious
duty. Civil authority is from God. “The
powers that be are ordained of God.” Rom.
13:1. Parental authority is of God. It may
be, and often is, abused. So may civil authority; 
still it is right to recognize and honor the
civil authority, thus educate public sentiment
to a right course, and secure in this way the
only substantial peace.</p>
        <p>My appeals to the magistrates referred to,
though they were personally friendly, were
of no avail.</p>
        <p>Between the meeting referred to and my
next appointment in Rockcastle County, there
came a severe crisis in the history of the work
at Berea and the region roundabout.</p>
        <p>A short time previous in that year, 1856,
Hon. C. M. Clay had proposed a Republican
<pb id="fee102" n="102"/>ticket for Kentucky; a convention in which it
might be adopted and sent forth. In his 
introductory speech he said: “The National
Government has nothing more to do with
slavery than with concubinage in Turkey.” I,
in reply, said, “The National Government is
responsible for the strength and perpetuity of
slavery and this by the enactment of the
Fugitive Slave Law.”</p>
        <p>The Fourth of July was near at hand. We
had previously, on this national birthday,
celebrated liberty prospectively  -  Mr. Clay
leading and I following.</p>
        <p>The place for the celebration had, by 
previous arrangements, been fixed at Slate Lick
Springs, Madison County. The day came,
and hundreds of people gathered. Mr. Clay
 and I were on hand, and when the hour for
addresses came, Mr. Clay said that I must
speak first. I declined. He insisted. I
thought I saw his policy  -  have me utter my
radical sentiments, and he then review me.</p>
        <p>I decided, in my own mind, to meet the
issue squarely; and rising with a copy of the
Declaration of Independence in my hand, I
repeated the words, “ ‘All men are created
free and equal,’ and ‘endowed by their Creator
<pb id="fee103" n="103"/>
with certain inalienable rights.’ ” I said, “If
inalienable, then such are man's relations to
God, to himself and family, that he cannot
alienate; society cannot; governments cannot
alienate. ‘Endowed by their Creator,’ if so,
then it is impious in us to attempt to take
away.” I added, “This invasion of human
rights is condemned by the highest judicial
authorities”; and I quoted from Blackstone,
Judge McLean, and others. Then I said,
“What is stronger than all, the Word of God
forbids it,” and quoted various passages. I
further said, “That which thus outrages 
natural right and divine teaching is mere 
usurpation, and, correctly speaking, is incapable of
legalization.” I then showed that under the
Mansfield decision there was no legal slavery
in any of the British colonies  -  that when
the American colonies became States of
this Union, they did not attempt to legalize
slavery  -  it exists only by usurpation. I then
concluded by saying, “A law confessedly
contrary to the law of God ought not by
human courts to be enforced”; and referred
to the Fugitive Slave Law, and said that I
would refuse to obey; then suffer the penalty.</p>
        <p>Mr. Clay followed, and after expressions of
<pb id="fee104" n="104"/>
high personal regard for me, in many respects,
he said to others, “As my political friends, I
warn you; Mr. Fee's position is revolutionary,
insurrectionary and dangerous.” He continued 
by saying, “As long as a law is on the
statute book, it is to be respected and obeyed
until repealed by the republican majority.”
He elaborated his position. When he came
to the Fugitive Slave Law he said, “So far as
thi