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            <p>ELIZABETH KECKLEY.<lb/>[Frontispiece Image]</p>
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          <titlePart type="main">BEHIND THE SCENES.</titlePart>
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        <byline>BY</byline>
        <docAuthor>ELIZABETH KECKLEY,<lb/>
FORMERLY A SLAVE, BUT MORE RECENTLY MODISTE, AND FRIEND TO MRS.<lb/>
ABRAHAM LINCOLN.</docAuthor>
        <docTitle>
          <titlePart type="subtitle">OR,
<lb/>
THIRTY YEARS A SLAVE, AND FOUR YEARS IN
<lb/>
THE WHITE HOUSE.</titlePart>
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        <docImprint><pubPlace>New York:</pubPlace>
<publisher><hi rend="italics">G. W. Carleton &amp; Co., Publishers.</hi></publisher>
<docDate>M DCCC LXVIII.</docDate></docImprint>
        <pb id="keckleyverso" n="verso"/>
        <docImprint>Entered according to Act of Congress, in the year 1868, by<lb/>
ELIZABETH KECKLEY,<lb/>
In the Office of the Clerk of the District Court of the United States for<lb/>
the Southern District of Pennsylvania.
<lb/>
THE NEW YORK PRINTING COMPANY,<lb/>
81, 83, <hi rend="italics">and</hi> 85 <hi rend="italics">Centre Street</hi>,<lb/>
New York.</docImprint>
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        <head>CONTENTS.</head>
        <list type="simple">
          <item>Preface . . . . . <sic corr="xi"><ref targOrder="U" target="keckleyxi">11</ref></sic></item>
          <item>CHAPTER I.
<lb/>
Where I was born . . . . . <ref targOrder="U" target="keckley17">17</ref></item>
          <item>CHAPTER II.
<lb/>
Girlhood and its Sorrows . . . . . <ref targOrder="U" target="keckley31">31</ref></item>
          <item>CHAPTER III.
<lb/>
How I gained my Freedom . . . . . <ref targOrder="U" target="keckley43">43</ref></item>
          <item>CHAPTER IV.
<lb/>
In the Family of Senator Jefferson Davis . . . . . <ref targOrder="U" target="keckley63">63</ref></item>
          <item>CHAPTER V.
<lb/>
My Introduction to Mrs. Lincoln . . . . . <ref targOrder="U" target="keckley76">76</ref></item>
          <item>CHAPTER VI.
<lb/>
Willie Lincoln's Death-bed . . . . . <ref targOrder="U" target="keckley91">91</ref></item>
          <item>CHAPTER VII.
<lb/>
Washington in 1862-3 . . . . . <ref targOrder="U" target="keckley111">111</ref></item>
          <pb id="keckleyx" n="x"/>
          <item>CHAPTER VIII.
<lb/>
Candid Opinions . . . . . <ref targOrder="U" target="keckley127">127</ref></item>
          <item>CHAPTER IX.
<lb/>
Behind the Scenes . . . . . <ref targOrder="U" target="keckley139">139</ref></item>
          <item>CHAPTER X.
<lb/>
The Second Inauguration . . . . . <ref targOrder="U" target="keckley152"><sic>156</sic></ref></item>
          <item>CHAPTER XI.
<lb/>
The Assassination of President Lincoln . . . . . 
<ref targOrder="U" target="keckley174"><sic>178</sic></ref></item>
          <item>CHAPTER XII.
<lb/>
Mrs. Lincoln leaves the White House . . . . . <ref targOrder="U" target="keckley201">201</ref></item>
          <item>CHAPTER XIII.
<lb/>
The Origin of the Rivalry between Mr. Douglas and Mr. Lincoln . . . . . <ref targOrder="U" target="keckley228">228</ref></item>
          <item>CHAPTER XIV.
<lb/>
Old Friends . . . . . <ref targOrder="U" target="keckley238">238</ref></item>
          <item>CHAPTER XV.
<lb/>
The Secret History of Mrs. Lincoln's Wardrobe in New
York . . . . . <ref targOrder="U" target="keckley267">267</ref></item>
          <item>Appendix—Letters from Mrs. Lincoln to Mrs. Keckley . . . . . <ref targOrder="U" target="keckley332">332</ref></item>
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        <head>PREFACE.</head>
        <p>I HAVE often been asked to write my life, as those who
know me know that it has been an eventful one. At last I
have acceded to the importunities of my friends, and
have hastily sketched some of the striking incidents
that go to make up my history. My life, so full of
romance, may sound like a dream to the matter-of-fact
reader, nevertheless everything I have written is strictly
true; much has been omitted, but nothing has been
exaggerated. In writing as I have done, I am well
aware that I have invited criticism; but before the critic
judges harshly, let my explanation be carefully read
and weighed. If I have portrayed the dark side of
slavery, I also have painted the bright side. The good
that I have said of human servitude should be thrown
into the scales with the evil that I have said of it. I
have kind, true-hearted friends in the South as well as in the
North, and I would not wound those Southern
<pb id="keckleyxii" n="xii"/>
friends by sweeping condemnation, simply because I was
once a slave. They were not so much responsible for the
curse under which I was born, as the God of nature and the
fathers who framed the Constitution for the United States.
The law descended to them, and it was but natural that they
should recognize it, since it manifestly was their interest to
do so. And yet a wrong was inflicted upon me; a cruel
custom deprived me of my liberty, and since I was robbed of
my dearest right, I would not have been human had I not
rebelled against the robbery. God rules the Universe. I was a
feeble instrument in His hands, and through me and the
enslaved millions of my race, one of the problems was
solved that belongs to the great problem of human destiny;
and the solution was developed so gradually that there was
no great convulsion of the harmonies of natural laws. A
solemn truth was thrown to the surface, and what is better
still, it was recognized as a truth by those who give force to
moral laws. An act may be wrong, but unless the ruling
power recognizes the wrong, it is useless to hope for a
correction of it. Principles may be right, but they are not
established within an hour. The masses are slow to reason,
and each principle, to acquire moral force, must come to us
from the fire of the crucible; the fire may inflict unjust
punishment, but then it purifies and renders stronger the
principle, not in itself, but in the eyes of those who arrogate
judgment to themselves. When the war of the Revolution
established the independence of the
<pb id="keckleyxiii" n="xiii"/>
American colonies, an evil was perpetuated, slavery was
more firmly established; and since the evil had been planted,
it must pass through certain stages before it could be
eradicated. In fact, we give but little thought to the plant of
evil until it grows to such monstrous proportions that it
overshadows important interests; then the efforts to
destroy it become earnest. As one of the victims of slavery I
drank of the bitter water; but then, since destiny willed it
so, and since I aided in bringing a solemn truth to the surface
<hi rend="italics">as a truth</hi>, perhaps I have no right to complain. Here, as in
all things pertaining to life, I can afford to be charitable.</p>
        <p>It may be charged that I have written too freely on some
questions, especially in regard to Mrs. Lincoln. I do not
think so; at least I have been prompted by the purest
motive. Mrs. Lincoln, by her own acts, forced herself into
notoriety. She stepped beyond the formal lines which hedge
about a private life, and invited public criticism. The people
have judged her harshly, and no woman was ever more
traduced in the public prints of the country. The people
knew nothing of the secret history of her transactions,
therefore they judged her by what was thrown to the
surface. For an act may be wrong judged purely by itself,
but when the motive that prompted the act is understood, it
is construed differently. I lay it down as an axiom, that only
that is criminal in the sight of God where crime is meditated.
Mrs. Lincoln may have been imprudent, but since her
<pb id="keckleyxiv" n="xiv"/>
intentions were good, she should be judged more kindly
than she has been. But the world do not know what her
intentions were; they have only been made acquainted with
her acts without knowing what feeling guided her actions. If
the world are to judge her as I have judged her, they must be
introduced to the secret history of her transactions. The veil
of mystery must be drawn aside; the origin of a fact must
be brought to light with the naked fact itself. If I have
betrayed confidence in anything I have published, it has
been to place Mrs. Lincoln in a better light before the world.
A breach of trust—if breach it can be called—of this kind is
always excusable. My own character, as well as the
character of Mrs. Lincoln, is at stake, since I have been
intimately associated with that lady in the most eventful
periods of her life. I have been her confidante, and if evil
charges are laid at her door, they also must be laid at mine,
since I have been a party to all her movements. To defend
myself I must defend the lady that I have served. The world
have judged Mrs. Lincoln by the facts which float upon the
surface, and through her have partially judged me, and the
only way to convince them that wrong was not meditated is
to explain the motives that actuated us. I have written
nothing that can place Mrs. Lincoln in a worse light before
the world than the light in which she now stands, therefore
the secret history that I publish can do her no harm. I have
excluded everything of a personal character from her letters;
the extracts introduced only
<pb id="keckleyxv" n="xv"/>
refer to public men, and are such as to throw light upon her
unfortunate adventure in New York. These letters were not
written for publication, for which reason they are all the
more valuable; they are the frank overflowings of the heart,
the outcropping of impulse, the key to genuine motives.
They prove the motive to have been pure, and if they shall
help to stifle the voice of calumny, I am content. I do not
forget, before the public journals vilified Mrs. Lincoln, that
ladies who moved in the Washington circle in which she
moved, freely canvassed her character among themselves.
They gloated over many a tale of scandal that grew out of
gossip in their own circle. If these ladies, could say
everything bad of the wife of the President, why should I
not be permitted to lay her secret history bare, especially
when that history plainly shows that her life, like all lives,
has its good side as well as its bad side! None of us are
perfect, for which reason we should heed the voice of
charity when it whispers in our ears, “Do not magnify the
imperfections of others.” Had Mrs. Lincoln's acts never
become public property, I should not have published to the
world the secret chapters of her life. I am not the special
champion of the widow of our lamented President; the
reader of the pages which follow will discover that I have
written with the utmost frankness in regard to her—have
exposed her faults as well as given her credit for honest
motives. I wish the world to judge her as she is, free from
the exaggerations of praise or scandal, since
<pb id="keckleyxvi" n="xvi"/>
I have been associated with her in so many things
that have provoked hostile criticism; and the judgment
that the world may pass upon her, I flatter myself, will
present my own actions in a better light.</p>
        <closer><signed>ELIZABETH KECKLEY.</signed>
<dateline>14 CARROLL PLACE, NEW YORK, <date>March 14, 1868.</date></dateline></closer>
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        <head>BEHIND THE SCENES.</head>
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          <head>CHAPTER I.</head>
          <head>WHERE I WAS BORN.</head>
          <p>MY life has been an eventful one. I was born a slave—was the child of slave parents—therefore I came
upon the earth free in God-like thought, but
fettered in action. My birthplace was Dinwiddie
Court-House, in Virginia. My recollections of
childhood are distinct, perhaps for the reason that
many stirring incidents are associated with that
period. I am now on the shady side of forty, and as
I sit alone in my room the brain is busy, and a
rapidly moving panorama brings scene after scene
before me, some
<pb id="keckley18" n="18"/>
pleasant and others sad; and when I thus greet old
familiar faces, I often find myself wondering if I am not
living the past over again. The visions are so terribly
distinct that I almost imagine them to be real. Hour
after hour I sit while the scenes are being shifted; and
as I gaze upon the panorama of the past, I realize how
crowded with incidents my life has been. Every day
seems like a romance within itself, and the years grow
into ponderous volumes. As I cannot condense, I
must omit many strange passages in my history. From
such a wilderness of events it is difficult to make a
selection, but as I am not writing altogether the history
of myself, I will confine my story to the most important
incidents which I believe influenced the moulding of
my character. As I glance over the crowded sea of the
past, these incidents stand forth prominently, the
guide-posts of memory. I presume that I must have
been four years old when I
<pb id="keckley19" n="19"/>
first began to remember; at least, I cannot now
recall anything occurring previous to this period.
My master, Col. A. Burwell, was somewhat
unsettled in his business affairs, and while I was
yet an infant he made several removals. While
living at Hampton Sidney College, Prince
Edward County, Va., Mrs. Burwell gave birth
to a daughter, a sweet, black-eyed baby, my
earliest and fondest pet. To take care of this
baby was my first duty. True, I was but a
child myself—only four years old—but then I
had been raised in a hardy school—had been
taught to rely upon myself, and to prepare
myself to render assistance to others. The lesson
was not a bitter one, for I was too young to
indulge in philosophy, and the precepts that I
then treasured and practised I believe developed
those principles of character which have enabled
me to triumph over so many difficulties.
Notwithstanding all the wrongs that slavery heaped
upon me, I can bless it for one thing—youth's
<pb id="keckley20" n="20"/>
important lesson of self-reliance. The baby was named
Elizabeth, and it was pleasant to me to be assigned a
duty in connection with it, for the discharge of that
duty transferred me from the rude cabin to the
household of my master. My simple attire was a short
dress and a little white apron. My old mistress
encouraged me in rocking the cradle, by telling me that
if I would watch over the baby well, keep the flies out
of its face, and not let it cry, I should be its little maid.
This was a golden promise, and I required no better
inducement for the faithful performance of my task. I
began to rock the cradle most industriously, when lo!
out pitched little pet on the floor. I instantly cried out,
“Oh! the baby is on the floor;” and, not knowing what
to do, I seized the fire-shovel in my perplexity, and was
trying to shovel up my tender charge, when my
mistress called to me to let the child alone, and then
ordered that I be taken out and lashed for my
carelessness.
<pb id="keckley21" n="21"/>
The blows were not administered with a light hand, I
assure you, and doubtless the severity of the lashing
has made me remember the incident so well. This was
the first time I was punished in this cruel way, but not
the last. The black-eyed baby that I called my pet grew
into a self-willed girl, and in after years was the cause
of much trouble to me. I grew strong and healthy, and,
notwithstanding I knit socks and attended to various
kinds of work, I was repeatedly told, when even
fourteen years old, that I would never be worth my
salt. When I was eight, Mr. Burwell's family consisted
of six sons and four daughters, with a large family of
servants. My mother was kind and forbearing; Mrs.
Burwell a hard task-master; and as mother had so much
work to do in making clothes, etc., for the family,
besides the slaves, I determined to render her all the
assistance in my power, and in rendering her such
assistance my young energies were taxed to the
utmost<corr sic="no punctuation">.</corr>
<pb id="keckley22" n="22"/>
I was my mother's only child, which made her love for
me all the stronger. I did not know much of my father,
for he was the slave of another man, and when Mr.
Burwell moved from Dinwiddie he was separated from
us, and only allowed to visit my mother twice a year—during the Easter holidays and Christmas. At last Mr.
Burwell determined to reward my mother, by making
an arrangement with the owner of my father, by which
the separation of my parents could be brought to an
end. It was a bright day, indeed, for my mother when it
was announced that my father was coming to live with
us. The old weary look faded from her face, and she
worked as if her heart was in every task. But the
golden days did not last long. The radiant dream
faded all too soon.</p>
          <p>In the morning my father called me to him and
kissed me, then held me out at arms' length as if he
were regarding his child with pride. “She is growing
into a large fine girl,” he remarked
<pb id="keckley23" n="23"/>
to my mother. “I dun no which I like best, you
or Lizzie, as both are so dear to me.” My mother's
name was Agnes, and my father delighted to call me
his “Little Lizzie.” While yet my father and mother
were speaking hopefully, joyfully of the future, Mr.
Burwell came to the cabin, with a letter in his hand.
He was a kind master in some things, and as gently
as possible informed my parents that they must
part; for in two hours my father must join his
master at Dinwiddie, and go with him to the
West, where he had determined to make his future
home. The announcement fell upon the little
circle in that rude-log cabin like a thunderbolt.
I can remember the scene as if it were but
yesterday;—how my father cried out against the
cruel separation; his last kiss; his wild straining
of my mother to his bosom; the solemn prayer to
Heaven; the tears and sobs—the fearful anguish of
broken hearts. The last kiss, the last good-by; and he,
my father, was gone, gone forever.
<pb id="keckley24" n="24"/>
The shadow eclipsed the sunshine, and love brought
despair. The parting was eternal. The cloud had no
silver lining, but I trust that it will be all silver in
heaven. We who are crushed to earth with heavy
chains, who travel a weary, rugged, thorny road,
groping through midnight darkness on earth, earn our
right to enjoy the sunshine in the great hereafter. At
the grave, at least, we should be permitted to lay our
burdens down, that a new world, a world of
brightness, may open to us. The light that is denied us
here should grow into a flood of effulgence beyond
the dark, mysterious shadows of death. Deep as was
the distress of my mother in parting with my father,
her sorrow did not screen her from insult. My old
mistress said to her: “Stop your nonsense; there is
no necessity for you putting on airs. Your husband is
not the only slave that has been sold from his family,
and you are not the only one that has had to part.
There are plenty more men about here, and if you
want a
<pb id="keckley25" n="25"/>
husband so badly, stop your crying and go and find
another.” To these unfeeling words my mother made
no reply. She turned away in stoical silence, with a
curl of that loathing scorn upon her lips which swelled
in her heart.</p>
          <p>My father and mother never met again in this world.
They kept up a regular correspondence for years, and
the most precious mementoes of my existence are the
faded old letters that he wrote, full of love, and always
hoping that the future would bring brighter days. In
nearly every letter is a message for me. “Tell my
darling little Lizzie,” he writes, “to be a good girl, and
to learn her book. Kiss her for me, and tell her that I
will come to see her some day.” Thus he wrote time
and again, but he never came. He lived in hope, but
died without ever seeing his wife and child.</p>
          <p>I note a few extracts from one of my father's letters
to my mother, following copy literally:</p>
          <pb id="keckley26" n="26"/>
          <q type="letter" direct="unspecified">
            <text>
              <body>
                <div1 type="letter">
                  <opener><dateline>SHELBYVILE, <date>Sept. 6, 1833.</date></dateline>
<salute>“MRS. AGNES HOBBS.</salute></opener>
                  <p>“Dear Wife: My dear biloved wife I am more than
glad to meet with opportunty writee thes few lines to
you by my Mistress who ar now about starterng to
virginia, and sevl others of my old friends are with her;
in compeney Mrs. Ann Rus the wife of master Thos
Rus and Dan Woodiard and his family and I am very
sorry that I havn the chance to go with them as I feele
Determid. to see you If life last again. I am now here
and out at this pleace so I am not abble to get of at this
time. I am write well and hearty and all the rest of
masters family. I heard this eveng by Mistress that ar
just from theree all sends love to you and all my old
frends. I am a living in a town called Shelbyville and I
have wrote a greate many letters since Ive beene here
and almost been reeady to my selfe that its out of the
question to write any more at tall: my dear wife I dont
feeld no whys like giving out writing
<pb id="keckley27" n="27"/>
to you as yet and I hope when you get this letter
that you be Inncougege to write me a letter. I am well
satisfied at my living at this place I am a
making money for my own benifit and I hope that its
to yours also If I live to see Nexct year
I shall heve my own time from master by giving him
100 and twenty Dollars a year and I thinke I shall be
doing good bisness at that and heve something
more thean all that. I hope with gods helpe that
I may be abble to rejoys with you on the earth and In
heaven lets meet when will I am detemnid to nuver
stope praying, not in this earth and I hope to praise
god In glory there weel meet to part no more forever.
So my dear wife I hope to meet you In paradase to
prase god forever * * * * *  I want Elizabeth to be
a good girl and not to thinke that becasue I am
bound so fare that gods not abble to open the
way *  * * * </p>
                  <closer>
                    <signed>“GEORGE PLEASANT,<lb/>
“<hi rend="italics">Hobbs a servant of Grum</hi>.”</signed>
                  </closer>
                </div1>
              </body>
            </text>
          </q>
          <p>The last letter that my mother received from my
<pb id="keckley28" n="28"/>
father was dated Shelbyville, Tennessee, March 20,
1839. He writes in a cheerful strain, and hopes to see
her soon. Alas! he looked forward to a meeting in
vain. Year after year the one great hope swelled in his
heart, but the hope was only realized beyond the dark
portals of the grave.</p>
          <p>When I was about seven years old I witnessed, for
the first time, the sale of a human being. We were
living at Prince Edward, in Virginia, and master had
just purchased his hogs for the winter, for which he
was unable to pay in full. To escape from his
embarrassment it was necessary to sell one of the
slaves. Little Joe, the son of the cook, was selected as
the victim. His mother was ordered to dress him up in
his Sunday clothes, and send him to the house. He
came in with a bright face, was placed in the scales,
and was sold, like the hogs, at so much per pound. His
mother was kept in ignorance of the transaction, but
her suspicions were aroused. When her son started
for Petersburgh in the wagon, the truth began to dawn
upon her
<pb id="keckley29" n="29"/>
mind, and she pleaded piteously that her boy should
not be taken from her; but master quieted her by
telling her that he was simply going to town with the
wagon, and would be back in the morning. Morning
came, but little Joe did not return to his mother.
Morning after morning passed, and the mother went
down to the grave without ever seeing her child again.
One day she was whipped for grieving for her lost boy.
Colonel Burwell never liked to see one of his slaves wear a
sorrowful face, and those who offended in this particular
way were always punished. Alas! the sunny face of the
slave is not always an indication of sunshine in the heart.
Colonel Burwell at one time owned about seventy slaves,
all of which were sold, and in a majority of instances
wives were separated from husbands and children from
their parents. Slavery in the Border States forty years ago
was different from what it was twenty years ago. Time
seemed to soften the hearts of master and
<pb id="keckley30" n="30"/>
mistress, and to insure kinder and more humane
treatment to bondsmen and bondswomen. When I
was quite a child, an incident occurred which my
mother afterward impressed more strongly on my mind.
One of my uncles, a slave of Colonel Burwell, lost a
pair of ploughlines, and when the loss was made
known the master gave him a new pair, and told him
that if he did not take care of them he would punish
him severely. In a few weeks the second pair of lines
was stolen, and my uncle hung himself rather than
meet the displeasure of his master. My mother went
to the spring in the morning for a pail of water, and on
looking up into the willow tree which shaded the
bubbling crystal stream, she discovered the lifeless
form of her brother suspended beneath one of the
strong branches. Rather than be punished the way
Colonel Burwell punished his servants, he took his
own life. Slavery had its dark side as well as its bright
side.</p>
        </div2>
        <div2 type="chapter">
          <pb id="keckley31" n="31"/>
          <head>CHAPTER II.</head>
          <head>GIRLHOOD AND ITS SORROWS.</head>
          <p>I MUST pass rapidly over the stirring events of my
early life. When I was about fourteen years old I
went to live with my master's eldest son, a Presbyterian
minister. His salary was small, and he was burdened
with a helpless wife, a girl that he had married in the
humble walks of life. She was morbidly sensitive,
and imagined that I regarded her with contemptuous
feelings because she was of poor parentage. I was their
only servant, and a gracious loan at that. They were
not able to buy me, so my old master sought
<pb id="keckley32" n="32"/>
render them assistance by allowing them the benefit of
my services. From the very first I did the work of three
servants, and yet I was scolded and regarded with
distrust. The years passed slowly, and I continued to
serve them, and at the same time grew into strong,
healthy womanhood. I was nearly eighteen when we
removed from Virginia to Hillsboro', North Carolina,
where young Mr. Burwell took charge of a church.
The salary was small, and we still had to practise the
closest economy. Mr. Bingham, a hard, cruel man, the
village schoolmaster, was a member of my young
master's church, and he was a frequent visitor to the
parsonage. She whom I called mistress seemed to be
desirous to wreak vengeance on me for something,
and Bingham became her ready tool. During this time
my master was unusually kind to me; he was naturally
a good-hearted man, but was influenced by his wife. It
was Saturday evening, and while I was bending over
the bed, watching the baby
<pb id="keckley33" n="33"/>
that I had just hushed into slumber, Mr. Bingham
came to the door and asked me to go with him to his
study. Wondering what he meant by his strange
request, I followed him, and when we had entered the
study he closed the door, and in his blunt way
remarked: “Lizzie, I am going to flog you.” I was
thunderstruck, and tried to think if I had been remiss in
anything. I could not recollect of doing anything to
deserve punishment, and with surprise exclaimed:
“Whip me, Mr. Bingham! what for?” </p>
          <p>“No matter,” he replied, “I am going to whip you, so
take down your dress this instant.”</p>
          <p>Recollect, I was eighteen years of age, was a
woman fully developed, and yet this man coolly bade
me take down my dress. I drew myself up proudly,
firmly, and said: “No, Mr. Bingham, I shall not take
down my dress before you. Moreover, you shall not
whip me unless you prove the stronger. Nobody has a
right to whip me but my own master, and nobody shall
do so if I can prevent it.”</p>
          <pb id="keckley34" n="34"/>
          <p>My words seemed to exasperate him. He seized a
rope, caught me roughly, and tried to tie me. I resisted
with all my strength, but he was the stronger of the
two, and after a hard struggle succeeded in binding
my hands and tearing my dress from my back. Then he
picked up a rawhide, and began to ply it freely over
my shoulders. With steady hand and practised eye he
would raise the instrument of torture, nerve himself for
a blow, and with fearful force the rawhide descended
upon the quivering flesh. It cut the skin, raised great
welts, and the warm blood trickled down my back. Oh
God! I can feel the torture now—the terrible,
excruciating agony of those moments. I did not
scream; I was too proud to let my tormentor know
what I was suffering. I closed my lips firmly, that not
even a groan might escape from them, and I stood like
a statue while the keen lash cut deep into my flesh. As
soon as I was released, stunned with pain, bruised
and bleeding, I went home and
<pb id="keckley35" n="35"/>
rushed into the presence of the pastor and his wife,
wildly exclaiming: “Master Robert, why did you let
Mr. Bingham flog me? What have I done that I should
be so punished?”</p>
          <p>“Go away,” he gruffly answered, “do not bother me.”</p>
          <p>I would not be put off thus. “What <hi rend="italics">have</hi> I done?
I <hi rend="italics">will</hi> know why I have been flogged.”</p>
          <p>I saw his cheeks flush with anger, but I did not
move. He rose to his feet, and on my refusing to go
without an explanation, seized a chair, struck me, and
felled me to the floor. I rose, bewildered, almost dead
with pain, crept to my room, dressed my bruised arms
and back as best I could, and then lay down, but not
to sleep. No, I could not sleep, for I was suffering
mental as well as bodily torture. My spirit rebelled
against the unjustness that had been inflicted upon
me, and though I tried to smother my anger and to
forgive those who had been so cruel to me, it was
impossible. The next morning I was more
<pb id="keckley36" n="36"/>
calm, and I believe that I could then have forgiven
everything for the sake of one kind word. But the kind
word was not proffered, and it may be possible that
I grew somewhat wayward and sullen. Though I
had faults, I know now, as I felt then, harshness was
the poorest inducement for the correction of them. It
seems that Mr. Bingham had pledged himself to Mrs.
Burwell to subdue what he called my “stubborn pride.”
On Friday following the Saturday on which I was so
savagely beaten, Mr. Bingham again directed me come
to his study. I went, but with the determination to offer
resistance should he attempt to flog me again. On
entering the room I found him prepared with a new
rope and a new cowhide. I told him that I was ready to
die, but that he could not conquer me. In struggling with
him I bit his finger severely, when he seized a heavy
stick and beat me with it in a shameful manner. Again
I went home sore and bleeding, but with pride as
<pb id="keckley37" n="37"/>
strong and defiant as ever. The following Thursday Mr.
Bingham again tried to conquer me, but in vain. We
struggled, and he struck me many savage blows. As I
stood bleeding before him, nearly exhausted with his
efforts, he burst into tears, and declared that it would
be a sin to beat me any more. My suffering at last
subdued his hard heart; he asked my forgiveness, and
afterwards was an altered man. He was never known
to strike one of his servants from that day forward.
Mr. Burwell, he who preached the love of Heaven,
who glorified the precepts and examples of Christ,
who expounded the Holy Scriptures Sabbath after
Sabbath from the pulpit, when Mr. Bingham refused
to whip me any more, was urged by his wife to punish
me himself. One morning he went to the wood-pile,
took an oak broom, cut the handle off, and with this
heavy handle attempted to conquer me. I fought him,
but he proved the strongest. At the sight of my bleeding
form, his wife fell
<pb id="keckley38" n="38"/>
upon her knees and begged him to desist. My
distress even touched her cold, jealous heart. I was so
badly bruised that I was unable to leave my bed for
five days. I will not dwell upon the bitter anguish of
these hours, for even the thought of them now makes
me shudder. The Rev. Mr. Burwell was not yet
satisfied. He resolved to make another attempt to
subdue my proud, rebellious spirit—made the attempt
and again failed, when he told me, with an air of
penitence, that he should never strike me another
blow; and faithfully he kept his word. These revolting
scenes created a great sensation at the time, were the
talk of the town and neighborhood, and I flatter
myself that the actions of those who had conspired
against me were not viewed in a light to reflect much
credit upon them.</p>
          <p>The savage efforts to subdue my pride were not the
only things that brought me suffering and deep
mortification during my residence at Hillsboro'. I was
regarded as fair-looking for
<pb id="keckley39" n="39"/>
one of my race, and for four years a white man—I spare
the world his name—had base designs upon me. I do
not care to dwell upon this subject, for it is one that is
fraught with pain. Suffice it to say, that he persecuted
me for four years, and I—I—became a mother. The child
of which he was the father was the only child that I
ever brought into the world. If my poor boy ever
suffered any humiliating pangs on account of birth, he
could not blame his mother, for God knows that she
did not wish to give him life; he must blame the edicts
of that society which deemed it no crime to undermine
the virtue of girls in my then position.</p>
          <p>Among the old letters preserved by my mother I
find the following, written by myself while at
Hillsboro'. In this connection I desire to state that Rev.
Robert Burwell is now living
<ref targOrder="U" id="ref1" n="1" rend="sc" target="note1">*</ref> at Charlotte, North
Carolina:—</p>
          <note id="note1" n="1" rend="sc" place="foot" anchored="yes" target="ref1">
            <p>* March, 1868.</p>
          </note>
          <q type="letter" direct="unspecified">
            <text>
              <body>
                <div1 type="letter">
                  <opener>
                    <dateline>“HILLSBORO', <date>April 10, 1838.</date></dateline>
                  </opener>
                  <p>“MY DEAR MOTHER:—I have been intending
<pb id="keckley40" n="40"/>
to write to you for a long time, but numerous things
have prevented, and for that reason you must excuse
me.</p>
                  <p>“I thought very hard of you for not writing to me,
but hope that you will answer this letter as soon as you
receive it, and tell me how you like Marsfield, and
if you have seen any of old acquaintances, or if you
yet know any of the brick-house people who I think
so much of. I want to hear of the family at home
very much, indeed. I really believe you and all the
family have forgotten me, if not I certainly should
have heard from some of you since you left Boyton,
if it was only a line; nevertheless I love you all very
dearly, and shall, although I may never see you again,
nor do I ever expect to. Miss Anna is going to Petersburgh
in winter, but she says that she does not intend take me;
what reason she has for leaving me cannot tell. I have often
wished that I lived where I knew I never could see you,
for then I
<pb id="keckle41" n="41"/>
would not have my hopes raised, and to be disappointed
in this manner; however, it is said that a bad beginning
makes a good ending, but I hardly expect to see that
happy day at this place. Give my love to all the family,
both white and black. I was very much obliged to you
for the presents you sent me last summer, though it is
quite late in the day to be thanking for them. Tell Aunt
Bella that I was very much obliged to her for her present;
I have been so particular with it that I have only worn
it once.</p>
                  <p>“There have been six weddings since October; the
most respectable one was about a fortnight ago; I was
asked to be the first attendant, but, as usual with all
my expectations, I was disappointed, for on the
wedding-day I felt more like being locked up in a
three-cornered box than attending a wedding. About a
week before Christmas I was bridesmaid for Ann
Nash; when the night came I was in quite a trouble;
<pb id="keckley42" n="42"/>
I did not know whether my frock was clean or dirty; I
only had a week's notice, and the body and sleeves to
make, and only one hour every night to work on it, so
you can see with these troubles to overcome my
chance was rather slim. I must now close, although I
could fill ten pages with my griefs and misfortunes; no
tongue could express them as I feel; don't forget me
though; and answer my letters soon. I will write you
again, and would write more now, but Miss Anna says
it is time I had finished. Tell Miss Elizabeth that I wish
she would make haste and get married, for mistress
says that I belong to her when she gets married.</p>
                  <p>“I wish you would send me a pretty frock this
summer; if you will send it to Mrs. Robertson's Miss
Bet will send it to me.</p>
                  <closer><salute>“Farewell, darling mother.</salute>
<salute>“Your affectionate daughter,</salute>
<signed>“ELIZABETH HOBBS.”</signed></closer>
                </div1>
              </body>
            </text>
          </q>
        </div2>
        <div2 type="chapter">
          <pb id="keckley43" n="43"/>
          <head>CHAPTER III.</head>
          <head>HOW I GAINED MY FREEDOM.</head>
          <p>THE years passed and brought many changes to me,
but on these I will not dwell, as I wish to hasten to
the most interesting part of my story. My troubles
in North Carolina were brought to an end by my
unexpected return to Virginia, where I lived with Mr.
Garland, who had married Miss Ann Burwell, one of
my old master's daughters. His life was not a
prosperous one, and after struggling with the world
for several years he left his native State, a
disappointed man. He moved to St. Louis, hoping to
improve his fortune in the West;
<pb id="keckley44" n="44"/>
but ill luck followed him there, and he seemed to be
unable to escape from the influence of the evil star of
his destiny. When his family, myself included, joined
him in his new home on the banks of the Mississippi,
we found him so poor  that he was unable to pay the
dues on a letter advertised as in the post-office for him.
The necessities of the family were so great, that it was
proposed to place my mother out at service. The idea
was shocking to me. Every gray hair in her old head
was dear to me, and I could not bear the thought of
her going to work for strangers. She had been raised
in the family, had watched the growth of each child
from infancy to maturity; they had been the objects
of her kindest care, and she was wound round about
them as the vine winds itself about the rugged oak.
They had been the central figures in her dream of
life—a dream beautiful to her, since she had basked
in the sunshine of no other. And now they proposed
to destroy each tendril of
<pb id="keckley45" n="45"/>
affection, to cloud the sunshine of her existence when
the day was drawing to a close, when the shadows of
solemn night were rapidly approaching. My mother,
my poor aged mother, go among strangers to toil for a
living! No, a thousand times no! I would rather work
my fingers to the bone, bend over my sewing till the
film of blindness gathered in my eyes; nay, even beg
from street to street. I told Mr. Garland so, and he gave
me permission to see what I could do. I was fortunate
in obtaining work, and in a short time I had acquired
something of a reputation as a seamstress and
dress-maker. The best ladies in St. Louis were my
patrons, and when my reputation was once established
I never lacked for orders. With my needle I kept bread
in the mouths of seventeen persons for two years and five
months. While I was working so hard that others might
live in comparative comfort, and move in those circles
of society to which their birth gave them entrance, the
thought often
<pb id="keckley46" n="46"/>
occurred to me whether I was really worth my salt or
not; and then perhaps the lips curled with a bitter
sneer. It may seem strange that I should place so much
emphasis upon words thoughtlessly, idly spoken; but
then we do many strange things in life, and cannot
always explain the motives that actuate us. The heavy
task was too much for me, and my health began to
give way. About this time Mr. Keckley, whom I had
met in Virginia, and learned to regard with more than
friendship, came to St. Louis. He sought my hand in
marriage, and for a long time I refused to consider his
proposal; for I could not bear the thought of bringing
children into slavery—of adding one single recruit to
the millions bound to hopeless servitude, fettered and
shackled with chains stronger and heavier than
manacles of iron. I made a proposition to buy myself
and son; the proposition was bluntly declined, and I
was commanded never to broach the subject again.
I would not be put off thus,
<pb id="keckley47" n="47"/>
for hope pointed to a freer, brighter life in the future.
Why should my son be held in slavery? I often asked
myself. He came into the world through no will of mine,
and yet, God only knows how I loved him. The
Anglo-Saxon blood as well as the African flowed in his veins;
the two currents commingled—one singing of freedom,
the other silent and sullen with generations of despair.
Why should not the Anglo-Saxon triumph—why should
it be weighed down with the rich blood typical of the
tropics? Must the life-current of one race bind the other
race in chains as strong and enduring as if there had
been no Anglo-Saxon taint? By the laws of God and
nature, as interpreted by man, one-half of my boy was
free, and why should not this fair birthright of freedom
remove the curse from the other half—raise it into the
bright, joyous sunshine of liberty? I could not answer
these questions of my heart that almost maddened me,
and I learned to regard human philosophy with 
<pb id="keckley48" n="48"/>
trust. Much as I respected the authority of my master,
I could not remain silent on a subject that so nearly
concerned me. One day, when I insisted on knowing
whether he would permit me to purchase myself, and
what price I must pay for myself, he turned to me in a
petulant manner, thrust his hand into his pocket, drew
forth a bright silver quarter of a dollar, and proffering
it to me, said:</p>
          <p>“Lizzie, I have told you often not to trouble me
with such a question. If you really wish to leave me,
take this: it will pay the passage of yourself and boy
on the ferry-boat, and when you are on the other side
of the river you will be free. It is the cheapest way that
I know of to accomplish what you desire.”</p>
          <p>I looked at him in astonishment, and earnestly
replied: “No, master, I do not wish to be free in such a
manner. If such had been my wish, I should never
have troubled you about obtaining your consent to
my purchasing myself. I can
<pb id="keckley49" n="49"/>
cross the river any day, as you well know, and have
frequently done so, but will never leave you in such a
manner. By the laws of the land I am your slave—you
are my master, and I will only be free by such means
as the laws of the country provide.” He expected this
answer, and I knew that he was pleased. Some time
afterwards he told me that he had reconsidered the
question; that I had served his family faithfully; that I
deserved my freedom, and that he would take $1200
for myself and boy.</p>
          <p>This was joyful intelligence for me, and the reflection
of hope gave a silver lining to the dark cloud of my 
life—faint, it is true, but still a silver lining.</p>
          <p>Taking a prospective glance at liberty, I consented
to marry. The wedding was a great event in the
family. The ceremony took place in the parlor,
in the presence of the family and a number of guests.
Mr. Garland gave me away, and the pastor, Bishop
Hawks, performed the
<pb id="keckley50" n="50"/>
ceremony, who had solemnized the bridals of Mr. G.'s
own children. The day was a happy one, but it faded
all too soon. Mr. Keckley—let me speak kindly of his
faults—proved dissipated, and a burden instead of a
helpmate. More than all, I learned that he was a slave
instead of a free man, as he represented himself to be.
With the simple explanation that I lived with him eight
years, let charity draw around him the mantle of
silence.</p>
          <p>I went to work in earnest to purchase my freedom,
but the years passed, and I was still a slave. Mr.
Garland's family claimed so much of my attention—in
fact, I supported them—that I was not able to
accumulate anything. In the mean time Mr. Garland
died, and Mr. Burwell, a Mississippi planter, came to
St. Louis to settle up the estate. He was a kind-hearted
man, and said I should be free, and would afford me
every facility to raise the necessary amount to pay the
price of my liberty. Several schemes were urged
<pb id="keckley51" n="51"/>
upon me by my friends. At last I formed a resolution
to go to New York, state my case, and appeal to the
benevolence of the people. The plan seemed feasible,
and I made preparations to carry it out. When I was
almost ready to turn my face northward, Mrs. Garland
told me that she would require the names of six
gentlemen who would vouch for my return, and
become responsible for the amount at which I was
valued. I had many friends in St. Louis, and as I
believed that they had confidence in me, I felt that I
could readily obtain the names desired. I started out,
stated my case, and obtained five signatures to the
paper, and my heart throbbed with pleasure, for I did
not believe that the sixth would refuse me. I called he
listened patiently, then remarked:</p>
          <p>“Yes, yes, Lizzie; the scheme is a fair one, and you
shall have my name. But I shall bid you good-by
when you start.”</p>
          <p>“Good-by for a short time,” I ventured to add.</p>
          <pb id="keckley52" n="52"/>
          <p>“No, good-by for all time,” and he looked at me as
if he would read my very soul with his eyes.</p>
          <p>I was startled. “What do you mean, Mr. Farrow?
Surely you do not think that I do not mean to
come back?”</p>
          <p>“No.”</p>
          <p>“No, what then?”</p>
          <p>“Simply this: you <hi rend="italics">mean</hi> to come back, that is, you
<hi rend="italics">mean</hi> so <hi rend="italics">now</hi>, but you never will. When you reach
New York the abolitionists will tell you what savages
we are, and they will prevail on you to stay there; and
we shall never see you again.”</p>
          <p>“But I assure you, Mr. Farrow, you are mistaken. I
not only <hi rend="italics">mean</hi> to come back, but <hi rend="italics">will</hi> come back, and
pay every cent of the twelve hundred dollars for
myself and child.”</p>
          <p>I was beginning to feel sick at heart, for I could not
accept the signature of this man when he had no faith
in my pledges. No; slavery,
<pb id="keckley53" n="53"/>
eternal slavery rather than be regarded with distrust
by those whose respect I esteemed.</p>
          <p>“But—I am not mistaken,” he persisted. “Time will
show. When you start for the North I shall bid you
good-by.”</p>
          <p>The heart grew heavy. Every ray of sunshine was
eclipsed. With humbled pride, weary step, tearful
face, and a dull, aching pain, I left the house. I walked
along the street mechanically. The cloud had no silver
lining now. The rosebuds of hope had withered and
died without lifting up their heads to receive the dew
kiss of morning. There was no morning for me—all was
night, dark night.</p>
          <p>I reached my own home, and weeping threw myself
upon the bed. My trunk was packed, my luncheon
was prepared by mother, the cars were ready to bear
me where I would not hear the clank of chains, where
I would breathe the free, invigorating breezes of the
glorious North. I had dreamed such a happy dream, in
imagination
<pb id="keckley54" n="54"/>
had drunk of the water, the pure, sweet crystal
water of life, but now—now—the flowers had withered
before my eyes; darkness had settled down upon me
like a pall, and I was left alone with cruel mocking
shadows.</p>
          <p>The first paroxysm of grief was scarcely over, when
a carriage stopped in front of the house; Mrs.
Le Bourgois, one of my kind patrons, got out of it and
entered the door. She seemed to bring sunshine with
her handsome cheery face. She came to where I was,
and in her sweet way said:</p>
          <p>“Lizzie, I hear that you are going to New York to
beg for money to buy your freedom. I have been
thinking over the matter, and told Ma it would be a
shame to allow you to go North to <hi rend="italics">beg</hi> for what we
should <hi rend="italics">give</hi> you. You have many friends in St.
Louis, and I am going to raise the twelve hundred
dollars required among them. I have two hundred
dollars put away for a present; am indebted to you
one hundred dollars;
<pb id="keckley55" n="55"/>
mother owes you fifty dollars, and will add another
fifty to it; and as I do not want the present, I will make
the money a present to you. Don't start for New York
now until I see what I can do among your friends.”</p>
          <p>Like a ray of sunshine she came, and like a ray of
sunshine she went away. The flowers no longer were
withered, drooping. Again they seemed to bud and
grow in fragrance and beauty. Mrs. Le Bourgois, God
bless her dear good heart, was more than successful.
The twelve hundred dollars were raised, and at last
my son and myself were free. Free, free! what a
glorious ring to the word. Free! the bitter heart-struggle
was over. Free! the soul could go out to heaven and to
God with no chains to clog its flight or pull it down.
Free! the earth wore a brighter look, and the very stars
seemed to sing with joy. Yes, free! free by the laws of
man and the smile of God—and Heaven bless them who
made me so!</p>
          <pb id="keckley56" n="56"/>
          <p>The following, copied from the original papers,
contain, in brief, the history of my emancipation:—</p>
          <q type="letter" direct="unspecified">
            <text>
              <body>
                <div1 type="letter">
                  <p>“I promise to give Lizzie and her son George their
freedom, on the payment of $1200.</p>
                  <closer><signed>“ANNE P. GARLAND.</signed>
<dateline><date>“June 27,1855.”</date></dateline></closer>
                </div1>
              </body>
            </text>
          </q>
          <q type="letter" direct="unspecified">
            <text>
              <body>
                <div1 type="letter">
                  <p>“LIZZY:—I send you this note to sign for the sum of
$75, and when I give you the whole amount you will
then sign the other note for $100.</p>
                  <closer>
                    <signed>“ELLEN M. DOAN.</signed>
                  </closer>
                  <trailer>“In the paper you will find $25; see it is all right
before the girl leaves.”</trailer>
                </div1>
              </body>
            </text>
          </q>
          <q type="letter" direct="unspecified">
            <text>
              <body>
                <div1 type="letter">
                  <p>“I have received of Lizzy Keckley $950, which I
have deposited with Darby &amp; Barksdale for her—$600
on the 21st July, $300 on the 27th and 28th of July, and
$50 on 13th August, 1855.</p>
                  <p>“I have and shall make use of said money for Lizzy's benefit,
and hereby guarantee to her one
<pb id="keckley57" n="57"/>
per cent. per month—as much more as can be made she
shall have. The one per cent., as it may be checked
out, I will be responsible for myself, as well as for the
whole amount, when it shall be needed by her.</p>
                  <closer><signed>“WILLIS L. WILLIAMS.</signed>
<dateline>“ST. LOUIS, <date>13th August, 1855.</date>”</dateline></closer>
                </div1>
              </body>
            </text>
          </q>
          <q type="letter" direct="unspecified">
            <text>
              <body>
                <div1 type="letter">
                  <p>“Know all men by these presents, that for and in
consideration of the love and affection we bear
towards our sister, Anne P. Garland, of St. Louis,
Missouri, and for the further consideration of $5 in
hand paid, we hereby sell and convey unto her, the
said Anne P. Garland, a negro woman named Lizzie,
and a negro boy, her son, named George; said Lizzie
now resides at St. Louis, and is a seamstress, known
there as Lizzie Garland, the wife of a yellow man
named James, and called James Keckley; said George
is a bright mulatto boy, and is known in St. Louis as
Garland's George. We warrant these two slaves to be
slaves for
<pb id="keckley58" n="58"/>
life, but make no representations as to age or health.</p>
                  <p>“Witness our hands and seals, this 10th day of
August, 1855.</p>
                  <closer><signed>“JAS. R. PUTNAM, [L.S.]</signed>
<signed>“E. M. PUTNAM, [L.S.]</signed>
<signed>“A. BURWELL, [L.S.]”</signed></closer>
                </div1>
              </body>
            </text>
          </q>
          <q type="letter" direct="unspecified">
            <text>
              <body>
                <div1 type="letter">
                  <opener>
                    <dateline>
                      <date>“The State of Mississippi, Warren
County, City of Vicksburg.} <hi rend="italics">ss</hi>.</date>
                    </dateline>
                  </opener>
                  <p>“Be it remembered, that on the tenth day of August,
in the year of our Lord one thousand eight hundred
and fifty-five, before me, Francis N. Steele, a
Commissioner, resident in the city of Vicksburg, duly
commissioned and qualified by the executive
authority, and under the laws of the State of Missouri,
to take the acknowledgment of deeds, etc., to be used
or recorded therein, personally appeared James R.
Putnam and E. M. Putnam, his wife, and Armistead
Burwell, to me known to be the individuals named in,
and who
<pb id="keckley59" n="59"/>
executed the foregoing conveyance, and
acknowledged that they executed the same for the
purposes therein mentioned; and the E. M. Putnam
being by me examined apart from her husband, and
being fully acquainted with the contents of the
foregoing conveyance, acknowledged that she
executed the same freely, and relinquished her dower,
and any other claim she might have in and to the
property therein mentioned, freely, and without fear,
compulsion, or undue influence of her said husband.</p>
                  <p>“In witness whereof I have hereunto set my hand
and affixed my official seal, this 10th day of August,
A.D. 1855.</p>
                  <closer><signed>“F. N. STEELE,<lb/>
“<hi rend="italics">Commissioner for Missouri</hi>.”
<lb/>
[L.S.]</signed>
</closer>
                </div1>
              </body>
            </text>
          </q>
          <q type="letter" direct="unspecified">
            <text>
              <body>
                <div1 type="letter">
                  <p>“Know all men that I, Anne P. Garland, of the
County and City of St. Louis, State of Missouri, for
and in consideration of the sum of $1200, to me in
band paid this day in cash, hereby emancipate
<pb id="keckley60" n="60"/>
my negro woman Lizzie, and her son George;
the said Lizzie is known in St. Louis as the wife
of James, who is called James Keckley; is of light
complexion, about 37 years of age, by trade a
dress-maker, and called by those who know her
Garland's Lizzie. The said boy, George, is the only
child of Lizzie, is about 16 years of age, and is almost
white, and called by those who know him Garland's
George.</p>
                  <p>“Witness my hand and seal, this 13th day of
November, 1855.</p>
                  <closer><signed>ANNE P. GARLAND, [L.S.]</signed>
<signed>“Witness:—JOHN WICKHAM,</signed>
<signed>“WILLIS L. WILLIAMS.”</signed></closer>
                </div1>
              </body>
            </text>
          </q>
          <q type="letter" direct="unspecified">
            <text>
              <body>
                <div1 type="letter">
                  <opener><dateline><date><hi rend="italics">In St. Louis Circuit Court, October Term</hi>, 1855.
<hi rend="italics">November</hi> 15, 1855.</date></dateline>
<dateline><date>“State of Missouri,
County of St. Louis.} <hi rend="italics">ss</hi>.</date></dateline></opener>
                  <p>“Be it remembered, that on this fifteenth day of
November, eighteen hundred and fifty-five, in
<pb id="keckley61" n="61"/>
open court came John Wickham and Willis L. Williams,
these two subscribing witnesses, examined under
oath to that effect, proved the execution and
acknowledgment of said deed by Anne P. Garland to
Lizzie and her son George, which said proof of
acknowledgment is entered on the record of the court
of that day.</p>
                  <p>“In testimony whereof I hereto set my hand and
affix the seal of said court, at office in the City of St.
Louis, the day and year last aforesaid.</p>
                  <closer>
                    <signed>WM. J. HAMMOND, <hi rend="italics">Clerk</hi>.”
<lb/>
[L. S.]</signed>
                  </closer>
                </div1>
              </body>
            </text>
          </q>
          <q type="letter" direct="unspecified">
            <text>
              <body>
                <div1 type="letter">
                  <opener>
                    <dateline>
                      <date>“State of Missouri,
County of St. Louis.} <hi rend="italics">ss</hi>.</date>
                    </dateline>
                  </opener>
                  <p>“I, Wm. J. Hammond, Clerk of the Circuit
Court within and for the county aforesaid, certify the
foregoing to be a true copy of a deed of emancipation
from Anne P. Garland to Lizzie and her son George, as
fully as the same remain in my office.</p>
                  <p>“In testimony whereof I hereto set my hand and
<pb id="keckley62" n="62"/>
affix the seal of said court, at office in the City of St.
Louis, this fifteenth day of November, 1855.</p>
                  <closer><signed>WM. J. HAMMOND, <hi rend="italics">Clerk</hi>.</signed>
<signed>“By WM. A. PENNINGTON, D. C.”</signed></closer>
                </div1>
              </body>
            </text>
          </q>
          <q type="letter" direct="unspecified">
            <text>
              <body>
                <div1 type="letter">
                  <opener>
                    <dateline>
                      <date>“State of Missouri,
County of St. Louis.} <hi rend="italics">ss</hi>.</date>
                    </dateline>
                  </opener>
                  <p>“I, the undersigned Recorder of said county, certify
that the foregoing instrument of writing was filed for
record in my office on the 14th day of November,
1855; it is truly recorded in Book No. 169, page 288.</p>
                  <p>“Witness my hand and official seal, date last
aforesaid.</p>
                  <closer>
                    <signed>“C. KEEMLE, <hi rend="italics">Recorder</hi>.”
<lb/>
[L.S.]</signed>
                  </closer>
                </div1>
              </body>
            </text>
          </q>
        </div2>
        <div2 type="chapter">
          <pb id="keckley63" n="63"/>
          <head>CHAPTER IV.</head>
          <head>In the Family of Senator Jefferson Davis.</head>
          <p>THE twelve hundred dollars with which I purchased the
freedom of myself and son I consented to accept only as
a loan. I went to work in earnest, and in a short time paid
every cent that was so kindly advanced by my lady
patrons of St<corr>.</corr> Louis. All this time my husband was a
source of trouble to me, and a burden. Too close
occupation with my needle had its effects upon my health,
and feeling exhausted with work, I determined to make a
change. I had a conversation with Mr. Keckley; informed
<pb id="keckley64" n="64"/>
him that since he persisted in dissipation we must separate;
that I was going North, and that I should never live with
him again, at least until I had good evidence of his reform.
He was rapidly debasing himself, and although I was
willing to work for him, I was not willing to share his
degradation. Poor man; he had his faults, but over these
faults death has drawn a veil. My husband is now sleeping
in his grave, and in the silent grave I would bury all
unpleasant memories of him.</p>
          <p>I left St. Louis in the spring of 1860, taking the cars
direct for Baltimore, where I stopped six weeks,
attempting to realize a sum of money by forming
classes of young colored women, and teaching them
my system of cutting and fitting dresses. The scheme
was not successful, for after six weeks of labor and
vexation, I left Baltimore with scarcely money enough
to pay my fare to Washington. Arriving in the capital,
I sought and obtained work at two
<pb id="keckley65" n="65"/>
dollars and a half per day. However, as I was notified
that I could only remain in the city ten days without
obtaining a license to do so, such being the law, and
as I did not know whom to apply for assistance, I was
sorely troubled. I also had to have some one vouch to
the authorities that I was a free woman. My means were
too scanty, and my profession too precarious to warrant
my purchasing license. In my perplexity I called on a
lady for whom I was sewing, Miss Ringold, a member
of Gen. Mason's family, from Virginia. I stated my
case, and she kindly volunteered to render me all the
assistance in her power. She called on Mayor Burritt
with me, and Miss Ringold succeeded in making an
arrangement for me to remain in Washington without
paying the sum required for a license; moreover, I
was not to be molested. I rented apartments in a good
locality, and soon had a good run of custom. The
summer passed, winter came, and I was still in
Washington. Mrs. Davis, wife of Senator Jefferson
<pb id="keckley66" n="66"/>
Davis, came from the South in November
of 1860, with her husband. Learning that Mrs.
Davis wanted a modiste, I presented myself, and
was employed by her on the recommendation of
one of my patrons and her intimate friend, Mrs.
Captain Hetsill. I went to the house to work,
but finding that they were such late risers, and as
I had to fit many dresses on Mrs. Davis, I told
her that I should prefer giving half the day to
her, working the other in my own room for some
of my other lady patrons. Mrs. D. consented to
the proposition, and it was arranged that I should
come to her own house every day after 12 M.
It was the winter before the breaking out of that
fierce and bloody war between the two sections
of the country; and as Mr. Davis occupied a
leading position, his house was the resort of
politicians and statesmen from the South.
Almost every night, as I learned from the
servants and other members of the family, secret
meetings were held at the house; and some of
<pb id="keckley67" n="67"/>
these meetings were protracted to a very late
hour. The prospects of war were freely discussed in
my presence by Mr. and Mrs. Davis and their friends.
The holidays were approaching, and Mrs. Davis kept
me busy in manufacturing articles of dress for herself
and children. She desired to present Mr. Davis on
Christmas with a handsome dressing-gown. The
material was purchased, and for weeks the work had
been under way. Christmas eve came, and the gown
had been laid aside so often that it was still unfinished.
I saw that Mrs. D. was anxious to have it completed,
so I volunteered to remain and work on it. Wearily the
hours dragged on, but there was no rest for my busy
fingers. I persevered in my task, notwithstanding my
head was aching. Mrs. Davis was busy in the adjoining
room, arranging the Christmas tree for the children. I 
looked at the clock, and the hands pointed
to a quarter of twelve. I was arranging the cords on the
gown when the Senator came
<pb id="keckley68" n="68"/>
in; he looked somewhat careworn, and his step
seemed to be a little nervous. He leaned against the
door, and expressed his admiration of the Christmas
tree, but there was no smile on his face. Turning round,
he saw me sitting in the adjoining room, and quickly
exclaimed:</p>
          <p>“That you, Lizzie! why are you here so late? Still
at work; I hope that Mrs. Davis, is not too exacting!”</p>
          <p>“No, sir,” I answered. “Mrs. Davis was very anxious
to have this gown finished to-night, and I volunteered
to remain and complete it.”</p>
          <p>“Well, well, the case must be urgent,” and he came
slowly towards me, took the gown in his hand, and
asked the color of the silk, as he said the gas-light was 
so deceptive to his old eyes.</p>
          <p>“It is a drab changeable silk, Mr. Davis,” I answered;
and might have added that it was rich and handsome,
but did not, well knowing that he would make the
discovery in the morning.</p>
          <p>He smiled curiously, but turned and walked
<pb id="keckley69" n="69"/>
from the room without another question. He inferred
that the gown was for him, that it was to be the
Christmas present from his wife, and he did not wish to
destroy the pleasure that she would experience in
believing that the gift would prove a surprise. In this
respect, as in many others, he always appeared to me
as a thoughtful, considerate man in the domestic circle.
As the clock struck twelve I finished the gown, little
dreaming of the future that was before it. It was worn, I
have not the shadow of a doubt, by Mr. Davis during
the stormy years that he was the President of the
Confederate States.</p>
          <p>The holidays passed, and before the close of January
the war was discussed in Mr. Davis's family as an
event certain to happen in the future. Mrs. Davis was
warmly attached to Washington, and I often heard her
say that she disliked the idea of breaking up old
associations, and going South to suffer from trouble
and deprivation. One day, while discussing the question
<pb id="keckley70" n="70"/>
in my presence with one of her intimate friends, she
exclaimed: “I would rather remain in Washington
and be kicked about, than go South and be Mrs.
President.” Her friend expressed surprise at the remark,
and Mrs. Davis insisted that the opinion was an honest
one.</p>
          <p>While dressing her one day, she said to me:</p>
          <p>“Lizzie, you are so very handy that I should like to
take you South with me.”</p>
          <p>“When do you go South, Mrs. Davis?” I inquired.</p>
          <p>“Oh, I cannot tell just now, but it will be soon.
You know there is going to be war, Lizzie?”</p>
          <p>“No!”</p>
          <p>“But I tell you yes.”</p>
          <p>“Who will go to war?” I asked.</p>
          <p>“The North and South,” was her ready reply.
“The Southern people will not submit to the
humiliating demands of the Abolition party; they will
fight first.”</p>
          <pb id="keckley71" n="71"/>
          <p>“And which do you think will whip?”</p>
          <p>“The South, of course. The South is impulsive, is in
earnest, and Southern soldiers will fight to conquer.
The North will yield, when it sees the South is in earnest,
rather than engage in a long and bloody war.”</p>
          <p>“But, Mrs. Davis, are you certain that there will be war?”</p>
          <p>“Certain!—I know it. You had better go South with
me; I will take good care of you. Besides, when the
war breaks out, the colored people will suffer in the North.
The Northern people will look upon them as the cause of
the war, and I fear, in their exasperation, will be inclined
to treat you harshly. Then, I may come back to Washington
in a few months, and live in the White House. The Southern
people talk of choosing Mr. Davis for their President. In fact,
it may be considered settled that he will be their President. As
soon as we go South and secede from the other States, we
will raise an
<pb id="keckley72" n="72"/>
army and march on Washington, and then I shall live
in the White House.”</p>
          <p>I was bewildered with what I heard. I had served
Mrs. Davis faithfully, and, she had learned to place
the greatest confidence in me. At first I was almost
tempted to go South with her, for her reasoning
seemed plausible. At the time the conversation was
closed, with my promise to consider the question.</p>
          <p>I thought over the question much, and the more I
thought the less inclined I felt to accept the proposition
so kindly made by Mrs. Davis. I knew the North to be
strong, and believed that the people would fight for the
flag that they pretended to venerate so highly. The
Republican party had just emerged from a heated
campaign, flushed with victory, and I could not think
that the hosts composing the party would quietly yield
all they had gained in the Presidential canvass. A
show of war from the South, I felt, would lead to actual
war in the North; and with
<pb id="keckley73" n="73"/>
the two sections bitterly arrayed against each other,
I preferred to cast my lost among the people of the
North.</p>
          <p>I parted with Mrs. Davis kindly, half promising to join
her in the South if further deliberation should induce me
to change my views. A few weeks before she left
Washington I made two chintz wrappers for her. She
said that she must give up expensive dressing for a
while; and that she, with the Southern people, now
that war was imminent, must learn to practise lessons
of economy. She left some fine needle-work in my
hands, which I finished, and forwarded to her at
Montgomery, Alabama, in the month of June, through
the assistance of Mrs. Emory, one of her oldest and
best friends.</p>
          <p>Since bidding them good-by at Washington, early
in the year 1860, I have never met any of the Davis
family. Years of excitement, years of bloodshed, and
hundreds of thousands of graves intervene between
the months I spent in the
<pb id="keckley74" n="74"/>
family and now. The years have brought many
changes; and in view of these terrible changes even
I, who was once a slave, who have been punished
with the cruel lash, who have experienced the heart
and soul tortures of a slave's life, can say to Mr.
Jefferson Davis, “Peace! you have suffered! Go in
peace.”</p>
          <p>In the winter of 1865 I was in Chicago, and one
day visited the great charity fair held for the benefit
of the families of those soldiers who were killed or
wounded during the war. In one part of the building
was a wax figure of Jefferson Davis, wearing over
his other garments the dress in which it was
reported that he was captured. There was always
a great crowd around this figure, and I was naturally
attracted towards it. I worked my way to the figure,
and in examining the dress made the pleasing
discovery that it was one of the chintz wrappers that I
had made for Mrs. Davis, a short time before she
departed from Washington for
<pb id="keckley75" n="75"/>
the South. When it was announced that I recognized
the dress as one that I had made for the wife of the late
Confederate President there was great cheering and
excitement, and I at once became the object of the
deepest curiosity. Great crowds followed me, and in
order to escape from the embarrassing situation I
left the building.</p>
          <p>I believe it now is pretty well established that Mr.
Davis had on a water-proof cloak instead of
a dress, as first reported, when he was captured. This
does not invalidate any portion of my story. The
dress on the wax figure at the fair in Chicago unquestionable
was one of the chintz wrappers that I made for Mrs. Davis
in January, 1860, in Washington; and I infer, since it was
not found on the body of the fugitive President of the South,
it was taken from the trunks of Mrs. Davis, captured at the
same time. Be this as it may, the coincidence is none
the less striking and curious.</p>
        </div2>
        <div2 type="chapter">
          <pb id="keckley76" n="76"/>
          <head>CHAPTER V.</head>
          <head>MY INTRODUCTION TO MRS. LINCOLN.</head>
          <p>EVER since arriving in Washington I had a great desire
to work for the ladies of the White House, and to
accomplish this end I was ready to make almost any
sacrifice consistent with propriety. Work came in
slowly, and I was beginning to feel very much
embarrassed, for I did not know how I was to meet
the bills staring me in the face. It is true, the bills
were small, but then they were formidable to me,
who had little or nothing to pay them with. While in
this situation I called at the Ringolds, where I met
Mrs.
<pb id="keckley77" n="77"/>
Captain Lee. Mrs. L. was in a state bordering on
excitement, as the great event of the season, the
dinner-party given in honor of the Prince of
Wales, was soon to come off, and she must have a
dress suitable for the occasion. The silk had been
purchased, but a dress-maker had not yet been
found. Miss Ringold recommended me, and I received
the order to make the dress. When I called on Mrs.
Lee the next day, her husband was in the room, and
handing me a roll of bank bills, amounting to one
hundred dollars, he requested me to purchase the
trimmings, and to spare no expense in making a selection.
With the money in my pocket I went out in the street,
entered the store of Harper &amp; Mitchell, and asked to
look at their laces. Mr. Harper waited on me himself,
and was polite and kind. When I asked permission to
carry the laces to Mrs. Lee, in order to learn whether
she could approve my selection or not, he gave a
ready assent. When I reminded him that I was a
stranger, and that the
<pb id="keckley78" n="78"/>
goods were valuable, he remarked that he was not
afraid to trust me—that he believed my face was the
index to an honest heart. It was pleasant to be spoken
to thus, and I shall never forget the kind words of Mr.
Harper. I often recall them, for they are associated with
the dawn of a brighter period in my dark life. I
purchased the trimmings, and Mr. Harper allowed me a
commission of twenty-five dollars on the purchase.
The dress was done in time, and it gave complete
satisfaction. Mrs. Lee attracted great attention at the
dinner-party, and her elegant dress proved a good card
for me. I received numerous orders, and was relieved
from all pecuniary embarrassments. One of my patrons
was Mrs. Gen. McClean, a daughter of Gen. Sumner.
One day when I was very busy, Mrs. McC. drove up to
my apartments, came in where I was engaged with my
needle, and in her emphatic way said:</p>
          <p>“Lizzie, I am invited to dine at Willard's on
<pb id="keckley79" n="79"/>
next Sunday, and positively I have not a dress fit to
wear on the occasion. I have just purchased material,
and you must commence work on it right away.”</p>
          <p>“But Mrs. McClean,” I replied, “I have more work
now promised than I can do. It is impossible for me
to make a dress for you to wear on Sunday next.”</p>
          <p>“Pshaw! Nothing is impossible. I must have the
dress made by Sunday;” and she spoke with some
impatience.</p>
          <p>“I am sorry,” I began, but she interrupted me.</p>
          <p>“Now don't say no again. I tell you that you must
make the dress. I have often heard you say that you
would like to work for the ladies of the White House.
Well, I have it in my power to obtain you this
privilege. I know Mrs. Lincoln well, and you shall
make a dress for her provided you finish mine in time
to wear at dinner on Sunday.”</p>
          <pb id="keckley80" n="80"/>
          <p>The inducement was the best that could have been
offered. I would undertake the dress if I should have to
sit up all night—every night, to make my pledge good. I
sent out and employed assistants, and, after much
worry and trouble, the dress was completed to the
satisfaction of Mrs. McClean. It appears that Mrs.
Lincoln had upset a cup of coffee on the dress she
designed wearing on the evening of the reception after
the inauguration of Abraham Lincoln as President of
the United States, which rendered it necessary that
she should have a new one for the occasion. On
asking Mrs. McClean who her dress-maker was, that
lady promptly informed her,</p>
          <p>“Lizzie Keckley.”</p>
          <p>“Lizzie Keckley? The name is familiar to me. She
used to work for some of my lady friends in St. Louis,
and they spoke well of her. Can you recommend her
to me?”</p>
          <p>“With confidence. Shall I send her to you?”</p>
          <pb id="keckley81" n="81"/>
          <p>“If you please. I shall feel under many obligations for
your kindness.”</p>
          <p>The next Sunday Mrs. McClean sent me a message
to call at her house at four o'clock P.M., that day. As
she did not state why I was to call, I determined to
wait till Monday morning. Monday morning came, and
nine o'clock found me at Mrs. McC.'s house. The
streets of the capital were thronged with people, for
this was Inauguration day. A new President, a man of the
people from the broad prairies of the West, was to
accept the solemn oath of office, was to assume the
responsibilities attached to the high position of Chief
Magistrate of the United States. Never was such deep
interest felt in the inauguration proceedings as was felt
to-day; for threats of assassination had been made,
and every breeze from the South came heavily laden
with the rumors of war. Around Willard's hotel swayed
an excited crowd, and it was with the utmost difficulty
that I worked my way to the
<pb id="keckley82" n="82"/>
house on the opposite side of the street, occupied by
the McCleans. Mrs. McClean was out, but presently
an aide on General McClean's staff called, and
informed me that I was wanted at Willard's. I crossed
the street, and on entering the hotel was met by Mrs.
McClean, who greeted me:</p>
          <p>“Lizzie, why did you not come yesterday, as I
requested? Mrs. Lincoln wanted to see you, but I fear
that now you are too late.”</p>
          <p>“I am sorry, Mrs. McClean. You did not say what
you wanted with me yesterday, so I judged that this
morning would do as well.”</p>
          <p>“You should have come yesterday,” she insisted.
“Go up to Mrs. Lincoln's room”—giving me the
number—“she may find use for you yet.”</p>
          <p>With a nervous step I passed on, and knocked at
Mrs. Lincoln's door. A cheery voice bade me come in,
and a lady, inclined to stoutness, about forty years of
age, stood before me.</p>
          <pb id="keckley83" n="83"/>
          <p>“You are Lizzie Keckley, I believe.”</p>
          <p>I bowed assent.</p>
          <p>“The dress-maker that Mrs. McClean recommended?”</p>
          <p>“Yes, madam.”</p>
          <p>“Very well; I have not time to talk to you now, but
would like to have you call at the White House, at
eight o'clock to-morrow morning, where I shall then
be.”</p>
          <p>I bowed myself out of the room, and returned to my
apartments. The day passed slowly, for I could not
help but speculate in relation to the appointed
interview for the morrow. My long-cherished hope was
about to be realized, and I could not rest.</p>
          <p>Tuesday morning, at eight o'clock, I crossed the
threshold of the White House for the first time. I was
shown into a waiting-room, and informed that Mrs.
Lincoln was at breakfast. In the waiting-room I found
no less than three mantua-makers waiting for an
interview with the
<pb id="keckley84" n="84"/>
wife of the new President. It seems that Mrs. Lincoln
had told several of her lady friends that she had urgent
need for a dress-maker, and that each of these friends
had sent her mantua-maker to the White House. Hope
fell at once. With so many rivals for the position
sought after, I regarded my chances for success as
extremely doubtful. I was the last one summoned to
Mrs. Lincoln's presence. All the others had a hearing,
and were dismissed. I went up-stairs timidly, and
entering the room with nervous step, discovered the
wife of the President standing by a window, looking
out, and engaged in lively conversation with a lady,
Mrs. Grimsly, as I afterwards learned. Mrs. L. came
forward, and greeted me warmly.</p>
          <p>“You have come at last. Mrs. Keckley, who have
you worked for in the city?”</p>
          <p>“Among others, Mrs. Senator Davis has been one
of my best patrons,” was my reply.</p>
          <p>“Mrs. Davis! So you have worked for her,
<pb id="keckley85" n="85"/>
have you? Of course you gave satisfaction; so far,
good. Can you do my work?”</p>
          <p>“Yes, Mrs. Lincoln. Will you have much work for
me to do?”</p>
          <p>“That, Mrs. Keckley, will depend altogether upon
your prices. I trust that your terms are reasonable. I
cannot afford to be extravagant. We are just from the
West, and are poor. If you do not charge too much, I
shall be able to give you all my work.”</p>
          <p>“I do not think there will be any difficulty about
charges, Mrs. Lincoln; my terms are reasonable.”</p>
          <p>“Well, if you will work cheap, you shall have
plenty to do. I can't afford to pay big prices, so I
frankly tell you so in the beginning.”</p>
          <p>The terms were satisfactorily arranged, and I
measured Mrs. Lincoln, took the dress with me, a
bright rose-colored moire-antique, and returned the
next day to fit it on her. A number of ladies were in the
room, all making preparations for
<pb id="keckley86" n="86"/>
the levee to come off on Friday night. These
ladies, I learned, were relatives of Mrs. L.'s,—Mrs.
Edwards and Mrs. Kellogg, her own sisters, and
Elizabeth Edwards and Julia Baker, her nieces. Mrs.
Lincoln this morning was dressed in a cashmere
wrapper, quilted down the front; and she wore a
simple head-dress. The other ladies wore morning
robes.</p>
          <p>I was hard at work on the dress, when I was
informed that the levee had been postponed from
Friday night till Tuesday night. This, of course, gave
me more time to complete my task. Mrs. Lincoln sent
for me, and suggested some alteration in style, which
was made. She also requested that I make a waist of
blue watered silk for Mrs. Grimsly, as work on the
dress would not require all my time.</p>
          <p>Tuesday evening came, and I had taken the last
stitches on the dress. I folded it and carried it to the
White House, with the waist for Mrs. Grimsly. When I
went up-stairs, I found the
<pb id="keckley87" n="87"/>
ladies in a terrible state of excitement. Mrs. Lincoln
was protesting that she could not go down, for the
reason that she had nothing to wear.</p>
          <p>“Mrs. Keckley, you have disappointed me—
deceived me. Why do you bring my dress at this late
hour?”</p>
          <p>“Because I have just finished it, and I thought I
should be in time.”</p>
          <p>“But you are not in time, Mrs. Keckley; you have
bitterly disappointed me. I have no time now to dress,
and, what is more, I will not dress, and go down-stairs.”</p>
          <p>“I am sorry if I have disappointed you, Mrs.
Lincoln, for I intended to be in time. Will you let me
dress you? I can have you ready in a few minutes.”</p>
          <p>“No, I won't be dressed. I will stay in my room.
Mr. Lincoln can go down with the other ladies.”</p>
          <p>“But there is plenty of time for you to dress,
<pb id="keckley88" n="88"/>
Mary,” joined in Mrs. Grimsly and Mrs. Edwards.
“Let Mrs. Keckley assist you, and she will soon have
you ready.”</p>
          <p>Thus urged, she consented. I dressed her hair, and
arranged the dress on her. It fitted nicely, and she
was pleased. Mr. Lincoln came in, threw himself on
the sofa, laughed with Willie and little Tad, and then
commenced pulling on his gloves, quoting poetry all
the while.</p>
          <p>“You seem to be in a poetical mood to-night,” said
his wife.</p>
          <p>“Yes, mother, these are poetical times,” was his
pleasant reply. “I declare, you look charming in that
dress. Mrs. Keckley has met with great success.”
And then he proceeded to compliment the other
ladies<corr>.</corr></p>
          <p>Mrs. Lincoln looked elegant in her rose-colored
moire-antique. She wore a pearl necklace, pearl
ear-rings, pearl bracelets, and red roses in her hair. Mrs.
Baker was dressed in lemon-colored silk; Mrs.
Kellogg in a drab silk, ashes of rose;
<pb id="keckley89" n="89"/>
Mrs. Edwards in a brown and black silk; Miss
Edwards in crimson, and Mrs. Grimsly in blue watered
silk. Just before starting down-stairs, Mrs. Lincoln's
lace handkerchief was the object of search. It had been
displaced by Tad, who was mischievous, and hard to
restrain. The handkerchief found, all became serene.
Mrs. Lincoln took the President's arm, and with smiling
face led the train below. I was surprised at her grace
and composure. I had heard so much, in current and
malicious report, of her low life, of her ignorance and
vulgarity, that I expected to see her embarrassed on
this occasion. Report, I soon saw, was wrong. No
queen, accustomed to the usages of royalty all her life,
could have comported herself with more calmness and
dignity than did the wife of the President. She was
confident and self-possessed, and confidence always
gives grace.</p>
          <p>This levee was a brilliant one, and the only one of
the season. I became the regular modiste
<pb id="keckley90" n="90"/>
of Mrs. Lincoln. I made fifteen or sixteen dresses for
her during the spring and early part of the summer,
when she left Washington; spending the hot weather
at Saratoga, Long Branch, and other places. In the
mean time I was employed by Mrs. Senator Douglas,
one of the loveliest ladies that I ever met, Mrs.
Secretary Wells, Mrs. Secretary Stanton, and others.
Mrs. Douglas always dressed in deep mourning, with
excellent taste, and several of the leading ladies of
Washington society were extremely jealous of her
superior attractions.</p>
        </div2>
        <div2 type="chapter">
          <pb id="keckley91" n="91"/>
          <head>CHAPTER VI.</head>
          <head>WILLIE LINCOLN'S DEATH-BED.</head>
          <p>MRS. LINCOLN returned to Washington in
November, and again duty called me to the White
House. The war was now in progress, and every
day brought stirring news from the front—the front,
where the Gray opposed the Blue, where flashed the
bright sabre in the sunshine, where were heard the angry
notes of battle, the deep roar of cannon, and the fearful
rattle of musketry; where new graves were being made every
day, where brother forgot a mother's early blessing and
sought the lifeblood of brother, and friend raised the deadly
knife against friend.
<pb id="keckley92" n="92"/>
Oh, the front, with its stirring battle-scenes! Oh, the
front, with its ghastly heaps of dead! The life of the
nation was at stake; and when the land was full of
sorrow, there could not be much gayety at the capital.
The days passed quietly with me. I soon learned that
some people had an intense desire to penetrate the
inner circle of the White House. No President and his
family, heretofore occupying this mansion, ever excited
so much curiosity as the present incumbents. Mr.
Lincoln had grown up in the wilds of the West, and
evil report had said much of him and his wife. The
polite world was shocked, and the tendency to
exaggerate intensified curiosity. As soon as it was
known that I was the modiste of Mrs. Lincoln, parties
crowded around and affected friendship for me, hoping
to induce me to betray the secrets of the domestic
circle. One day a woman, I will not call her a lady, drove
up to my rooms, gave me an order to make a dress, and
insisted on partly paying me in advance. She
<pb id="keckley93" n="93"/>
called on me every day, and was exceedingly kind.
When she came to take her dress away, she
cautiously remarked:</p>
          <p>“Mrs. Keckley, you know Mrs. Lincoln?”</p>
          <p>“Yes.”</p>
          <p>“You are her modiste; are you not?”</p>
          <p>“Yes.”</p>
          <p>“You know her very well; do you not?”</p>
          <p>“I am with her every day or two.”</p>
          <p>“Don't you think you would have some influence
with her?”</p>
          <p>“I cannot say. Mrs. Lincoln, I presume, would
listen to anything I should suggest, but whether she
would be influenced by a suggestion of mine is
another question.”</p>
          <p>“I am sure that you could influence her, Mrs.
Keckley. Now listen; I have a proposition to make. I
have a great desire to become an inmate of the White
House. I have heard so much of Mr. Lincoln's
goodness that I should like to be near him; and if I
can enter the
<pb id="keckley94" n="94"/>
White House no other way, I am willing to go as a
menial. My dear Mrs. Keckley, will you not
recommend me to Mrs. Lincoln as a friend of yours
out of employment, and ask her to take me as a
chambermaid? If you will do this you shall be well
rewarded. It may be worth several thousand dollars to
you in time.”</p>
          <p>I looked at the woman in amazement. A bribe, and
to betray the confidence of my employer! Turning to
her with a glance of scorn, I said:</p>
          <p>“Madam, you are mistaken in regard to my character.
Sooner than betray the trust of a friend, I would throw
myself into the Potomac river. I am not so base as that.
Pardon me, but there is the door, and I trust that you will
never enter my room again.”</p>
          <p>She sprang to her feet in deep confusion, and
passed through the door, murmuring: “Very well; you
will live to regret your action today.”</p>
          <pb id="keckley95" n="95"/>
          <p>“Never, never!” I exclaimed, and closed the door
after her with a bang. I afterwards learned that this
woman was an actress, and that her object was to
enter the White House as a servant, learn its secrets,
and then publish a scandal to the world. I do not give
her name, for such publicity would wound the
sensitive feelings of friends, who would have to share
her disgrace, without being responsible for her faults.
I simply record the incident to show how I often was
approached by unprincipled parties. It is unnecessary
to say that I indignantly refused every bribe offered.</p>
          <p>The first public appearance of Mrs. Lincoln that
winter was at the reception on New Year's Day. This
reception was shortly followed by a brilliant levee.
The day after the levee I went to the White House,
and while fitting a dress to Mrs. Lincoln, she said:</p>
          <p>“Lizabeth”—she had learned to drop the E -
“Lizabeth, I have an idea. These are war times,
<pb id="keckley96" n="96"/>
and we must be as economical as possible. You know
the President is expected to give a series of state
dinners every winter, and these dinners are very
costly; Now I want to avoid this expense; and my
idea is, that if I give three large receptions, the state
dinners can be scratched from the programme. What
do you think, Lizabeth?”</p>
          <p>“I think that you are right, Mrs. Lincoln.”</p>
          <p>“I am glad to hear you say so. If I can make Mr.
Lincoln take the same view of the case, I shall not fail
to put the idea into practice.”</p>
          <p>Before I left her room that day, Mr. Lincoln came in.
She at once stated the case to him. He pondered the
question a few moments before answering.</p>
          <p>“Mother, I am afraid your plan will not work.”</p>
          <p>“But it <hi rend="italics">will</hi> work, if you will only determine that it
<hi rend="italics">shall</hi> work.”</p>
          <p>“It is breaking in on the regular custom,” he
mildly replied.</p>
          <pb id="keckley97" n="97"/>
          <p>“But you forget, father, these are war times, and
old customs can be done away with for the once. The
idea is economical, you must admit.”</p>
          <p>“Yes, mother, but we must think of something
besides economy.”</p>
          <p>“I do think of something else. Public receptions are
more democratic than stupid state dinners—are more in
keeping with the spirit of the institutions of our
country, as you would say if called upon to make a
stump speech. There are a great many strangers in the
city, foreigners and others, whom we can entertain at
our receptions, but whom we cannot invite to our
dinners.”</p>
          <p>“I believe you are right, mother. You argue the
point well. I think that we shall have to decide on the
receptions.”</p>
          <p>So the day was carried. The question was decided,
and arrangements were made for the first reception. It
now was January, and cards were issued for February.</p>
          <pb id="keckley98" n="98"/>
          <p>The children, Tad and Willie, were constantly
receiving presents. Willie was so delighted with
a little pony, that he insisted on riding it every
day. The weather was changeable, and exposure
resulted in a severe cold, which deepened into
fever. He was very sick, and I was summoned
to his bedside. It was sad to see the poor boy
suffer. Always of a delicate constitution, he
could not resist the strong inroads of disease.
The days dragged wearily by, and he grew weaker
and more shadow-like. He was his mother's
favorite child, and she doted on him. It grieved
her heart sorely to see him suffer. When able to
be about, he was almost constantly by her side.
When I would go in her room, almost always I
found blue-eyed Willie there, reading from an
open book, or curled up in a chair with pencil and
paper in hand. He had decidedly a literary taste, and
was a studious boy. A short time before his death he
wrote this simple little poem:</p>
          <pb id="keckley99" n="99"/>
          <q type="letter" direct="unspecified">
            <text>
              <body>
                <div1 type="letter">
                  <opener>
                    <dateline>“WASHINGTON, D. C., October 30, 1861.</dateline>
                  </opener>
                  <p>DEAR SIR:—I enclose you my first attempt at
poetry.</p>
                  <closer><salute>“Yours truly,</salute>
<signed>“WM. W. LINCOLN.</signed>
<salute><hi rend="italics">“To the Editor of the National Republican.”</hi></salute></closer>
                </div1>
              </body>
            </text>
          </q>
          <lg type="poem">
            <head>LINES
<lb/>
ON THE DEATH OF COLONEL EDWARD BAKER.</head>
            <lg type="verse">
              <l>THERE was no patriot like Baker,</l>
              <l>So noble and so true;</l>
              <l>He fell as a soldier on the field,</l>
              <l>His face to the sky of blue.</l>
            </lg>
            <lg type="verse">
              <l>His voice is silent in the hall</l>
              <l>Which oft his presence graced;</l>
              <l>No more he'll hear the loud acclaim</l>
              <l>Which rang from place to place.</l>
            </lg>
            <lg type="verse">
              <l>No squeamish notions filled his breast,</l>
              <l><hi rend="italics">The Union</hi> was his theme;</l>
              <l>
                <hi rend="italics"><corr>“</corr>No surrender and no compromise,”</hi>
              </l>
              <l>His day-thought and night's dream.</l>
            </lg>
            <pb id="keckley100" n="100"/>
            <lg type="verse">
              <l>His Country has <hi rend="italics">her</hi> part to pa</l>
              <l>To'rds those he has left behind;</l>
              <l>His widow and his children all,</l>
              <l>She must always keep in mind.</l>
            </lg>
          </lg>
          <p>Finding that Willie continued to grow worse, Mrs.
Lincoln determined to withdraw her cards of invitation
and postpone the reception. Mr. Lincoln thought that
the cards had better not be withdrawn. At least he
advised that the doctor be consulted before any steps
were taken. Accordingly Dr. Stone was called in. He
pronounced Willie better, and said that there was
every reason for an early recovery. He thought, since
the invitations had been issued, it would be best to
go on with the reception. Willie, he insisted, was in no
immediate danger. Mrs. Lincoln was guided by these
counsels, and no postponement was announced. On
the evening of the reception Willie was suddenly
taken worse. His mother sat by his bedside a long
while, holding his feverish hand in her own, and
<pb id="keckley101" n="101"/>
watching his labored breathing. The doctor claimed
there was no cause for alarm. I arranged Mrs. Lincoln's
hair, then assisted her to dress. Her dress was white
satin, trimmed with black lace. The trail was very long,
and as she swept through the room, Mr. Lincoln was
standing with his back to the fire, his hands behind
him, and his eyes on the carpet. His face wore a
thoughtful, solemn look. The rustling of the satin
dress attracted his attention. He looked at it a few
moments; then, in his quaint, quiet way remarked—</p>
          <p>“Whew! our cat has a long tail to-night.”</p>
          <p>Mrs. Lincoln did not reply. The President added:</p>
          <p>“Mother, it is my opinion, if some of that tail was
nearer the head, it would be in better style;” and he
glanced at her bare arms and neck. She had a
beautiful neck and arm, and low dresses were
becoming to her. She turned away with a look of
offended dignity, and presently
<pb id="keckley102" n="102"/>
took the President's arm, and both went down-stairs
to their guests, leaving me alone with the sick boy.</p>
          <p>The reception was a large and brilliant one, and the
rich notes of the Marine Band in the apartments below
came to the sick-room in soft, subdued murmurs, like
the wild, faint sobbing of far-off spirits. Some of the
young people had suggested dancing, but Mr.
Lincoln met the suggestion with an emphatic veto.
The brilliance of the scene could not dispel the
sadness that rested upon the face of Mrs. Lincoln.
During the evening she came up-stairs several times,
and stood by the bedside of the suffering boy. She
loved him with a mother's heart, and her anxiety was
great. The night passed slowly; morning came, and
Willie was worse. He lingered a few days, and died.
God called the beautiful spirit home, and the house of
joy was turned into the house of mourning. I was
worn out with watching, and was not in the room when
Willie died,
<pb id="keckley103" n="103"/>
but was immediately sent for. I assisted in washing
him and dressing him, and then laid him on the bed,
when Mr. Lincoln came in. I never saw a man so
bowed down with grief. He came to the bed, lifted the
cover from the face of his child, gazed at it long and
earnestly, murmuring, “My poor boy, he was too
good for this earth. God has called him home. I know
that he is much better off in heaven, but then we
loved him so. It is hard, hard to have him die!”</p>
          <p>Great sobs choked his utterance. He buried his
head in his hands, and his tall frame was convulsed
with emotion. I stood at the foot of the bed, my eyes
full of tears, looking at the man in silent, awe-stricken
wonder. His grief unnerved him, and made him a weak,
passive child. I did not dream that his rugged nature
could be so moved. I shall never forget those solemn
moments—genius and greatness weeping over love's
idol lost. There is a grandeur as well as a
<pb id="keckley104" n="104"/>
simplicity about the picture that will never fade. With
me it is immortal—I really believe that I shall carry it
with me across the dark, mysterious river of death.</p>
          <p>Mrs. Lincoln's grief was inconsolable. The pale face
of her dead boy threw her into convulsions. Around
him love's tendrils had been twined, and now that he
was dressed for the tomb, it was like tearing the
tendrils out of the heart by their roots. Willie, she
often said, if spared by Providence, would be the
hope and stay of her old age. But Providence had not
spared him. The light faded from his eyes, and the
death-dew had gathered on his brow.</p>
          <p>In one of her paroxysms of grief the President
kindly bent over his wife, took her by the arm, and
gently led her to the window. With a stately, solemn
gesture, he pointed to the lunatic asylum.</p>
          <p>“Mother, do you see that large white building on
the hill yonder? Try and control your grief,
<pb id="keckley105" n="105"/>
or it will drive you mad, and we may have to send you
there.”</p>
          <p>Mrs. Lincoln was so completely overwhelmed with
sorrow that she did not attend the funeral. Willie was
laid to rest in the cemetery, and the White House was
draped in mourning. Black crape everywhere met the
eye, contrasting strangely with the gay and brilliant
colors of a few days before. Party dresses were laid
aside, and every one who crossed the threshold of the
Presidential mansion spoke in subdued tones when
they thought of the sweet boy at rest—</p>
          <q type="quote" direct="unspecified">
            <p>“Under the sod and the dew.”</p>
          </q>
          <p>Previous to this I had lost my son. Leaving Wilberforce,
he went to the battle-field with the three months troops,
and was killed in Missouri—found his grave on the
battle-field where the gallant General Lyon fell. It was a
sad blow to me, and the kind womanly letter that Mrs.
Lincoln wrote to me when she heard of my bereavement
was full of golden words of comfort.</p>
          <pb id="keckley106" n="106"/>
          <p>Nathaniel Parker Willis, the genial poet, now
sleeping in his grave, wrote this beautiful sketch of
Willie Lincoln, after the sad death of the bright-eyed
boy:</p>
          <p>“This little fellow had his acquaintances among
his father's friends, and I chanced to be one of them.
He never failed to seek me out in he crowd, shake
hands, and make some pleasant remark; and this, in a
boy of ten years of age, was, to say the least,
endearing to a stranger. But he had more than mere
affectionateness. His self-possession—<hi rend="italics"><foreign lang="fre">aplomb</foreign></hi>, as the
French call it—was extraordinary. I was one day
passing the White House, when he was outside with a
play-fellow on the side-walk. Mr. Seward drove in, with
Prince Napoleon and two of his <hi rend="italics">suite</hi> in the carriage;
and, in a mock-heroic way—terms of intimacy evidently
existing between the boy and the Secretary—the official
gentleman, took off his hat, and the Napoleon did the
same, all making the young Prince President a ceremonious
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salute. Not a bit staggered with the homage,
Willie drew himself up to his full height, took off his
little cap with graceful self-possession, and bowed
down formally to the ground, like a little ambassador.
They drove past, and he went on unconcernedly with
his play: the impromptu readiness and good judgment
being clearly a part of his nature. His genial and open
expression of countenance was none the less
ingenuous and fearless for a certain tincture of fun;
and it was in this mingling of qualities that he so
faithfully resembled his father.</p>
          <p>“With all the splendor that was around this little
fellow in his new home, he was so bravely and
beautifully <hi rend="italics">himself</hi>—and that only. A wild flower
transplanted from the prairie to the hothouse, he
retained his prairie habits, unalterably pure and
simple, till he died. His leading trait seemed to be a
fearless and kindly frankness, willing that everything
should be as different as it pleased, but resting
unmoved in his own conscious
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single-heartedness. I found I was studying
him irresistibly, as one of the sweet problems of
childhood that the world is blessed with in rare
places; and the news of his death (I was absent from
Washington, on a visit to my own children, at the
time) came to me like a knell heard unexpectedly at a
merry-making.</p>
          <p>“On the day of the funeral I went before the hour,
to take a near farewell look at the dear boy; for they
had embalmed him to send home to the West—to sleep
under the sod of his own valley—and the coffin-lid was
to be closed before the service. The family had just
taken their leave of him, and the servants and nurses
were seeing him for the last time—and with tears and
sobs wholly unrestrained, for he was loved like an
idol by every one of them. He lay with eyes closed—his
brown hair parted as we had known it—pale in the
slumber of death; but otherwise unchanged, for he
was dressed as if for the evening, and held in one of
his hands,
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crossed upon his breast, a bunch of exquisite flowers —
a message coming from his mother, while we were
looking upon him, that those flowers might be
preserved for her. She was lying sick in her bed, worn
out with grief and overwatching.</p>
          <p>“The funeral was very touching. Of the entertainments
in the East Room the boy had been—for those who now
assembled more especially—a most life-giving variation.
With his bright face, and his apt greetings and replies,
he was remembered in every part of that crimson-curtained
hall, built only for pleasure—of all the crowds, each night,
certainly the one least likely to be death's first mark. He was
his father's favorite. They were intimates—often seen hand
in hand. And there sat the man, with a burden on his
brain at which the world marvels—bent now with the
load at both heart and brain—staggering under a blow
like the taking from him of his child! His men of power
sat around
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him—McClellan, with a moist eye when he bowed to the
prayer, as I could see from where I stood; and Chase
and Seward, with their austere features at work; and
senators, and ambassadors, and soldiers, all
struggling with their tears—great hearts sorrowing with
the President as a stricken man and a brother. That
God may give him strength for all his burdens is, I am
sure, at present the prayer of a nation.”</p>
          <p>This sketch was very much admired by Mrs. Lincoln.
I copy it from the scrap-book in which she pasted it,
with many tears, with her own hands.</p>
        </div2>
        <div2 type="chapter">
          <pb id="keckley111" n="111"/>
          <head>CHAPTER VII.</head>
          <head>WASHINGTON IN 1862-3.</head>
          <p>IN the summer of 1862, freedmen began to flock into
Washington from Maryland and Virginia. They came
with a great hope in their hearts, and with all their
worldly goods on their backs. Fresh from the bonds
of slavery, fresh from the benighted regions of the
plantation, they came to the Capital looking for
liberty, and many of them not knowing it when they
found it. Many good friends reached forth kind
hands, but the North is not warm and impulsive. For
one kind word spoken, two harsh ones were uttered;
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there was something repelling in the atmosphere, and
the bright joyous dreams of freedom to the slave faded—were sadly altered, in the presence of that stern,
practical mother, reality. Instead of flowery paths, days
of perpetual sunshine, and bowers hanging with
golden fruit, the road was rugged and full of thorns,
the sunshine was eclipsed by shadows, and the mute
appeals for help too often were answered by cold
neglect. Poor dusky children of slavery, men and
women of my own race—the transition from slavery to
freedom was too sudden for you! The bright dreams
were too rudely dispelled; you were not prepared for
the new life that opened before you, and the great
masses of the North learned to look upon your
helplessness with indifference—learned to speak of you
as an idle, dependent race. Reason should have
prompted kinder thoughts. Charity is ever kind.</p>
          <p>One fair summer evening I was walking the streets
of Washington, accompanied by a friend,
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when a band of music was heard in the distance. We
wondered what it could mean, and curiosity prompted
us to find out its meaning. We quickened our steps,
and discovered that it came from the house of Mrs.
Farnham. The yard was brilliantly lighted, ladies and
gentlemen were moving about, and the band was
playing some of its sweetest airs. We approached the
sentinel on duty at the gate, and asked what was going
on. He told us that it was a festival given for the benefit
of the sick and wounded soldiers in the city. This
suggested an idea to me. If the white people can give
festivals to raise funds for the relief of suffering
soldiers, why should not the well-to-do colored people
go to work to do something for the benefit of the
suffering blacks? I could not rest. The thought was
ever present with me, and the next Sunday I made a
suggestion in the colored church, that a society of
colored people be formed to labor for the benefit of the
unfortunate freedmen. The idea proved
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popular, and in two weeks “the Contraband Relief
Association” was organized, with forty working
members.</p>
          <p>In September of 1862, Mrs. Lincoln left
Washington for New York, and requested me to
follow her in a few days, and join her at the
Metropolitan Hotel. I was glad of the opportunity to
do so, for I thought that in New York I would be able
to do something in the interests of our society. Armed
with credentials, I took the train for New York, and
went to the Metropolitan, where Mrs. Lincoln had
secured accommodations for me. The next morning I
told Mrs. Lincoln of my project; and she immediately
headed my list with a subscription of $200. I
circulated among the colored people, and got them
thoroughly interested in the subject, when I was
called to Boston by Mrs. Lincoln, who wished to visit
her son Robert, attending college in that city. I met
Mr. Wendell Phillips, and other Boston philanthropists,
who gave me all the
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assistance in their power. We held a mass meeting at
the Colored Baptist Church, Rev. Mr. Grimes, in
Boston, raised a sum of money, and organized there a
branch society. The society was organized by Mrs.
Grimes, wife of the pastor, assisted by Mrs. Martin,
wife of Rev. Stella Martin. This branch of the main
society, during the war, was able to send us over
eighty large boxes of goods, contributed exclusively
by the colored people of Boston. Returning to New
York, we held a successful meeting at the Shiloh
Church, Rev. Henry Highland Garnet, pastor. The
Metropolitan Hotel, at that time as now, employed
colored help. I suggested the object of my mission to
Robert Thompson, Steward of the Hotel, who
immediately raised quite a sum of money among the
dining-room waiters. Mr. Frederick Douglass
contributed $200, besides lecturing for us. Other
prominent colored men sent in liberal contributions.
From England<ref targOrder="U" id="ref2" n="2" rend="sc" target="note2">*</ref>
<note id="note2" n="2" rend="sc" place="foot" anchored="yes" target="ref2"><p>* The Sheffield Anti-Slavery Society of England
contributed through Mr. Frederick Douglass, to the Freedmen's
Relief Association, $24.00; Aberdeen Ladies' Society, $40.00;
Anti-Slavery Society of Edinburgh, Scotland, $48.00; Friends
at Bristol, England, $176.00; Birmingham Negro's Friend
Society, $50.00. Also received through Mr. Charles R.
Douglass, from the Birmingham Society, $33.00.</p></note>
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a large quantity of stores was received. Mrs. Lincoln
made frequent contributions, as also did the
President. In 1863 I was re-elected President of the
Association, which office I continue to hold.</p>
          <p>For two years after Willie's death the White House
was the scene of no fashionable display. The memory
of the dead boy was duly respected. In some things
Mrs. Lincoln was an altered woman. Sometimes, when
in her room, with no one present but myself, the mere
mention of Willie's name would excite her emotion,
and any trifling memento that recalled him would
move her to tears. She could not bear to look upon his
picture; and after his death she never
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crossed the threshold of the Guest's Room in
which he died, or the Green Room in which he
was embalmed. There was something supernatural in
her dread of these things, and something that she
could not explain. Tad's nature was the opposite of
Willie's, and he was always regarded as his father's
favorite child. His black eyes fairly sparkled with
mischief.</p>
          <p>The war progressed, fair fields had been stained
with blood, thousands of brave men had fallen, and
thousands of eyes were weeping for the fallen at
home. There were desolate hearthstones in the South
as well as in the North, and as the people of my race
watched the sanguinary struggle, the ebb and flow of
the tide of battle, they lifted their faces Zionward, as if
they hoped to catch a glimpse of the Promised Land
beyond the sulphureous clouds of smoke which
shifted now and then but to reveal ghastly rows of
new-made graves. Sometimes the very life of the
nation seemed to tremble with the fierce shock
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of arms. In 1863 the Confederates were flushed with
victory, and sometimes it looked as if the proud flag of
the Union, the glorious old Stars and Stripes, must
yield half its nationality to the tri-barred flag that
floated grandly over long columns of gray. These were
sad, anxious days to Mr. Lincoln, and those who saw
the man in privacy only could tell how much he
suffered. One day he came into the room where I was
fitting a dress on Mrs. Lincoln. His step was slow and
heavy, and his face sad. Like a tired child he threw
himself upon a sofa, and shaded his eyes with his
hands. He was a complete picture of dejection. Mrs.
Lincoln, observing his troubled look, asked:</p>
          <p>“Where have you been, father?”</p>
          <p>“To the War Department,” was the brief, almost
sullen answer.</p>
          <p>“Any news?”</p>
          <p>“Yes, plenty of news, but no good news. It is dark,
dark everywhere.”</p>
          <pb id="keckley119" n="119"/>
          <p>He reached forth one of his long arms, and took a
small Bible from a stand near the head of the sofa,
opened the pages of the holy book, and soon was
absorbed in reading them. A quarter of an hour passed,
and on glancing at the sofa the face of the President
seemed more cheerful. The dejected look was gone,
and the countenance was lighted up with new
resolution and hope. The change was so marked that I
could not but wonder at it, and wonder led to the
desire to know what book of the Bible afforded so
much comfort to the reader. Making the search for a
missing article an excuse, I walked gently around the
sofa, and looking into the open book, I discovered that
Mr. Lincoln was reading that divine comforter, Job. He
read with Christian eagerness, and the courage and
hope that he derived from the inspired pages made him
a new man. I almost imagined that I could hear the
Lord speaking to him from out the whirlwind of battle:
“Gird up thy loins now
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like a man: I will demand of thee, and declare thou unto
me.” What a sublime picture was this! A ruler of a
mighty nation going to the pages of the Bible with
simple Christian earnestness for comfort and
courage, and finding both in the darkest hours of a
nation's calamity. Ponder it, O ye scoffers at God's
Holy Word, and then hang your heads for very
shame!</p>
          <p>Frequent letters were received warning Mr. Lincoln
of assassination, but he never gave a second thought
to the mysterious warnings. The letters, however,
sorely troubled his wife. She seemed to read impending
danger in every rustling leaf, in every whisper of the
wind.</p>
          <p>“Where are you going now, father?” she would
say to him, as she observed him putting on his
overshoes and shawl.</p>
          <p>“I am going over to the War Department, mother,
to try and learn some news.”</p>
          <p>“But, father, you should not go out alone. You
know you are surrounded with danger.”</p>
          <pb id="keckley121" n="121"/>
          <p>“All imagination. What does any one want to harm me
for? Don't worry about me, mother, as if I were a little
child, for no one is going to molest me;” and with a
confident, unsuspecting air he would close the door
behind him, descend the stairs, and pass out to his lonely
walk.</p>
          <p>For weeks, when trouble was anticipated, friends of
the President would sleep in the White House to
guard him from danger.</p>
          <p>Robert would come home every few months,
bringing new joy to the family circle. He was very
anxious to quit school and enter the army, but the
move was sternly opposed by his mother.</p>
          <p>“We have lost one son, and his loss is as much as
I can bear, without being called upon to make another
sacrifice,” she would say, when the subject was under
discussion.</p>
          <p>“But many a poor mother has given up all her
sons,” mildly suggested Mr. Lincoln, “and our son is
not more dear to us than the sons of other people are
to their mothers.”</p>
          <pb id="keckley122" n="122"/>
          <p>“That may be; but I cannot bear to have Robert
exposed to danger. His services are not required in
the field, and the sacrifice would be a needless one.”</p>
          <p>“The services of every man who loves his country
are required in this war. You should take a liberal
instead of a selfish view of the question, mother.”</p>
          <p>Argument at last prevailed, and permission was
granted Robert to enter the army. With the rank of
Captain and A. D. C. he went to the field, and
remained in the army till the close of the war.</p>
          <p>I well recollect a little incident that gave me a clearer
insight into Robert's character. He was at home at the
time the Tom Thumb combination was at Washington.
The marriage of little Hopo'-my-thumb—Charles
Stratton—to Miss Warren created no little excitement in
the world, and the people of Washington participated
in the general curiosity. Some of Mrs. Lincoln's
friends made
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her believe that it was the duty of Mrs. Lincoln to
show some attention to the remarkable dwarfs. Tom
Thumb had been caressed by royalty in the Old
World, and why should not the wife of the President
of his native country smile upon him, also? Verily,
duty is one of the greatest bugbears in life. A hasty
reception was arranged, and cards of invitation issued.
I had dressed Mrs. Lincoln, and she was ready to go
below and receive her guests, when Robert entered his
mother's room.</p>
          <p>“You are at leisure this afternoon, are you not,
Robert?”</p>
          <p>“Yes, mother.”</p>
          <p>“Of course, then, you will dress and come down-stairs.”</p>
          <p>“No, mother, I do not propose to assist in entertaining
Tom Thumb. My notions of duty, perhaps, are somewhat
different from yours.”</p>
          <p>Robert had a lofty soul, and he could not stoop
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to all of the follies and absurdities of the ephemeral
current of fashionable life.</p>
          <p>Mrs. Lincoln's love for her husband sometimes
prompted her to act very strangely. She was extremely
jealous of him, and if a lady desired to court her
displeasure, she could select no surer way to do it
than to pay marked attention to the President. These
little jealous freaks often were a source of perplexity
to Mr. Lincoln. If it was a reception for which they
were dressing, he would come into her room to conduct
her downstairs, and while pulling on his gloves ask,
with a merry twinkle in his eyes:</p>
          <p>“Well, mother, who must I talk with to-night—shall
it be Mrs. D.?”</p>
          <p>“That deceitful woman! No, you shall not listen to
her flattery.”</p>
          <p>“Well, then, what do you say to Miss C.? She is
too young and handsome to practise deceit.”</p>
          <p>“Young and handsome, you call her! You should
not judge beauty for me. No, she is
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in league with Mrs. D., and you shall not talk with
her.”</p>
          <p>“Well, mother, I must talk with some one. Is there
any one that you do not object to?” trying to
button his glove, with a mock expression of gravity.</p>
          <p>“I don't know as it is necessary that you should
talk to anybody in particular. You know well enough,
Mr. Lincoln, that I do not approve of your flirtations
with silly women, just as if you were a beardless boy,
fresh from school.”</p>
          <p>“But, mother, I insist that I must talk with
somebody. I can't stand around like a simpleton, and
say nothing. If you will not tell me who I may talk
with, please tell me who I may <hi rend="italics">not</hi> talk with.”</p>
          <p>“There is Mrs. D. and Miss C. in particular. I detest
them both. Mrs. B. also will come around you, but
you need not listen to her flattery. These are the ones
in particular.”</p>
          <pb id="keckley126" n="126"/>
          <p>“Very well, mother; now that we have settled
the question to your satisfaction, we will go
down-stairs;” and always with stately dignity, he
proffered his arm and led the way.</p>
        </div2>
        <div2 type="chapter">
          <pb id="keckley127" n="127"/>
          <head>CHAPTER VIII.</head>
          <head>CANDID OPINIONS.</head>
          <p>OFTEN Mr. and Mrs. Lincoln discussed
the relations of Cabinet officers, and gentlemen
prominent in politics, in my presence. I soon
learned that the wife of the President had no
love for Mr. Salmon P. Chase, at that time
Secretary of the Treasury. She was well versed in
human character, was somewhat suspicious of
those by whom she was surrounded, and often
her judgment was correct. Her intuition about
the sincerity of individuals was more accurate
than that of her husband. She looked beyond,
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and read the reflection of action in the future. Her
hostility to Mr. Chase was very bitter. She claimed that
he was a selfish politician instead of a true patriot, and
warned Mr. Lincoln not to trust him too far. The
daughter of the Secretary was quite a belle in
Washington, and Mrs. Lincoln, who was jealous of the
popularity of others, had no desire to build up her
social position through political fa