Was my old nurse and I had never known her name. Here she was, the love
of my life and she raised me from a baby for all those seven years and I
adored her, but I never knew her name. She was either Nursey or Alice.
You see, her daughter-in-law would not call her by her old name, she
kept telling me that she was "Mrs. Spraggs," and I
didn't know who Mrs. Spraggs was. I had never heard of Nursey
being called Mrs. Spraggs. It just shows you just how completely
backwards I was. But she did say,
"Sarah
Spraggs." So, I immediately recognized Sarah. Well, Sarah came
and she was a handsome woman then and we were both then in our thirties
and I said to Venice Spraggs, "Bring her down to the
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together." Well, the problem then was where in the name of God
to have lunch with two black women. At that time, the only place that
you could have lunch in Washington was at the YWCA, that was the only
place that you could go that was integrated, black and white together.
But there was a Chinese restaurant right near the office. So, I called
up this Chinese restaurant and asked them if they would take us . . . .
well, anyway we went there and they did take us and put us in a sort of
a little private room. So, it was Sarah and we had a wonderful time
talking about our childhood and our early life and Nursey by that time
had died, you see. So, I missed seeing her because I didn't
know her name. But the thing that Sarah remembered about me was when I
threw the knife at my cousin because she called her a little nigger and
wouldn't eat the chicken out of her hand. She had remembered
that all her life, and I unknown remembered it too. And
that was the thing that she remembered most about me. We tried to stay
in touch with each other, but then I think unknown she
finally went to Chicago and finally faded out. I can't find
her. I think that she got to be a school teacher. This is the
difficulty, here I was, just as intimate with Sarah and Nursey and the
tall yellow man, it was as though they were members of my family, and
yet, I literally never knew what their name was.
But anyway, going
back to the barbeque, I was acting badly. So, when I came down to
dinner, one o'clock dinner, you see, there was always dinner
in the middle of the day. Oh, my Aunt May and all of them were out to
get me in trouble, "Oh, Annie, You've got the wors
child. She said, ‘Goddamn.’ " I was the
real villain and of course, I began to cry because I felt that everybody
was against me, so I went out on the backporch and sat in
Nursey's lap and she hugged me and kissed me and comforted
me. Then, the party came on, this was the white party. They
Page 30 had a summerhouse on the front lawn. I had had typhoid
fever the year before, very severe typhoid fever and they starved you in
those days, they literally gave you nothing to eat. They gave you ice
baths to keep your fever down and all that you could eat was water and
white of egg or something beaten up in it. They gave you absolutely no
food at all and I was just in a state of starvation. I don't
know how many pounds I lost. I was so weak when it was over that I
couldn't walk, I learned how to walk all over again.
That's how I got curly hair, though, that's one
thing that happened, my hair got curly from the high fever or something.
That really is true, I never had very curly hair when I was younger and
after I had typhoid fever, I got very curly hair. Have you ever heard of
that before? I never heard of it either, but that's what my
mother always said happened. But in any case, all during my
convelesence, I would be planning my birthday party. I was going to have
a pink dress, a pink sash . . . I loved pink, and pink slippers and pink
socks and a pink birthday cake and pink ice cream. Well, I did. I had a
pair of pink kid slippers and pair of pink socks and a pink organdy
dress and all embroidered and ruffled and laced and I had a pink sash
and a pink bow in my hair and I had a pink cake and pink ice cream. And
you would have thought that I would have been the happiest thing in the
world, I had everything just as I wanted, presents and all. But the
other little white children, they were just gathered from the town, you
know, little girls and boys that I should know, but I didn't
and none of the little black children could come, and I was in disgrace
from calling my cousin a damn fool and throwing a knife at her. So, all
of a sudden, I had a tantrum. I lay down on the ground and yelled and
screamed and kicked and was put to bed again. The party went on without
me. I was again in
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down to the table that night for supper, my mother by this time was
quite worried about me because this was the second time that I had been
put to bed on my birthday.
And the whole family thought that
I was just the most vicious child in the whole world. I had said,
"Goddamn," and thrown a knife at my cousin. I
don't think that they thought about my taking up for Sarah,
it was my action toward my cousin. Well, bless God if they
didn't all start after me again at the dinner table.
"Annie, you've got the worst child that
I've ever known, you've got to do something about
her." Well, I got mad again and threw a glass of water at my
cousin or my aunt, I don't know which. I had another tantrum
and I was banished. I went on the back porch again, crying and sat in
Nursey's lap and I could hear, it was right outside the
dining room door and I heard my aunt say, "Annie,
you've got to do something about that child." This
was my Aunt May, the fashionable New Yorker, "She is the worst
child that I have ever known in my life." She said,
"Now, I do think that you have got to do something about that
nurse of hers that spoils her so badly. She kisses and hugs that woman
all the time. And you know, all those black women have disease and you
don't know what she'll catch." Here I was
sitting in Nursey's lap and of course, Nursey heard all of
this. My mother didn't take up for Nursey but she took up for
me.