Importance of racial identity and sense of community
Murray explains that "hatred of segregation was not hatred of community," describing the strong sense of identity she and her peers shared while growing up. Contrasting her generation to those of later years, Murray emphasizes the importance of their sense of racial identity as it pertained to their hopes for a more equitable future.
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Oral History Interview with Pauli Murray, February 13, 1976. Interview G-0044. Southern Oral History Program Collection (#4007) in the Southern Oral History Program Collection, Southern Historical Collection, Wilson Library, University of North Carolina at Chapel Hill.
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Now, are there any other matters that you think are significant
about your childhood experiences and your ancestry that we ought to talk
about before we move on to New York?
- PAULI MURRAY:
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Yes, I want to, particularly in light of some of the experiences of young
blacks today, I want to make one or two comments about identity. I am
not aware of the kind of identity crisis for many of us in my generation
as has been suggested about young blacks of the present generation. I
think that we had a very strong sense, and Ralph Ellison says the same
thing and he's my contemporary, he grew up in Oklahoma where
there were segregated schools. We had a very stong sense of our
identity. Booker T. Washington, Paul Laurence Dunbar, these were very
significant people in our lives. We had no self-consciousness about
reciting Paul Laurence Dunbar in dialect and as a matter of fact, the
person who could really recite Paul Lawrence Dunbar with all the flair
of his dialect, was considered a very talented, gifted person. I
remember my classmate, Betty Hicks, I don't know whether
she's retired now, but Betty Hicks worked for North Carolina
Mutual Life Insurance Company and Betty was really a genius at reciting
Paul Laurence Dunbar. I've often thought that if someone
could have discovered her when she was young, she would have made a
great dramatic actress. But what am I saying? We did have
this sense of racial identity. I remember in our family, finding these
little pamphlets, "Thirty Years of Freedom," and then
a second little pamphlet, "Fifty Years of Freedom,"
and these were little playlets that had been written up for community
groups to dramatize. One must have referred to about 1890, or maybe 1895
and the other one must have been 1910 or '15.
- GENNA RAE MCNEIL:
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Are you saying that despite the problem and the harm of segregation that also there were many things of value that
came out of the fact that black people were so close to each other and
was there in fact something even comfortable about that black community,
that community that was totally black?
- PAULI MURRAY:
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I am sure that there were many positives about it, as I think, for
example, of the social life and the community life, I think of White
Rock Baptist Church, St. Joseph Baptist Church …
- GENNA RAE MCNEIL:
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A.M.E., the A.M.E. Church?
- PAULI MURRAY:
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Yes, the St. Joseph A.M.E. Church, Mother Zion A.M.E. Church. I think of
many kinds of community activities that took place in these community
centers, so to speak. And these were comfortable. The point at which
life became unbearable was in the contact with the white world, in the
sense of business contacts, or going into the community and being made
to feel inferior by all the signs and symbols and the etiquette, the
racial etiquette in terms of being called by your first name or people
addressing adult Negroes as "Auntie" or
"Uncle" and maybe "boy" and this
kind of thing. In the relationships between the superiors, the school
official superiors and the teachers, and since I had so many relatives
who were teachers, I was very aware of the hierarchy of the
relationships and the interracial relationships in the school system,
the superintendent or supervisor who comes in and calls your teacher by
her first name. This, I think I talk about in Proud
Shoes. So, the hatred of segregation was not hatred of community
life among Negroes, it was finding barriers that hemmed you in, that you
were not free to go and come as you chose. Does that make sense to
you?
- GENNA RAE MCNEIL:
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Yes. And in fact, would I be taking liberties if I said that you had a sense that people were building a sense of
community and that this was something that would happen regardless of
the outer environment, that people would continue to associate with each
other and be proud of their heritage and have a sense of
identity?
- PAULI MURRAY:
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Now, I must say this. In my house, I always heard about the race,
"You can't keep this race down. This race is going
to show the world yet." The race, the race. So, I called my
aunts "race women." There was that sense of loyalty
and dedication to the advancement of the race. So, there
wasn't a negative feeling about my racial identity in my
house and yet, this strange tension between acute awareness of a mixed
ancestry and this devotion to "the race."